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This is something I have thought about doing for a long time--post my entire sexual life (actually just the peaks, with very few valleys). I have related my experiences as if I am talking to my psychoanalyst. I am at your mercy for constructive feedback.
While I'm here on the couch Doctor, there are a few things I want to get off my chest.
I am 49 years old, married for 27, and have three grown children, the only daughter is happily married. I attend church regularly, teach a Bible school class, and have a respectable job. However, sometimes I wonder if I have a dark side. By that, I have often wondered if my sexual makeup is warped or normal, relative to the majority of Caucasian, Anglo-Saxon Americans. Here are the most vivid memories of my sexuality. Tell me doctor, am I normal?
My first sexual memory dates back to my toddler years in the early 50s. I remember taking a bath with my mother. We were sitting in the tub facing each other. I was embarrassed to look upon her naked breasts and mysterious dark pubic bush. That was the only memory I have of bathing with her.
In the late 50s, I had a friend spend the night. He had an older brother who was already in puberty, and was trying to explain to me about how his brother masturbated. At approximately 8-9 years old, I could get an erection, but try as I might, I couldn't figure out what an orgasm was. I ended up tinkling in the toilet, with a red and swollen erection, and ask my friend if I was having an orgasm.
Later, as I approached puberty, I used to rummage through my mother's lingerie drawers, and fondle and sniff her brassieres, girdles and panties. I also found her diaphragm, but did not know what it was . . . likewise for her douche bag and nozzle, which hung in her shower. Later, while rummaging through my father's clothes drawers I came upon a magazine which showed naked men and women. This was back during the early 60s.
During the years when I was 12-14, we went on vacation one summer, and rented a cabin at a mountain lake resort. Me and my four siblings slept in the great room on a pallet, while my mother and father slept in the only bedroom. My oldest brother discovered a peephole through a heater vent that allowed us to peek through into their bedroom. My younger brothers were fast asleep. When it was my turn, I saw mom standing by the side of the bed, where my dad was lying, showing him the new bathing suit she had bought. She was pointing out how her pubic hair was sticking out the sides along her groin. Just about that time, she allowed the top of her one-piece suit to fall open, and leaned over my dad, causing her breasts to hang low and heavy while my dad stroked them and pinched her nipples. About that time, my older brother pushed me aside so he could take a peek.
During a weekend trip to my aunt's house, I remember brushing my teeth along side my mother, who was wearing only her billowing nightgown. As she leaned over the sink, I could look at her reflection in the mirror and see completely down the front of her gown. I remember how full and heavy her naked breasts looked, and how dark her pubic thatch appeared.
That same night, my brother and two cousins, all 3-4 years older than me, slept on a pallet in the living room. I had not yet entered puberty as they had. I remember them talking about a "circle jerk." I had no idea what it was, but they explained that we were all going to sit around in the dark with our pajama bottoms off, and jerk our penises. I went along with them, fully trusting, and remember them illuminating me with a flashlight, and laughing, when they caught me playing with myself. Later that night, they talked me into playing "husband and wife" with my cousin Tim. He was about 17 at the time, and I was probably 14. They told us to play as if we were "going to have a baby." They had me take off my pajama bottoms and lie on my stomach, totally naked. Tim lay on top of me and started to rub his soft penis up and down my butt cheeks. It was quite dark in the room, and I remember after a few minutes he rolled off took a jar of Vaseline his brother gave him, and rubbed it on his penis, which was now quite stiff. He also rubbed some between my ass cheeks. As I lay still, he again lay on top of me and I could feel his stiff erection starting to probe my inner thighs and ass cheeks. It actually felt quite stimulating to me, and I really enjoyed it. After a few minutes of thrusting his slick pole between my thighs, he lifted himself up slightly, grasp his stiff penis, and placed it directly against my anus. I felt some pressure as he began to push forward, but with all the Vaseline, he easily slipped inside me and soon he was humping my buttocks quite rapidly. I could feel him inside me, and it really didn't hurt at all. All you could hear in the room was the sound of his belly hitting my back side. I remember how sweaty he felt as he slipped around on my back, careful to never allow his penis to slip out of my anus. It felt really good to me, and caused me to get an erection. Soon I could hear him groan and then lay still. That is when he must have ejaculated inside me. I remember my older brother and cousin asking him if he had an orgasm. He lay on top of me for a little while, and then rolled off, his penis slipping easily from my ass. He was breathing really hard, as if he was tired.
One night my older brother, who was about 17 or 18, had one of his friends from church spend the night. I don't remember how it happened, but the three of us ended up in my brother's double bed. My brother's friend, Gary, was in the middle and I was on his right side. Before long, we all had our pants pulled off and Gary told me to "jack" him off. I really didn't know what he wanted me to do, so he showed me how to wrap my hand around his stiff shaft and flick my wrist up and down. His penis was enormous. Probably 8-9 inches long and very thick. He also had red pubic hair. I also remember the musky smell of his penis and groin. For some reason, I could not bring him to an orgasm, so he told me to "blow" him. Again, I was ignorant of what he wanted me to do, so he told me to suck his penis. I remember how salty his plump flesh tasted, and how musky his pubic mound smelled as I sucked him into my mouth. I don't remember if he ever ejaculated in my mouth. That was the first time I ever sucked another boy's penis.
Soon thereafter, my next-door neighbor came over to the house and wanted to show me how he was growing pubic hair. We went out behind the garage and pulled our pants down. Sure enough, he had several strands of curly hair growing just above his penis and very low hanging balls. I still had only soft cotton like fur. Within a few weeks, I was excited to show him that I too had some long, dark hair starting to grow.
My younger brother, by two years, entered puberty at about the same time as I did. It wasn't long before we started fooling around with each other. It started with voyeurism. We shared a bedroom and a bunk bed. I remember the first time. I was lying in the bottom bunk, with the lights off, and I felt the bed starting to shake slightly. I soon realized that my brother was masturbating. It caused me to develop an erection, so I decided to join him. I pulled my underwear off and began to masturbate myself. He turned on his night-light and leaned over the bed to watch me. The thought of being watched caused me to have a very strong orgasm. From then on, from time to time, we would either watch each other, or share in mutual masturbation. I experimented with another friend or two, a few times, until I was about 15. I sucked a friend of mine who was on my baseball team, when he spent the night with me.
On another occasion, I spent the night at my friend Roger's house. He was the younger brother of Gary, my older brother's friend, whom I had already been in bed with. It turns out that Roger had a penis, similar in length and girth to his older brother. He had twin beds, and late in the night, I ask him if I could get in bed with him. He said yes. We started talking about sex, and soon had erections. We were just starting to feel each other up, when his dad came to the bedroom door and told us to quiet down and to get to sleep. I snuck back to my own bed.
My mom died of breast cancer just before I turned 16. Several of her sisters came to stay with us for a week or so, to help us out around the house. I had an opportunity to see several of my aunts naked, in the bath tub. I would climb into the attic and peek down through a vent in the ceiling. I remember going through one of my aunt's suitcases, and discovered a diaphragm and some KY Jelly. Thinking back, I'm pretty sure she had intercourse with my dad while she was there. She would have been about 50 and my dad about 46.
