CocksuckingSub81
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- Jan 1, 2015
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I am 5 ft 8, divorced, brunette, green eyes, G cup tits, bare pussy, few extra pounds. My limits are bestiality, incest, minors, anything that draws blood/puts me at risk for STDs/threatens my career. Otherwise I need a Dom to completely sexually dominate me…Age is not important as long as he is truly dominant and has the experience to be a good Dom for a submissive with a very strong need to please her Master. If you are interested, read on...
While I have been aware of my submissive nature since my 20's, it is only now, in the last few months that I have admitted it to myself and begun exploring it in online experience. For the last 25 years I have felt like something was missing in my life, in my relationships, and have struggled as a result.
Very intelligent, strong-willed, independent, and by all appearances vanilla and conservative, I have presented this facade to the world, and I truly believe that anyone who knows me would be shocked to discover what lies underneath the surface. My relationships have been disasters as I seem to attract men who want me to be in control. I take great joy in pleasing people, and in giving, and I have mistakenly been drawn into relationships where I try to help my partner, fix things for them, if that makes any sense.
I have been told repeatedly that I "am a handful" and that "it would take a strong man to rein me in." And I can be quite headstrong and stubborn. But I have come to realize that this is an expression of my need to be controlled, a way of testing a man to see if he has what it takes, although perhaps an ill-conceived subconscious method. I have been disappointed repeatedly, and end up unable to respect my partner when he expects or allows me to control (i.e. take care of) everything.
During the last 2 months of experiences, I have found great joy and fulfillment in submitting. I have been surprised at how strong my desire is to please my Sir, so strong that I have found myself submitting to things that have always been absolute and unshakeable limits in the past. While I have not had any real life submissive experiences, I have learned a lot about myself during this time.
I have found that my need to submit and please my Master overwhelms my sexual inhibitions. That I get great joy and fulfillment from submitting to my Master's will, even if the acts required of me are not ones I enjoy, and even if I would otherwise find them disgusting. I have discovered that while I long to be a slut for my Master, and would gladly allow my Master to use me in any way he wished, I have no desire to just go out and "sleep around" for lack of better terminology. However, I would take great pleasure in submitting to my Master's desires to use me as a slut, to allow his friends to use me, to use me in public, to expose me….in other words to make me his slut, his whore.
To my surprise, I have also discovered that humiliation arouses me to an amazing degree. Doing tasks that are embarrassing, such as writing derogatory words on my body, going shopping braless (I have huge tits) and/or with nipple clamps visible beneath my top, going into a sex shop and admitting that Sir has required me to purchase an item (such as a bigger butt plug) all make my pussy wet. Being called names, such as slut, whore, cunt (a word that I found unspeakable in the past) gets my juices flowing. Being forced to drop the facade I present to the world and expose my secret needs and desires….
Please PM me if you would like to know more and are local to the Buffalo area, or at least travel here regularly. Thank you.
While I have been aware of my submissive nature since my 20's, it is only now, in the last few months that I have admitted it to myself and begun exploring it in online experience. For the last 25 years I have felt like something was missing in my life, in my relationships, and have struggled as a result.
Very intelligent, strong-willed, independent, and by all appearances vanilla and conservative, I have presented this facade to the world, and I truly believe that anyone who knows me would be shocked to discover what lies underneath the surface. My relationships have been disasters as I seem to attract men who want me to be in control. I take great joy in pleasing people, and in giving, and I have mistakenly been drawn into relationships where I try to help my partner, fix things for them, if that makes any sense.
I have been told repeatedly that I "am a handful" and that "it would take a strong man to rein me in." And I can be quite headstrong and stubborn. But I have come to realize that this is an expression of my need to be controlled, a way of testing a man to see if he has what it takes, although perhaps an ill-conceived subconscious method. I have been disappointed repeatedly, and end up unable to respect my partner when he expects or allows me to control (i.e. take care of) everything.
During the last 2 months of experiences, I have found great joy and fulfillment in submitting. I have been surprised at how strong my desire is to please my Sir, so strong that I have found myself submitting to things that have always been absolute and unshakeable limits in the past. While I have not had any real life submissive experiences, I have learned a lot about myself during this time.
I have found that my need to submit and please my Master overwhelms my sexual inhibitions. That I get great joy and fulfillment from submitting to my Master's will, even if the acts required of me are not ones I enjoy, and even if I would otherwise find them disgusting. I have discovered that while I long to be a slut for my Master, and would gladly allow my Master to use me in any way he wished, I have no desire to just go out and "sleep around" for lack of better terminology. However, I would take great pleasure in submitting to my Master's desires to use me as a slut, to allow his friends to use me, to use me in public, to expose me….in other words to make me his slut, his whore.
To my surprise, I have also discovered that humiliation arouses me to an amazing degree. Doing tasks that are embarrassing, such as writing derogatory words on my body, going shopping braless (I have huge tits) and/or with nipple clamps visible beneath my top, going into a sex shop and admitting that Sir has required me to purchase an item (such as a bigger butt plug) all make my pussy wet. Being called names, such as slut, whore, cunt (a word that I found unspeakable in the past) gets my juices flowing. Being forced to drop the facade I present to the world and expose my secret needs and desires….
Please PM me if you would like to know more and are local to the Buffalo area, or at least travel here regularly. Thank you.
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