sissymandy
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- Jul 6, 2019
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So I wanted to start a new thread as I feel I continue to evolve and peel back the layers to discover who I really am. After a great deal of thought about what I am I can only describe myself as a gender fluid girl with some sissy tendencies 
. Now first of all just let me say I have nothing against crossdressers TV`s or anything like that. You just doing your thang and I love them & respect them. But I feel I must differentiate myself from such. You see I realised I was given no choice but I finally found me and understood that for some reason a large portion of my DNA is actually feminine. I am not confused by my sexuality. I identify as male but I also 'feel' feminine. I am not just a boy putting girls clothing on. Hallelujah !! I finally disposed of those feelings of guilt & shame I held for years and now im embracing the pink and the sparkly. And its like a weight being lifted so with great joy this gives me the freedom to look how I want and to wear what I want. I adore the freedom it gives me and just being able to let my imagination run free.
So the big question what is my sexuality. I would have to describe myself as bisexual. I like genetic women particularly strong women. And I like strong men too but assertive real men. I mean men who are not looking at what im wearing and wish they could wear it
. I really like married men too. Not sure why although I do sometimes imagine being a wife to a strong successful man.
I love this this quote by Lacey Leigh at around the turn of the century which I thought was really appropriate.
I am not emulating femininity, I am expressing it.
I am not pretending, I am experiencing.
I am not imitating, I am exploring.
I am not copying, I am celebrating.
I also want to add something I read very recently which struck a chord with me because its almost exactly how I feel.
A lot of trans, especially TVs, enjoy the fetishistic aspects of dressing. TGs are more driven by gender disassociation and being in the wrong body. Drag Queens tend to be non-hetero (and I’m not categorising!). I don’t think my urges are fetishistic. There is no sexual aspect to my dressing. The resultant images can be a little arousing after the fact, but, to coin a humorous phrase, I don’t have any difficulty tucking, if you know what I mean, when I’m prepping to dress. What I’m saying, badly, is that everyone is different. I take a huge amount of pleasure out of dressing, to me it’s a safety valve that keeps the raging idiot in check. It’s hard to be cynical, miserable or angry when you’re completely femm’d up. But it’s not the same for everyone.
Thanks for reading and sticking with me. I also want to use this thread to post some of my newer images. I hope you dont mind and will enjoy them
Hi
https://i.imgur.com/zoXmBmq.jpg
. Now first of all just let me say I have nothing against crossdressers TV`s or anything like that. You just doing your thang and I love them & respect them. But I feel I must differentiate myself from such. You see I realised I was given no choice but I finally found me and understood that for some reason a large portion of my DNA is actually feminine. I am not confused by my sexuality. I identify as male but I also 'feel' feminine. I am not just a boy putting girls clothing on. Hallelujah !! I finally disposed of those feelings of guilt & shame I held for years and now im embracing the pink and the sparkly. And its like a weight being lifted so with great joy this gives me the freedom to look how I want and to wear what I want. I adore the freedom it gives me and just being able to let my imagination run free.So the big question what is my sexuality. I would have to describe myself as bisexual. I like genetic women particularly strong women. And I like strong men too but assertive real men. I mean men who are not looking at what im wearing and wish they could wear it
. I really like married men too. Not sure why although I do sometimes imagine being a wife to a strong successful man. I love this this quote by Lacey Leigh at around the turn of the century which I thought was really appropriate.
I am not emulating femininity, I am expressing it.
I am not pretending, I am experiencing.
I am not imitating, I am exploring.
I am not copying, I am celebrating.
I also want to add something I read very recently which struck a chord with me because its almost exactly how I feel.
A lot of trans, especially TVs, enjoy the fetishistic aspects of dressing. TGs are more driven by gender disassociation and being in the wrong body. Drag Queens tend to be non-hetero (and I’m not categorising!). I don’t think my urges are fetishistic. There is no sexual aspect to my dressing. The resultant images can be a little arousing after the fact, but, to coin a humorous phrase, I don’t have any difficulty tucking, if you know what I mean, when I’m prepping to dress. What I’m saying, badly, is that everyone is different. I take a huge amount of pleasure out of dressing, to me it’s a safety valve that keeps the raging idiot in check. It’s hard to be cynical, miserable or angry when you’re completely femm’d up. But it’s not the same for everyone.
Thanks for reading and sticking with me. I also want to use this thread to post some of my newer images. I hope you dont mind and will enjoy them
Hi
https://i.imgur.com/zoXmBmq.jpg
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