My grandmother came to live with us for several months. She was 68 at the time. I used to adjust the bathroom blinds and curtains so I could sneak outside at night and peek through the window as she undressed to take a bath. She had very large breasts, and I fantasized about her often when I masturbated. I also allowed her to "accidentally" catch me naked around the house. One late night I got up to go to the kitchen to look for something to eat. The whole house was dark, except for the little light from inside the fridge. My grandma came in the kitchen, wearing only a sheer gown, and bent over in front of the fridge to look for something for me to eat. I leaned forward and could see right down the front of her gown. Her breasts were a creamy white color with a network of blue veins running along the side. Her areolas were a dark brown color, about the size of a silver dollar, and her nipples stuck out like the tip of my thumb. She also had a massive growth of dark pubic hair, growing even down her thighs. I had quite an erection tenting my thin cotton pajama bottoms, and I'm sure my grandma noticed. When I got back to bed, I masturbated myself to a very strong and satisfying orgasm while fantasizing about my grandma.
My dad later got married to a woman who had a son and two young daughters. The oldest step daughter was about four years younger than I. When she was about 14, she began to flaunt her nice body in front of me. When I sat on the sofa watching TV in my robe, I would allow it to open just enough for her to see my erection. Nothing ever came of it as far as incest. For the remainder of my high school days, I dated several girls, and had a very beautiful black girlfriend, my junior and senior year. This was back in the late 60s and early 70s. I never had intercourse while in high school, but did do some heavy petting.
Once in college, I remember sitting up late one night studying in a deserted lobby. I heard an outer door open, and saw a guy walk in. I recognized him as someone whom, rumors around campus said, was queer. He was a roommate with a friend of mine from church, Jackie, who also was considered gay. I remember when I visited Jackie's house, when we were just teenagers, and Jackie always wore very tight jeans that did nothing to hide the outline of his penis and balls. Anyway, Jackie's friend continued down the hallway, toward his room, and out of sight. After about ten minutes, he returned to the lobby with some books and sat down in a chair next to mine. He was wearing very short cut-off jeans, and a T-shirt with sandals. He was somewhat thin, and had soft curly brown hair all over his legs. We didn't say anything to each other, but before long I glanced up and noticed he appeared to have fallen asleep. I also noticed that his penis and scrotal sac was hanging slightly out of the legs of his shorts. It was obvious he wasn't wearing any underwear. I continued to act like I was reading my book, but kept looking up to watch his penis as it started to swell and twitch as it grew longer and began to stick farther out of his pant's leg and into the open. I soon developed an erection of my own. His head was still laid back and his eyes were closed. I was wearing gym shorts with no underwear, so I pulled my own erection out the side of my leg and started to fondle myself, openly in front of him. He was probably looking at me through slits in his eyelids, but he made no move to openly acknowledge my nakedness. Soon his erection was long and stiff, and I sudden got an uncontrollable urge to reach over and start touching him. I pulled his penis and balls out into the open and started fondling his balls with my left hand while masturbating him with my right. Still he did not open his eyes, but just lay back with his legs gapped open. Before long, I watched as his sperm oozed all over my fingers. I kept up my gentle motions until he was fully satiated. I licked his sperm off my fingers, picked up my books and went back to my room, leaving him there alone, as if he was asleep. I'm sure he told Jackie what we had done together, and sometimes I fantasize about how it would have been had I been their roommate. Behind closed doors, we would have been free to do anything we wanted, in complete privacy. And, I would have a chance to see Jackie's nice penis and balls up close.
I ended up flunking out of college, and lived by myself in an apartment. There was an older lady, probably 50, who lived next door. One day she asked me to come over to her apartment. She had an 8mm projector set up and asked me if I wanted to watch a film with her. I think she was half drunk, because she was slurring her words. Soon she had the lights off and we both sat on the couch and started watching a film that showed a man fucking a woman doggy style. He pulled his penis out of her pussy and ejaculated onto her buttocks. Naturally I instantly developed a raging hard-on, and asked her if she wanted me to do that to her. She said yes. She lay back on her bed and pulled her pants down, I immediately mounted her, and within a few seconds, I was ejaculating into her pussy. She wanted me to keep it up, but I was already done, almost before we got started. I knew nothing about how to please a woman.
During a night out with the guys, we met up with a young twenty something girl. She invited us over to her house. She said her husband was in jail. While my two friends waited in the living room, she and I took a bath together. I was very turned on by her, and soon we were in bed. For some reason, however, I couldn't keep my erection. My Indian friend came in the bedroom and took my place. He penetrated her at once, and within a few minutes, he was done. I was once again aroused by the sight of them fucking, so I mounted her and quickly entered her as well. Her vagina was very slick from my friend's sperm. Nevertheless, I too soon ejaculated inside of her.
I was 19 when I got out of Marine boot camp. I was in the airport at San Diego, waiting for my flight home. I remember having a few beers, then having to go to the rest room. I had my dress greens on. As I was standing in front of a urinal, another man came in and stood next to me. We both began to urinate, and I glanced over at him, out of curiosity, to check out the size of his penis. He was very nice. He finished peeing before I did, but he continued to stand there and shake his penis from time to time. I glanced over, as I finished up, and noticed he was starting to develop an erection. I decided to shake my own penis, to allow him to see me as well. Soon, we both had stiff erections, and he turned to me and asked me if he could suck me off. I said sure. He got on his knees and sucked my stiff penis into his mouth. Soon I could no longer hold back and told him I was going to cum. He just looked up at me and continued to suck. I realized he wanted me to cum in his mouth, so I relaxed and enjoyed it even more as I ejaculated heavily inside his mouth. He quickly swallowed my sperm then stood up. I zipped up and left him in the restroom.
After a few live-in situations with a few women, I finally got married when I was 21. Around 24 years old, my wife and I moved back to the states and I enrolled in college. My brother and his wife came for a visit. While his wife was taking a bath, and my wife was in another room, my brother encouraged me to peek through the keyhole of the bathroom and look at his naked wife while she was bathing. We lived in a very old, one bedroom apartment, that still had skeleton key locks. Well, I was pretty turned on by the whole thing. That night, we talked our wives into sleeping together in our bed, while my brother and I slept on a pallet on the floor in the other room. That night I fucked my brother for the first time. I have to admit I really enjoyed it, and was quite aroused by the whole situation. That was the last time I had a sexual relations with my brother until four years later.
