Shame your old work

[AwkwardlySet]

Self-rape. It's the latest. All the cool kids are doing it.

Damn your superior typing skills...

 

[Euphony]

Maybe you actually want to rape yourself?
Technically, all you need is a long enough strap-on and a lot of mid-body flexibility
This thread is really starting to shine

You're thinking actual logistics and here I am wondering how I can be both sexually aggressively into it and yet not interested/consenting at the same time.

Putting things in other things seems the easy part.

 

[AwkwardlySet]

You're thinking actual logistics and here I am wondering how I can be both sexually aggressively into it and yet not interested/consenting at the same time.

Putting things in other things seems the easy part.

Learn to compartmentalize!

 

[MediocreAuthor]

Self-rape. It's the latest. All the cool kids are doing it.

That's super funny, because a story that I have planned is called "Self-cest: A Time Crime" and it's about a husband and wife who travel back in time and they have NC/R sex with their 18-19 year old selves.

The woman's younger self is unsure about having sex with her future self and her future husband, but it's okay, because her older self consents

(Touching their younger selves won't destabilize the timeline, don't worry)

 

[Euphony]

Learn to compartmentalize!

On it!

https://reelfilm.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/01/memyselfirene.png

 

[Euphony]

That's super funny, because a story that I have planned is called "Self-cest: A Time Crime" and it's about a husband and wife who travel back in time and they have NC/R sex with their 18-19 year old selves.

The woman's younger self is unsure about having sex with her future self and her future husband, but it's okay, because her older self consents

(Touching their younger selves won't destabilize the timeline, don't worry)

https://media4.giphy.com/media/hIsQCdqQRMIHvg8jRN/giphy_s.gif?cid=6c09b952dm51gpg8ewlqg7x0qp20qldcr8thufmenkuzlqdo&ep=v1_internal_gif_by_id&rid=giphy_s.gif&ct=g

Your exploration possibilities seem boundless.

 

[MediocreAuthor]

No, dear. I state that behind these so-called "fantasies" lie self-loathing, self-hatred, and shame.

Ohhhh! Self-loathing and shame I HAVE!!!

One need only look at my pseudonym, to see my desire for obvious self-deprecation!

 

[joy_of_cooking]

The woman's younger self is unsure about having sex with her future self and her future husband, but it's okay, because her older self consents

Come for the ethical thought experiment, stay for the steamy sex scenes?

 

[MediocreAuthor]

Come for the ethical thought experiment, stay for the steamy sex scenes?

That's the idea.

 

[Dearelliot]

Only two stories, and I'm not ashamed of them...I wish I could have done better, but then to what end, I'm not trying to sell them...
It is time-consuming to write, at least for me it is and many readers have different tastes in erotica, than the subject matter I write about.
I'd love to go back over them, touch them up, and make them a little better...but I would rather spend that time on the new stories I'm writing.

 

[MediocreAuthor]

https://media4.giphy.com/media/hIsQCdqQRMIHvg8jRN/giphy_s.gif?cid=6c09b952dm51gpg8ewlqg7x0qp20qldcr8thufmenkuzlqdo&ep=v1_internal_gif_by_id&rid=giphy_s.gif&ct=g

Your exploration possibilities seem boundless.

Hey now, no Oedipus R̶e̶x̶ Sex

 

[MediocreAuthor]

Mediocre is far from "obvious self-deprecation."

Well, I often agree with you... But my fans seem to disagree.
¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

 

[MetaBob]

The only thing I've felt embarrassed about was my second published novel: Valley Winter Loop (see the link in my signature). My first published book, The Dog Whisperer, first posted here as an entry in Literotica's 2020 Summer Lovin' contest, had been accepted by a publisher elsewhere (after a multi-week evaluation), so I thought I would try a spin as a published author. The Dog Whisperer was published seven months later and quickly became my publisher's most popular title of more than 700, and stayed there for almost two months, and in their top 5 for six months. More than two years later, it's still in the top 15 for its category (Femdom).

Last June I submitted a new book to them and it was accepted in five hours. Sounds good, right? (Well, okay it was pretty good.) But they wanted to publish in three weeks, perhaps anticipating a similar success. I thought I was going to have something like six months to agonize over every word, which is my usual self-editing process. And I quickly realized that the book I thought was finished had too many loose ends for my taste, so I ended up not only writing three new chapters in those three weeks, but also frantically editing the whole book multiple times.

I didn't fix everything I later wanted to. I found exactly two typos in The Dog Whisperer once I had a physical copy in my hand. It had the benefit of more than a year of review time. Those two typos drove me nuts, so of course I fixed them in my master copy of the text, along with making several small changes. But all in all I was pretty damn pleased with the published version.

Valley Winter Loop had a lot more than two typos, though the first half-plus of the book was near-flawless. The second half, not so much.

The next thing I publish, here or elsewhere, will get a lot more time to ripen. Several other authors here have helped, though Lit's Volunteer Editor program has been no use -- I always get ghosted if I get any response at all.

An updated version of my 2019 entry in Literotica's 2019 Summer Lovin' contest, Packback, has also been published and is available on Amazon and other places, but I made sure the original version would stay up here and at the other story site where I originally posted it -- a gift to the readers and the free sites who first validated that I seemed to have some aptitude for this writing thing. Both of my Summer Lovin' entries got a red H despite not being submitted until the very end of the entry period, but not a prize. I figured that at some level these become popularity contests, and because being popular for popularity's sake has never been a goal for me, I'm not gonna win one of those -- I just wanted to be a good, self-sustaining writer. I like to think that I am succeeding, at least at the "good" part, but of course I still have a day job so the "self-sustaining" part remains in question.

