Self Induces Masochism

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I know there are many ways that I could consider things that I do to be self masochistic or even destructive. Fortunately, at an early stage of my life, with the help of others, I realized I have a highly addictive personality. Thus I struggled and ended any self destructive habits such as smoking, drinking and other bad behaviours which can be considered destructive to my health.

Yet, in many other ways I pursue several self masochistic behaviours that while punishing for the most part are not self destructive or derived from sexual torture/pleasure. I will not even enter the realm of what allowances I afford so that others can let their sadist self derive pleasures from and for their sub.

Example:

Today i am wearing a itchy wool dress to work, not unlike the old uniforms of a catholic schoolgirl's. I will endure and be heightened by this sensation for the next ten hours, with no way to escape this self inflicted pain.

Often I go out in the freezing cold not well bundled up wearing only flip flops on my feet, some leggings, a sweater, a hat and some gloves. At times I might walk a mile or two letting the bitter cold enrapture my fragile body. I do have limits but have gone out well below freezing with high winds.

I have many more, but these are two that i have done today. Anyone else have some non sexual self masochistic behaviours they would like to share or am I alone in this sea?

z. :rose:
 
I am not physically masochistic, but I am emotionally masochistic. Its not sexual at all. I get a gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach when a situation arises that I know I can twist in a way to make myself feel terrible by wallowing in despair. And if I resist it, and I don't twist the situation to make myself feel terrible, I almost get a physical feeling of disappointment. When I make myself feel terrible, if I'm talking to someone about it, and I get them to agree with me that I suck or am worthless or whatever, it feels incredibly awful in a bad, bad, bad, very good way.

So, I don't share the same masochistic tendencies as you, but your not the only person who has non-sexual self masochistic behaviors.
 
I am not physically masochistic, but I am emotionally masochistic. Its not sexual at all. I get a gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach when a situation arises that I know I can twist in a way to make myself feel terrible by wallowing in despair. And if I resist it, and I don't twist the situation to make myself feel terrible, I almost get a physical feeling of disappointment. When I make myself feel terrible, if I'm talking to someone about it, and I get them to agree with me that I suck or am worthless or whatever, it feels incredibly awful in a bad, bad, bad, very good way.

So, I don't share the same masochistic tendencies as you, but your not the only person who has non-sexual self masochistic behaviors.

You suck.

Feel better? :D

(I tried to resist the urge to post that but I just could. not. stop. Now if I only knew you or really anything about you.)
 
I am not physically masochistic, but I am emotionally masochistic. Its not sexual at all. I get a gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach when a situation arises that I know I can twist in a way to make myself feel terrible by wallowing in despair. And if I resist it, and I don't twist the situation to make myself feel terrible, I almost get a physical feeling of disappointment. When I make myself feel terrible, if I'm talking to someone about it, and I get them to agree with me that I suck or am worthless or whatever, it feels incredibly awful in a bad, bad, bad, very good way.

So, I don't share the same masochistic tendencies as you, but your not the only person who has non-sexual self masochistic behaviors.

I'm curious as to an example of such a situation, if you don't mind my asking. Do you mean offering an incorrect answer in class for example, or does it take a more serious situation? Speeding ticket?
 
I'm curious as to an example of such a situation, if you don't mind my asking. Do you mean offering an incorrect answer in class for example, or does it take a more serious situation? Speeding ticket?

Something that stupid would never trigger it. It's if I'm talking with someone about my writing, or about what I want to do with my life, or what my skills are or lackthereof.

I would never answer a question in class incorrectly on purpose.
 
Something that stupid would never trigger it. It's if I'm talking with someone about my writing, or about what I want to do with my life, or what my skills are or lackthereof.

I would never answer a question in class incorrectly on purpose.

Oh, I didn't mean on purpose, but OK I see. Wondered if it involved people of authority such as professors, cops, etc. You prefer it more one on one then?
 
Something that stupid would never trigger it. It's if I'm talking with someone about my writing, or about what I want to do with my life, or what my skills are or lackthereof.

I would never answer a question in class incorrectly on purpose.

Stupid is such a harsh word, LOL! Just trying to understand the behavior.
 
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