While in college, back in the mid 70s, I discovered glory holes in the men's room on the second floor of the student union. I used to visit every day and masturbate while peeking through the stall partition at other men. I sucked and was sucked by several men over the years, and I also sucked a black gentleman for the first time. He was about 50 years old and dressed in a nice sport jacket. He was standing in front of a urinal, which was directly next to the stall I was occupying. I peeked through a small hole and watched him urinate. His penis is the largest I have ever seen in my entire life. When he was finished peeing, he continued to fondle himself, until he started to develop an erection. It was obvious to him that I was watching him through the peephole. However, he zipped up and stepped out of sight to the sinks. I sat back and started masturbating myself while I could hear the water running in the sinks. I wanted to have my orgasm before he left the restroom, and I didn't care if he could hear me "slapping skin." He turned the water off, and the only sound you could hear was my rapid hand movements as I jerked off. He stood quiet for some time, and I soon began nearing orgasm. Just then, the door to my stall opened. The first thing I thought was, how could I have forgotten to lock the door? However, the black gentleman stood there just looking down at me, and asked if he could borrow some tissue to dry his hands. My legs were gapped open, my pants and underwear around my ankles, and my swollen erection was bobbing up and down. I handed him some tissue, and he quickly stepped inside and shut the door. Without a word, he unbuckled his pants, zipped them down, reached inside and pulled his magnificent penis into view. He offered it to me with one hand, and I leaned forward, grasped his thick shaft, and sucked his plumb-sized knob into my mouth. He just groaned slightly and began to gently move his hips back and forth, one hand on my shoulder, sawing his stiff, hose-length member in and out of my mouth. I grasped the base of his cock with my right hand and started to masturbate him while I sucked on his swollen glans. I fondled his heavy balls with my left hand, tugging gently on each egg-size stone, urging him to empty his sperm into my mouth. Within just a few minutes, he whispered that he was cumming. I continued to masturbate him until I could feel my mouth start to fill up with his warm sperm. I swallowed every drop and continued to nurse on his long thick penis for several more minutes. He finally pulled it from my lips with a plopping sound, zipped up, and left. I quickly masturbated myself to a very satisfying orgasm. I had several other sexual partners in those restrooms over the next few years.
One final incident happened while I was sitting in a middle stall. A man had entered the stall to my left and sat down. I peeked through the hole and saw that he was a very large man with very thick thighs and a hefty belly. His pants and underwear were down around his ankles, so it was obvious to me that he was willing to fool around. Before long, I could see him reach between his thighs and start fondling his penis. Before long, he had an erection starting, and I could tell he had a very thick penis. He leaned over to peek in at me, so I held my own stiff erection so that he could have a good look at it. I suddenly felt like I wanted to suck this man. He passed a note under the stall that said, "Hi, what do you like?" I wrote back that I wanted to suck him, and for him to slide his thighs under the stall. He got down and slid his thighs under the stall, and there was the object of my desire. He was huge. I quickly got down and started to suck him. His swollen glans was about the size of a lemon. Just then, we heard the outer restroom door open. We both quickly sat back down on our toilet seats, and the stall to my right opened. I peeked through and there was a black man sitting down on the seat. I watched as he began to play with himself. He then leaned over, and I fondled my own erection for him to see. I then put my hand under the partition because I wanted to suck him. I got down on my hands and knees, my naked butt in the air, as he slipped his magnificent erection under the partition. I sucked his black flesh into my mouth as my heavy set white partner watched through the peep hole. Soon, he reached under and ran his hand between my legs and played with my balls and penis, while I continued to suck the black penis. Before long, I felt a finger start to probe my anus as the black man started to ejaculate into my mouth. When he was done, he pulled out, and I turned around and began to such my white partner. He too ejaculated into my mouth. I have never felt my mouth so full of sperm before. His penis was the largest and most perfect white penis I have ever seen. It was smooth and blemish free, and perfectly circumcised. His pubic hair was a reddish brown color. When he was done, I sat back down on my seat and masturbated myself to a very satisfying orgasm.
After graduating from college, I re-entered the Marines. My brother came to visit. He was divorced at the time. I talked my wife into letting my brother fuck her. She is really hot and sexually open about these kinds of things. While my brother was fucking her, I licked his balls, fulfilling one of my fantasies.
While in our 30s, my wife and I had a few occasions where we participated in wife swapping with some of our best friends in the military. One night Larry and Toni were spending the night with us. We started out in a hot tub, with me and Larry totally naked, while the girls had their tops off. My wife's breasts are quite a bit bigger than Toni's, but hers are very perky. Her big tight ass makes up for any short coming in the tittie department. Larry and my wife went into the house, supposedly to the bedroom, while I stayed outside in the hot tub with Larry's wife Toni. We kissed and fondled until I tried slipping my erection inside the leg of her bikini bottom. She resisted until she felt my stiff penis penetrate her slick vagina. Within seconds, I was ejaculating inside of her. We ended up in bed together, for the night, and we fucked six more times that night. I could not get enough of her sexy ass and pussy, and she joked about having my sperm running down her thighs all the next day.
While my wife was in Spain, visiting her mother, Dorothy, the wife of another good military friend, came by my house. We ended up drinking some wine, then I took her into the bedroom and sucked her pussy to orgasm, then fucked her real good. I still fantasize about both Toni and Dorothy.
I also had another sexual encounter with a strange man, while my wife was gone. One night I went to a convenience store to look for some pornographic magazines. While I was standing at the magazine rack in the back of the store, another guy walked up, n shorts and sandals, and started thumbing through the magazines. He stood pretty close to me, and I could see that he was looking at a Penthouse magazine. I picked up a Hustler and turned to a page that showed a big hard dick about to penetrate a wet pussy. I held the magazine so he could clearly see what I was looking at. He began to squeeze his penis through the thin material of is shorts. I too began to fondle myself. He looked at me and asked me if I wanted to fool around. I said sure, and asked him where. He said there was an abandoned gas station next door and we could use the restroom. Well I went out first and walked over to the restroom and went inside. Soon my partner entered. We immediately pulled our stiff dicks out and started feeling each other. I knelt down and sucked him for a few seconds. I felt a strong urge to have him inside of me. I asked him if he wanted to fuck me. He said yes, and that he had some lotion in his car. While he went to get the lotion, I entered in one of the stalls and pulled my jeans off. He came back in and lubed his stiff dick. I got on my hands and knees and he knelt behind me. I reached back and guided his hard erection to my anus. I placed the head of his penis against my asshole and released him. He pressed forward slowly. I had learned the secret to pain-free anal intercourse while in college. You have to make sure that your partner is pressing at an angle against the part of your anus that is closest to your scrotal sac. If he presses against the side closest to your tailbone, it will really hurt. I made sure he pressed forward at an angle on the side closest to my balls, and he slipped right in. I could immediately feel him moving against my prostate, which sent shivers of lust through my body. As I reached back to pull him as tight as possible against me, to increase his penetration, he reached around and masturbated me. Within seconds we were both cumming together. I shot my load all over his fingers and he filled my anal cavity with his own thick sperm. I really enjoyed having sex with a stranger, and I fantasize about it often when I masturbate.
While overseas on deployment in the Marines, I fucked about three or four European women. One Italian girl, about 24, was the best. She was a USO guide, and absolutely gorgeous. She had olive skin, sandy blond hair, and green eyes. When I finally spent the night in her hotel room, I ate her sweet pussy for hours. She had tufts of hair under her arms that was a real turn-on for me.