 

[MetaBob]

I've only been publishing on this app for less than a year, but I honestly feel like some of my old work is TRASH

While Women's World is a great premise (I stand by that) I think it's an unpolished turd.

Who else has older works that they're ashamed of?

FWIW, I liked this story, though I thought it had an inauspicious beginning -- Blake seemed shallow and vapid at first:

'I'm so excited I think I might die!!'

I know this is a role-reversal story where females are the big strong gender, but I thought this reflected poorly on how girls IRL can be portrayed, even at 18 years old. I finished both parts of the story regardless, and after that first cringe-y section, I thought it worked rather better. Maybe "unpolished" but not a "turd". A few tweaks of the early part of that story might vastly improve your opinion of it.

 

[lovecraft68]

I shame my old work for atrocious grammar. I had no idea how to write, I was just telling a story. Even now, my grammar is much improved, but my strength lies in creative and story telling, not technical writing.

As for shaming an actual story or idea, I guess there's two. Both are old-2011/2012-one is a taboo Christmas story based on a 'tradition' and it caught some flack from some readers, one in particular who was so angry that after a scathing e-mail to me, one that I gave a very rational response to because he actually gave me a way to respond, he apologized, then asked if he could publish a version of how it should have ended. I said sure.

Now years later, I look back and I feel...WTF was I thinking? I don't see it now like I did then, not sure why, but it now falls under "They were right."

The other is an attempt at NC/R I did for survivor contest and meant to be a sleazy 'you need something from me, so how about I get something in return" dub con piece. But I look back and think I fell over the line more than once, and it left a bad taste in my mouth. But both stories are still here as reminders that not all ideas are good ones.

 

[Euphony]

Hey now, no Oedipus R̶e̶x̶ Sex

https://i.imgur.com/0YVkypN.gif

 

[MediocreAuthor]

I know this is a role-reversal story where females are the big strong gender, but I thought this reflected poorly on how girls IRL can be portrayed, even at 18 years old. I finished both parts of the story regardless, and after that first cringe-y section, I thought it worked rather better. Maybe "unpolished" but not a "turd". A few tweaks of the early part of that story might vastly improve your opinion of it.

Your criticism is entirely fair. Blake is 18 physically, but, per the rules of the alternate universe, is still only a highschool freshman. As such, I tried to portray him as immature, because I was trying to capture some of the feelings that I felt in highschool towards older classmates.

I'm not saying I succeeded obviously, I am just explaining why Blake comes across as so shallow for a guy his age.

But thank you for reading it, just the same, and I'm glad you were able to get some enjoyment out of it.

 

[ZfrkS62]

I was about to make a new thread on this topic when this one was suggested.

All of my work here is from 2004/5, maybe 6. The one that's currently flagged as "Hot", I don't recall writing.

I re-read my non-erotic story, and jumping Jesus on a pogo stick, do I want to correct that dreck.

I've got 2 stories in process right now, one of which was started in 2018, and the FC is actually a blend of two different women now.

The other, I thought was done, and submitted to the inspiration as part of a bet I was about to lose. Yeah, no. I realized there was hardly anything sexy about the sexy part and even the description of what was getting FC going was leaving by my standards, so it's getting a re-write as well. I'll end up submitting it once I'm happy with it, but might want a beta reader first.

Self-rape. It's the latest. All the cool kids are doing it.

I think this is when you wake up touching yourself...

 

[DanDraper]

I created my first account on this site about 20 years ago, before I came back to writing regularly a few years ago under my current username. There are still a few stories there and looking back at them I can't saying to myself what the fuck was I thinking? Sure, they were written when I was very young and didn't know any better, but they're still pretty bad. I would delete the whole account if I could ever remember the password to get in there and make that request; but it's been too long, I can't remember any of my old passwords for anything that I used from that time. But they're still there for now, maybe some people who still run into them occasionally may enjoy them.


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[Kumquatqueen]

My earliest stories are actually some of my best ones, because I had an idea for a story (as opposed to just going off and seeing what happened), and most importantly, they benefitted from two to twenty years of editing before they appeared on Lit.

Since then I've done much more playing around with characters, ideas, dialogue, and posting when I feel it's an adequate story and I'm wanting to move on. Or for an event deadline.

If anything, scores look like I'm getting worse as a writer, but it's more that I'm doing experiments, posting stories that don't neatly fit readers' expectations, and messing about with words for fun. If it stops being fun, I'll stop doing it.

 

[ZfrkS62]

I created my first account on this site about 20 years ago, before I came back to writing regularly a few years ago under my current username. There are still a few stories there and looking back at them I can't saying to myself what the fuck was I thinking? Sure, they were written when I was very young and didn't know any better, but they're still pretty bad. I would delete the whole account if I could ever remember the password to get in there and make that request; but it's been too long, I can't remember any of my old passwords for anything that I used from that time. But they're still there for now, maybe some people who still run into them occasionally may enjoy them.


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So you even remember the email you used for that one? I got lucky and still had access to this one when I used the password recovery link. They might even let you send the recovery to another email, if you contact support.

 

[tenyari]

I have an older story that I actually feel is mostly very well written... BUT... It was part of a shared universe community that I grew extremely disgusted with over time and it's not on this site as the core theme was the characters would be in high school... and even that age became 'too old' for some of the other authors so I freaked the freak out and got out.

 

[DanDraper]

So you even remember the email you used for that one? I got lucky and still had access to this one when I used the password recovery link. They might even let you send the recovery to another email, if you contact support.

No, I can't remember the old email for it either. That's how long it had been. I can't even remember what old password I might have used back then either. Last year I did send support a message about it to see what could be done but they said the best they could do was to send a recovery password link to the email attached to the username, but like I said, I don't remember what that even was.


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