In the mid 80s, once back in the states, Larry called and said he was passing through town on the way to another duty station. Toni and the kids were still in California. Well, Larry ended up in bed with my wife and I, and we fucked her at the same time. Larry fucked her in the ass while I fucked her in her pussy. It fulfilled a fantasy of hers and mine. I allowed Larry to fuck my wife all night long while I guided his penis to her wet pussy. The next night, while my wife was sleeping, Larry and I stayed up drinking. I ended up taking a late night shower with Larry, and we started soaping each other up. Soon, we both had erections. Larry's dick was a little longer and thicker than mine, and I got the urge to suck him off. I sucked him into my mouth as I knelt down in the shower. I sucked him and masturbated him for about 30 seconds when he groaned he was ready to cum, and pulled out momentarily. I told him I wanted him to cum in my mouth. He agreed and I allowed him to slip his large penis back in my mouth. As he held my head, within a few seconds, I felt his sperm fill my mouth. I swallowed every drop and continued to suck on him. He evidently wasn't totally satisfied, because he allowed me to continue to nurse on his thick penis, and stayed hard for a long time. Finally, after about five minutes, I slipped a finger into his ass and started to massage his prostate, while I tugged downward on his balls. He stiffened and said he was going to cum again. Within seconds I felt his knees buckle slightly and his balls retract up into his body cavity as more of his warm sperm oozed into my mouth. He later told me that he had never felt such a satisfying orgasm as the one he had while I was pressing my finger against his prostate.
It was during this time that my daughter developed into a very beautiful young lady. She was large breasted, like her mother, and quite a remarkable sight. I remember one night I was taking a shower in her bedroom, since my wife was using the other shower. I was standing in the tub, behind the glass shower doors. I heard the bathroom door open, and realized my daughter was standing in front of the sink, in her night gown, brushing her teeth. I began to feel sexually aroused, and developed quite an erection. I was tempted to masturbate, since I was sure she could see my reflection in the mirror. However, I decided against it. By then, I was finished with my shower, so I turned off the water. It was obvious that my daughter was not ready to leave the bathroom, so I decided to act as if it was no big deal. I open the shower doors and stepped out onto the carpet, totally naked in front of my daughter. I had a huge erection. I watched her eyes in the mirror when she looked up, and she could clearly see me in the reflection in the mirror. I reached over, grabbed a towel, and started to dry off. We carried on a small talk conversation for a few minutes, as I allowed her to see my erection a few more times. She finally finished brushing her teeth and turned and left the bathroom. I was amazed at how sexually charged I was, and I have often fantasized about her while making love to my wife. I'm sure now, since she is 27 and has been married for four years, that if the opportunity arose to have her, if she wanted me, I would have intercourse with her.
In the late 80s, I had occasion to fly back to my home state as a flight instructor. I ended up finding my old high school sweet heart, a beautiful black woman, who was living by herself. I spent more than one weekend at her home, sucking and fucking her all night long. She still had a beautiful, tight body, and I just couldn't get enough. I fell in love with her and told my wife I wanted a divorce. I changed my mind a few weeks later when I realized that would be a big mistake, since I had three children who depended on their mom and dad. I really hurt my wife, and I am so sorry for it. Nevertheless, we have persevered.
Near the end of my military career, in the mid 90s, I was going to move to the same city as my brother and his second wife. I was staying with them, while I looked for a house to buy, and while my wife and kids were living in Florida. It had been almost 20 years since my brother had fucked my wife while I sucked his balls. For some reason, I felt an urge to see if he was still willing to fool around. One the first night at his house, after my shower, I put on some baggy shorts, with no underwear. I sat on the sofa, opposite my brother who was sitting in a chair. His wife was in the kitchen cleaning up. Their children were still small and in another room. I positioned myself so that my brother could look straight up my pants leg and see my penis and balls, which I had positioned in clear view. I could tell that he took notice, and was interested, because he started to rub and fondle his own penis through the material of his shorts. I soon started to develop an erection, pulled my penis into his view, and started to openly fondle myself, careful that his wife couldn't tell what I was doing. Soon my brother made up an excuse for us both to go outside. It was dark, so we went into a small dollhouse he had built in his back yard for his daughter. He pulled his pants down and I did the same. We began to feel each other up. It had been almost 20 years, but that special feeling we had for each other returned, with great excitement and forbidden lust. He quickly bent down and took my erection into his mouth. It felt very good to have my brother sucking my hard dick. I felt my orgasm starting to build, and I asked him if he wanted me to cum in his mouth. He allowed me to plop out of his mouth as he quickly said, Yes, then sucked me right back in. He is a master at playing with my balls while gently sucking me and masturbating me into his mouth. Within a few seconds I told him I was coming. My penis was swollen to a size and thickness I had not witnessed in a long time, and my orgasm rushed over me, leaving me weak kneed as I filled his mouth with my warm sperm. Over the next few days, we sucked each other off every day, taking turns. I have always been excited about the size and shape of my brother's penis. We are both about the same length, six inches or slightly more, perfectly circumcised, but he is slightly thicker than I am. I really enjoyed the feel and taste of his stiff penis in my mouth, and would always tell him I wanted him to ejaculate in my mouth, and to tell me when he was ready to cum. That way I could prepare myself for the taste of his sperm as it filled my mouth. I really enjoy pleasuring my brother, and it is a great feeling for me that I can sexually stimulate him to the point of orgasm. I always swallow every drop of his sperm, and love to continue to suck on his penis until he starts to get soft. My brother always told me that he thought my penis was nice. I agree that my penis flesh is smooth and perfect and without blemish. When my brother is sucking me, my erection stands swells extra long and thick, with the plump veins spiraling up toward the swollen glans. The lips of my glans are slightly wider than the shaft of my penis, and they are extra sensitive when he runs his tongue around the rim. It really makes my penis swell out quite nicely. I too enjoyed filling his mouth with my sperm.
For the past 3-4 years, every time my brother and I get together, we end up sucking each other. My brother recently divorced his second wife and married a black 23-year old girl from Africa. He tells me his sex life has never been better. He has shown me some photos of her on the internet. She is slender and very sexy looking, and has a very nice looking butt. He now lives about 8 hours away, but has invited us to come visit. He tells me his wife is willing to fuck me, and has invited me to have a threesome together. I am tempted. My wife knows nothing about it, but I would like to ask her if she is interested. My brother also says that his wife likes to be with other women. I would love to see her and my wife having sex together. My wife is 49 and still looks good. My brother's wife is 24. That would be very hot.
My daughter is now 27, and has been married for 4 years. She visited us just recently, without her husband. One morning, my wife went to the grocery store before my daughter got out of bed. I was in the kitchen when my daughter walked in. She was wearing pajama bottoms and a white t-shirt, no bra. I could clearly make out the shape of her large breasts and hard nipples. She said she had a back ache. I ask her if she had taken anything. She said no. I told her to sit on the sofa and I would bring her a muscle relaxer. I gave it to her with a glass of water, then told her she need a back massage. While standing behind her, while she was sitting on the sofa, I began to rub and knead her shoulders and back. I could feel the knotted muscles in her upper back, and worked them out. She said that it really felt good. I worked my way down her back, and realized I was becoming sexually aroused by the situation. I allowed my hands to work their way around toward her ribs, until I could just feel the sides of her naked breasts. About that time she said that she felt better. I stopped and realized how close I had come to trying to seduce my daughter.
My question to you doctor is this . . . am I normal?
While I'm here on the couch Doctor, there are a few things I want to get off my chest.
I am 49 years old, married for 27, and have three grown children, the only daughter is happily married. I attend church regularly, teach a Bible school class, and have a respectable job. However, sometimes I wonder if I have a dark side. By that, I have often wondered if my sexual makeup is warped or normal, relative to the majority of Caucasian, Anglo-Saxon Americans. Here are the most vivid memories of my sexuality. Tell me doctor, am I normal?
My first sexual memory dates back to my toddler years in the early 50s. I remember taking a bath with my mother. We were sitting in the tub facing each other. I was embarrassed to look upon her naked breasts and mysterious dark pubic bush. That was the only memory I have of bathing with her.
In the late 50s, I had a friend spend the night. He had an older brother who was already in puberty, and was trying to explain to me about how his brother masturbated. At approximately 8-9 years old, I could get an erection, but try as I might, I couldn't figure out what an orgasm was. I ended up tinkling in the toilet, with a red and swollen erection, and ask my friend if I was having an orgasm.
Later, as I approached puberty, I used to rummage through my mother's lingerie drawers, and fondle and sniff her brassieres, girdles and panties. I also found her diaphragm, but did not know what it was . . . likewise for her douche bag and nozzle, which hung in her shower. Later, while rummaging through my father's clothes drawers I came upon a magazine which showed naked men and women. This was back during the early 60s.
During the years when I was 12-14, we went on vacation one summer, and rented a cabin at a mountain lake resort. Me and my four siblings slept in the great room on a pallet, while my mother and father slept in the only bedroom. My oldest brother discovered a peephole through a heater vent that allowed us to peek through into their bedroom. My younger brothers were fast asleep. When it was my turn, I saw mom standing by the side of the bed, where my dad was lying, showing him the new bathing suit she had bought. She was pointing out how her pubic hair was sticking out the sides along her groin. Just about that time, she allowed the top of her one-piece suit to fall open, and leaned over my dad, causing her breasts to hang low and heavy while my dad stroked them and pinched her nipples. About that time, my older brother pushed me aside so he could take a peek.
During a weekend trip to my aunt's house, I remember brushing my teeth along side my mother, who was wearing only her billowing nightgown. As she leaned over the sink, I could look at her reflection in the mirror and see completely down the front of her gown. I remember how full and heavy her naked breasts looked, and how dark her pubic thatch appeared.
That same night, my brother and two cousins, all 3-4 years older than me, slept on a pallet in the living room. I had not yet entered puberty as they had. I remember them talking about a "circle jerk." I had no idea what it was, but they explained that we were all going to sit around in the dark with our pajama bottoms off, and jerk our penises. I went along with them, fully trusting, and remember them illuminating me with a flashlight, and laughing, when they caught me playing with myself. Later that night, they talked me into playing "husband and wife" with my cousin Tim. He was about 17 at the time, and I was probably 14. They told us to play as if we were "going to have a baby." They had me take off my pajama bottoms and lie on my stomach, totally naked. Tim lay on top of me and started to rub his soft penis up and down my butt cheeks. It was quite dark in the room, and I remember after a few minutes he rolled off took a jar of Vaseline his brother gave him, and rubbed it on his penis, which was now quite stiff. He also rubbed some between my ass cheeks. As I lay still, he again lay on top of me and I could feel his stiff erection starting to probe my inner thighs and ass cheeks. It actually felt quite stimulating to me, and I really enjoyed it. After a few minutes of thrusting his slick pole between my thighs, he lifted himself up slightly, grasp his stiff penis, and placed it directly against my anus. I felt some pressure as he began to push forward, but with all the Vaseline, he easily slipped inside me and soon he was humping my buttocks quite rapidly. I could feel him inside me, and it really didn't hurt at all. All you could hear in the room was the sound of his belly hitting my back side. I remember how sweaty he felt as he slipped around on my back, careful to never allow his penis to slip out of my anus. It felt really good to me, and caused me to get an erection. Soon I could hear him groan and then lay still. That is when he must have ejaculated inside me. I remember my older brother and cousin asking him if he had an orgasm. He lay on top of me for a little while, and then rolled off, his penis slipping easily from my ass. He was breathing really hard, as if he was tired.
One night my older brother, who was about 17 or 18, had one of his friends from church spend the night. I don't remember how it happened, but the three of us ended up in my brother's double bed. My brother's friend, Gary, was in the middle and I was on his right side. Before long, we all had our pants pulled off and Gary told me to "jack" him off. I really didn't know what he wanted me to do, so he showed me how to wrap my hand around his stiff shaft and flick my wrist up and down. His penis was enormous. Probably 8-9 inches long and very thick. He also had red pubic hair. I also remember the musky smell of his penis and groin. For some reason, I could not bring him to an orgasm, so he told me to "blow" him. Again, I was ignorant of what he wanted me to do, so he told me to suck his penis. I remember how salty his plump flesh tasted, and how musky his pubic mound smelled as I sucked him into my mouth. I don't remember if he ever ejaculated in my mouth. That was the first time I ever sucked another boy's penis.
Soon thereafter, my next-door neighbor came over to the house and wanted to show me how he was growing pubic hair. We went out behind the garage and pulled our pants down. Sure enough, he had several strands of curly hair growing just above his penis and very low hanging balls. I still had only soft cotton like fur. Within a few weeks, I was excited to show him that I too had some long, dark hair starting to grow.
My younger brother, by two years, entered puberty at about the same time as I did. It wasn't long before we started fooling around with each other. It started with voyeurism. We shared a bedroom and a bunk bed. I remember the first time. I was lying in the bottom bunk, with the lights off, and I felt the bed starting to shake slightly. I soon realized that my brother was masturbating. It caused me to develop an erection, so I decided to join him. I pulled my underwear off and began to masturbate myself. He turned on his night-light and leaned over the bed to watch me. The thought of being watched caused me to have a very strong orgasm. From then on, from time to time, we would either watch each other, or share in mutual masturbation. I experimented with another friend or two, a few times, until I was about 15. I sucked a friend of mine who was on my baseball team, when he spent the night with me.
On another occasion, I spent the night at my friend Roger's house. He was the younger brother of Gary, my older brother's friend, whom I had already been in bed with. It turns out that Roger had a penis, similar in length and girth to his older brother. He had twin beds, and late in the night, I ask him if I could get in bed with him. He said yes. We started talking about sex, and soon had erections. We were just starting to feel each other up, when his dad came to the bedroom door and told us to quiet down and to get to sleep. I snuck back to my own bed.
My mom died of breast cancer just before I turned 16. Several of her sisters came to stay with us for a week or so, to help us out around the house. I had an opportunity to see several of my aunts naked, in the bath tub. I would climb into the attic and peek down through a vent in the ceiling. I remember going through one of my aunt's suitcases, and discovered a diaphragm and some KY Jelly. Thinking back, I'm pretty sure she had intercourse with my dad while she was there. She would have been about 50 and my dad about 46.
My grandmother came to live with us for several months. She was 68 at the time. I used to adjust the bathroom blinds and curtains so I could sneak outside at night and peek through the window as she undressed to take a bath. She had very large breasts, and I fantasized about her often when I masturbated. I also allowed her to "accidentally" catch me naked around the house. One late night I got up to go to the kitchen to look for something to eat. The whole house was dark, except for the little light from inside the fridge. My grandma came in the kitchen, wearing only a sheer gown, and bent over in front of the fridge to look for something for me to eat. I leaned forward and could see right down the front of her gown. Her breasts were a creamy white color with a network of blue veins running along the side. Her areolas were a dark brown color, about the size of a silver dollar, and her nipples stuck out like the tip of my thumb. She also had a massive growth of dark pubic hair, growing even down her thighs. I had quite an erection tenting my thin cotton pajama bottoms, and I'm sure my grandma noticed. When I got back to bed, I masturbated myself to a very strong and satisfying orgasm while fantasizing about my grandma.
My dad later got married to a woman who had a son and two young daughters. The oldest step daughter was about four years younger than I. When she was about 14, she began to flaunt her nice body in front of me. When I sat on the sofa watching TV in my robe, I would allow it to open just enough for her to see my erection. Nothing ever came of it as far as incest. For the remainder of my high school days, I dated several girls, and had a very beautiful black girlfriend, my junior and senior year. This was back in the late 60s and early 70s. I never had intercourse while in high school, but did do some heavy petting.
Once in college, I remember sitting up late one night studying in a deserted lobby. I heard an outer door open, and saw a guy walk in. I recognized him as someone whom, rumors around campus said, was queer. He was a roommate with a friend of mine from church, Jackie, who also was considered gay. I remember when I visited Jackie's house, when we were just teenagers, and Jackie always wore very tight jeans that did nothing to hide the outline of his penis and balls. Anyway, Jackie's friend continued down the hallway, toward his room, and out of sight. After about ten minutes, he returned to the lobby with some books and sat down in a chair next to mine. He was wearing very short cut-off jeans, and a T-shirt with sandals. He was somewhat thin, and had soft curly brown hair all over his legs. We didn't say anything to each other, but before long I glanced up and noticed he appeared to have fallen asleep. I also noticed that his penis and scrotal sac was hanging slightly out of the legs of his shorts. It was obvious he wasn't wearing any underwear. I continued to act like I was reading my book, but kept looking up to watch his penis as it started to swell and twitch as it grew longer and began to stick farther out of his pant's leg and into the open. I soon developed an erection of my own. His head was still laid back and his eyes were closed. I was wearing gym shorts with no underwear, so I pulled my own erection out the side of my leg and started to fondle myself, openly in front of him. He was probably looking at me through slits in his eyelids, but he made no move to openly acknowledge my nakedness. Soon his erection was long and stiff, and I sudden got an uncontrollable urge to reach over and start touching him. I pulled his penis and balls out into the open and started fondling his balls with my left hand while masturbating him with my right. Still he did not open his eyes, but just lay back with his legs gapped open. Before long, I watched as his sperm oozed all over my fingers. I kept up my gentle motions until he was fully satiated. I licked his sperm off my fingers, picked up my books and went back to my room, leaving him there alone, as if he was asleep. I'm sure he told Jackie what we had done together, and sometimes I fantasize about how it would have been had I been their roommate. Behind closed doors, we would have been free to do anything we wanted, in complete privacy. And, I would have a chance to see Jackie's nice penis and balls up close.
I ended up flunking out of college, and lived by myself in an apartment. There was an older lady, probably 50, who lived next door. One day she asked me to come over to her apartment. She had an 8mm projector set up and asked me if I wanted to watch a film with her. I think she was half drunk, because she was slurring her words. Soon she had the lights off and we both sat on the couch and started watching a film that showed a man fucking a woman doggy style. He pulled his penis out of her pussy and ejaculated onto her buttocks. Naturally I instantly developed a raging hard-on, and asked her if she wanted me to do that to her. She said yes. She lay back on her bed and pulled her pants down, I immediately mounted her, and within a few seconds, I was ejaculating into her pussy. She wanted me to keep it up, but I was already done, almost before we got started. I knew nothing about how to please a woman.
During a night out with the guys, we met up with a young twenty something girl. She invited us over to her house. She said her husband was in jail. While my two friends waited in the living room, she and I took a bath together. I was very turned on by her, and soon we were in bed. For some reason, however, I couldn't keep my erection. My Indian friend came in the bedroom and took my place. He penetrated her at once, and within a few minutes, he was done. I was once again aroused by the sight of them fucking, so I mounted her and quickly entered her as well. Her vagina was very slick from my friend's sperm. Nevertheless, I too soon ejaculated inside of her.
I was 19 when I got out of Marine boot camp. I was in the airport at San Diego, waiting for my flight home. I remember having a few beers, then having to go to the rest room. I had my dress greens on. As I was standing in front of a urinal, another man came in and stood next to me. We both began to urinate, and I glanced over at him, out of curiosity, to check out the size of his penis. He was very nice. He finished peeing before I did, but he continued to stand there and shake his penis from time to time. I glanced over, as I finished up, and noticed he was starting to develop an erection. I decided to shake my own penis, to allow him to see me as well. Soon, we both had stiff erections, and he turned to me and asked me if he could suck me off. I said sure. He got on his knees and sucked my stiff penis into his mouth. Soon I could no longer hold back and told him I was going to cum. He just looked up at me and continued to suck. I realized he wanted me to cum in his mouth, so I relaxed and enjoyed it even more as I ejaculated heavily inside his mouth. He quickly swallowed my sperm then stood up. I zipped up and left him in the restroom.
After a few live-in situations with a few women, I finally got married when I was 21. Around 24 years old, my wife and I moved back to the states and I enrolled in college. My brother and his wife came for a visit. While his wife was taking a bath, and my wife was in another room, my brother encouraged me to peek through the keyhole of the bathroom and look at his naked wife while she was bathing. We lived in a very old, one bedroom apartment, that still had skeleton key locks. Well, I was pretty turned on by the whole thing. That night, we talked our wives into sleeping together in our bed, while my brother and I slept on a pallet on the floor in the other room. That night I fucked my brother for the first time. I have to admit I really enjoyed it, and was quite aroused by the whole situation. That was the last time I had a sexual relations with my brother until four years later.
While in college, back in the mid 70s, I discovered glory holes in the men's room on the second floor of the student union. I used to visit every day and masturbate while peeking through the stall partition at other men. I sucked and was sucked by several men over the years, and I also sucked a black gentleman for the first time. He was about 50 years old and dressed in a nice sport jacket. He was standing in front of a urinal, which was directly next to the stall I was occupying. I peeked through a small hole and watched him urinate. His penis is the largest I have ever seen in my entire life. When he was finished peeing, he continued to fondle himself, until he started to develop an erection. It was obvious to him that I was watching him through the peephole. However, he zipped up and stepped out of sight to the sinks. I sat back and started masturbating myself while I could hear the water running in the sinks. I wanted to have my orgasm before he left the restroom, and I didn't care if he could hear me "slapping skin." He turned the water off, and the only sound you could hear was my rapid hand movements as I jerked off. He stood quiet for some time, and I soon began nearing orgasm. Just then, the door to my stall opened. The first thing I thought was, how could I have forgotten to lock the door? However, the black gentleman stood there just looking down at me, and asked if he could borrow some tissue to dry his hands. My legs were gapped open, my pants and underwear around my ankles, and my swollen erection was bobbing up and down. I handed him some tissue, and he quickly stepped inside and shut the door. Without a word, he unbuckled his pants, zipped them down, reached inside and pulled his magnificent penis into view. He offered it to me with one hand, and I leaned forward, grasped his thick shaft, and sucked his plumb-sized knob into my mouth. He just groaned slightly and began to gently move his hips back and forth, one hand on my shoulder, sawing his stiff, hose-length member in and out of my mouth. I grasped the base of his cock with my right hand and started to masturbate him while I sucked on his swollen glans. I fondled his heavy balls with my left hand, tugging gently on each egg-size stone, urging him to empty his sperm into my mouth. Within just a few minutes, he whispered that he was cumming. I continued to masturbate him until I could feel my mouth start to fill up with his warm sperm. I swallowed every drop and continued to nurse on his long thick penis for several more minutes. He finally pulled it from my lips with a plopping sound, zipped up, and left. I quickly masturbated myself to a very satisfying orgasm. I had several other sexual partners in those restrooms over the next few years.
One final incident happened while I was sitting in a middle stall. A man had entered the stall to my left and sat down. I peeked through the hole and saw that he was a very large man with very thick thighs and a hefty belly. His pants and underwear were down around his ankles, so it was obvious to me that he was willing to fool around. Before long, I could see him reach between his thighs and start fondling his penis. Before long, he had an erection starting, and I could tell he had a very thick penis. He leaned over to peek in at me, so I held my own stiff erection so that he could have a good look at it. I suddenly felt like I wanted to suck this man. He passed a note under the stall that said, "Hi, what do you like?" I wrote back that I wanted to suck him, and for him to slide his thighs under the stall. He got down and slid his thighs under the stall, and there was the object of my desire. He was huge. I quickly got down and started to suck him. His swollen glans was about the size of a lemon. Just then, we heard the outer restroom door open. We both quickly sat back down on our toilet seats, and the stall to my right opened. I peeked through and there was a black man sitting down on the seat. I watched as he began to play with himself. He then leaned over, and I fondled my own erection for him to see. I then put my hand under the partition because I wanted to suck him. I got down on my hands and knees, my naked butt in the air, as he slipped his magnificent erection under the partition. I sucked his black flesh into my mouth as my heavy set white partner watched through the peep hole. Soon, he reached under and ran his hand between my legs and played with my balls and penis, while I continued to suck the black penis. Before long, I felt a finger start to probe my anus as the black man started to ejaculate into my mouth. When he was done, he pulled out, and I turned around and began to such my white partner. He too ejaculated into my mouth. I have never felt my mouth so full of sperm before. His penis was the largest and most perfect white penis I have ever seen. It was smooth and blemish free, and perfectly circumcised. His pubic hair was a reddish brown color. When he was done, I sat back down on my seat and masturbated myself to a very satisfying orgasm.
After graduating from college, I re-entered the Marines. My brother came to visit. He was divorced at the time. I talked my wife into letting my brother fuck her. She is really hot and sexually open about these kinds of things. While my brother was fucking her, I licked his balls, fulfilling one of my fantasies.
While in our 30s, my wife and I had a few occasions where we participated in wife swapping with some of our best friends in the military. One night Larry and Toni were spending the night with us. We started out in a hot tub, with me and Larry totally naked, while the girls had their tops off. My wife's breasts are quite a bit bigger than Toni's, but hers are very perky. Her big tight ass makes up for any short coming in the tittie department. Larry and my wife went into the house, supposedly to the bedroom, while I stayed outside in the hot tub with Larry's wife Toni. We kissed and fondled until I tried slipping my erection inside the leg of her bikini bottom. She resisted until she felt my stiff penis penetrate her slick vagina. Within seconds, I was ejaculating inside of her. We ended up in bed together, for the night, and we fucked six more times that night. I could not get enough of her sexy ass and pussy, and she joked about having my sperm running down her thighs all the next day.
While my wife was in Spain, visiting her mother, Dorothy, the wife of another good military friend, came by my house. We ended up drinking some wine, then I took her into the bedroom and sucked her pussy to orgasm, then fucked her real good. I still fantasize about both Toni and Dorothy.
I also had another sexual encounter with a strange man, while my wife was gone. One night I went to a convenience store to look for some pornographic magazines. While I was standing at the magazine rack in the back of the store, another guy walked up, n shorts and sandals, and started thumbing through the magazines. He stood pretty close to me, and I could see that he was looking at a Penthouse magazine. I picked up a Hustler and turned to a page that showed a big hard dick about to penetrate a wet pussy. I held the magazine so he could clearly see what I was looking at. He began to squeeze his penis through the thin material of is shorts. I too began to fondle myself. He looked at me and asked me if I wanted to fool around. I said sure, and asked him where. He said there was an abandoned gas station next door and we could use the restroom. Well I went out first and walked over to the restroom and went inside. Soon my partner entered. We immediately pulled our stiff dicks out and started feeling each other. I knelt down and sucked him for a few seconds. I felt a strong urge to have him inside of me. I asked him if he wanted to fuck me. He said yes, and that he had some lotion in his car. While he went to get the lotion, I entered in one of the stalls and pulled my jeans off. He came back in and lubed his stiff dick. I got on my hands and knees and he knelt behind me. I reached back and guided his hard erection to my anus. I placed the head of his penis against my asshole and released him. He pressed forward slowly. I had learned the secret to pain-free anal intercourse while in college. You have to make sure that your partner is pressing at an angle against the part of your anus that is closest to your scrotal sac. If he presses against the side closest to your tailbone, it will really hurt. I made sure he pressed forward at an angle on the side closest to my balls, and he slipped right in. I could immediately feel him moving against my prostate, which sent shivers of lust through my body. As I reached back to pull him as tight as possible against me, to increase his penetration, he reached around and masturbated me. Within seconds we were both cumming together. I shot my load all over his fingers and he filled my anal cavity with his own thick sperm. I really enjoyed having sex with a stranger, and I fantasize about it often when I masturbate.
While overseas on deployment in the Marines, I fucked about three or four European women. One Italian girl, about 24, was the best. She was a USO guide, and absolutely gorgeous. She had olive skin, sandy blond hair, and green eyes. When I finally spent the night in her hotel room, I ate her sweet pussy for hours. She had tufts of hair under her arms that was a real turn-on for me.
In the mid 80s, once back in the states, Larry called and said he was passing through town on the way to another duty station. Toni and the kids were still in California. Well, Larry ended up in bed with my wife and I, and we fucked her at the same time. Larry fucked her in the ass while I fucked her in her pussy. It fulfilled a fantasy of hers and mine. I allowed Larry to fuck my wife all night long while I guided his penis to her wet pussy. The next night, while my wife was sleeping, Larry and I stayed up drinking. I ended up taking a late night shower with Larry, and we started soaping each other up. Soon, we both had erections. Larry's dick was a little longer and thicker than mine, and I got the urge to suck him off. I sucked him into my mouth as I knelt down in the shower. I sucked him and masturbated him for about 30 seconds when he groaned he was ready to cum, and pulled out momentarily. I told him I wanted him to cum in my mouth. He agreed and I allowed him to slip his large penis back in my mouth. As he held my head, within a few seconds, I felt his sperm fill my mouth. I swallowed every drop and continued to suck on him. He evidently wasn't totally satisfied, because he allowed me to continue to nurse on his thick penis, and stayed hard for a long time. Finally, after about five minutes, I slipped a finger into his ass and started to massage his prostate, while I tugged downward on his balls. He stiffened and said he was going to cum again. Within seconds I felt his knees buckle slightly and his balls retract up into his body cavity as more of his warm sperm oozed into my mouth. He later told me that he had never felt such a satisfying orgasm as the one he had while I was pressing my finger against his prostate.
It was during this time that my daughter developed into a very beautiful young lady. She was large breasted, like her mother, and quite a remarkable sight. I remember one night I was taking a shower in her bedroom, since my wife was using the other shower. I was standing in the tub, behind the glass shower doors. I heard the bathroom door open, and realized my daughter was standing in front of the sink, in her night gown, brushing her teeth. I began to feel sexually aroused, and developed quite an erection. I was tempted to masturbate, since I was sure she could see my reflection in the mirror. However, I decided against it. By then, I was finished with my shower, so I turned off the water. It was obvious that my daughter was not ready to leave the bathroom, so I decided to act as if it was no big deal. I open the shower doors and stepped out onto the carpet, totally naked in front of my daughter. I had a huge erection. I watched her eyes in the mirror when she looked up, and she could clearly see me in the reflection in the mirror. I reached over, grabbed a towel, and started to dry off. We carried on a small talk conversation for a few minutes, as I allowed her to see my erection a few more times. She finally finished brushing her teeth and turned and left the bathroom. I was amazed at how sexually charged I was, and I have often fantasized about her while making love to my wife. I'm sure now, since she is 27 and has been married for four years, that if the opportunity arose to have her, if she wanted me, I would have intercourse with her.
In the late 80s, I had occasion to fly back to my home state as a flight instructor. I ended up finding my old high school sweet heart, a beautiful black woman, who was living by herself. I spent more than one weekend at her home, sucking and fucking her all night long. She still had a beautiful, tight body, and I just couldn't get enough. I fell in love with her and told my wife I wanted a divorce. I changed my mind a few weeks later when I realized that would be a big mistake, since I had three children who depended on their mom and dad. I really hurt my wife, and I am so sorry for it. Nevertheless, we have persevered.
Near the end of my military career, in the mid 90s, I was going to move to the same city as my brother and his second wife. I was staying with them, while I looked for a house to buy, and while my wife and kids were living in Florida. It had been almost 20 years since my brother had fucked my wife while I sucked his balls. For some reason, I felt an urge to see if he was still willing to fool around. One the first night at his house, after my shower, I put on some baggy shorts, with no underwear. I sat on the sofa, opposite my brother who was sitting in a chair. His wife was in the kitchen cleaning up. Their children were still small and in another room. I positioned myself so that my brother could look straight up my pants leg and see my penis and balls, which I had positioned in clear view. I could tell that he took notice, and was interested, because he started to rub and fondle his own penis through the material of his shorts. I soon started to develop an erection, pulled my penis into his view, and started to openly fondle myself, careful that his wife couldn't tell what I was doing. Soon my brother made up an excuse for us both to go outside. It was dark, so we went into a small dollhouse he had built in his back yard for his daughter. He pulled his pants down and I did the same. We began to feel each other up. It had been almost 20 years, but that special feeling we had for each other returned, with great excitement and forbidden lust. He quickly bent down and took my erection into his mouth. It felt very good to have my brother sucking my hard dick. I felt my orgasm starting to build, and I asked him if he wanted me to cum in his mouth. He allowed me to plop out of his mouth as he quickly said, Yes, then sucked me right back in. He is a master at playing with my balls while gently sucking me and masturbating me into his mouth. Within a few seconds I told him I was coming. My penis was swollen to a size and thickness I had not witnessed in a long time, and my orgasm rushed over me, leaving me weak kneed as I filled his mouth with my warm sperm. Over the next few days, we sucked each other off every day, taking turns. I have always been excited about the size and shape of my brother's penis. We are both about the same length, six inches or slightly more, perfectly circumcised, but he is slightly thicker than I am. I really enjoyed the feel and taste of his stiff penis in my mouth, and would always tell him I wanted him to ejaculate in my mouth, and to tell me when he was ready to cum. That way I could prepare myself for the taste of his sperm as it filled my mouth. I really enjoy pleasuring my brother, and it is a great feeling for me that I can sexually stimulate him to the point of orgasm. I always swallow every drop of his sperm, and love to continue to suck on his penis until he starts to get soft. My brother always told me that he thought my penis was nice. I agree that my penis flesh is smooth and perfect and without blemish. When my brother is sucking me, my erection stands swells extra long and thick, with the plump veins spiraling up toward the swollen glans. The lips of my glans are slightly wider than the shaft of my penis, and they are extra sensitive when he runs his tongue around the rim. It really makes my penis swell out quite nicely. I too enjoyed filling his mouth with my sperm.
For the past 3-4 years, every time my brother and I get together, we end up sucking each other. My brother recently divorced his second wife and married a black 23-year old girl from Africa. He tells me his sex life has never been better. He has shown me some photos of her on the internet. She is slender and very sexy looking, and has a very nice looking butt. He now lives about 8 hours away, but has invited us to come visit. He tells me his wife is willing to fuck me, and has invited me to have a threesome together. I am tempted. My wife knows nothing about it, but I would like to ask her if she is interested. My brother also says that his wife likes to be with other women. I would love to see her and my wife having sex together. My wife is 49 and still looks good. My brother's wife is 24. That would be very hot.
My daughter is now 27, and has been married for 4 years. She visited us just recently, without her husband. One morning, my wife went to the grocery store before my daughter got out of bed. I was in the kitchen when my daughter walked in. She was wearing pajama bottoms and a white t-shirt, no bra. I could clearly make out the shape of her large breasts and hard nipples. She said she had a back ache. I ask her if she had taken anything. She said no. I told her to sit on the sofa and I would bring her a muscle relaxer. I gave it to her with a glass of water, then told her she need a back massage. While standing behind her, while she was sitting on the sofa, I began to rub and knead her shoulders and back. I could feel the knotted muscles in her upper back, and worked them out. She said that it really felt good. I worked my way down her back, and realized I was becoming sexually aroused by the situation. I allowed my hands to work their way around toward her ribs, until I could just feel the sides of her naked breasts. About that time she said that she felt better. I stopped and realized how close I had come to trying to seduce my daughter.
My question to you doctor is this . . . am I normal?