Gamelover221
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- Jan 27, 2002
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Welcome friends, to what may possibly be the longest BDSM personal post ever! For those of you that have never seen my posts before, I’m a Lit vet of many years. I joined back when I was 21 (hence part of the screen name, 28 now), and tend to appear and vanish in ~6 month intervals. I’d like to think my life is more complicated than most, bit I’ll leave that for you to decide. I’ve met several friends from past ads, but sadly I’m still without a pet. Like any good prospector though, I come back to this gold mine to keep digging a little more in hopes of finding my submissive One.
On the Upswing:
A little over a year ago I was at the top of my game. I’ve had a business degree from UNT since 02, but hadn’t really put it to use. I’m one of those people that is fascinated by different jobs and I wanted to try out as many as I could until I found one I really liked. Eventually, I found one of the neatest jobs ever! I got a job as a contractor working for Apple Computers as an e-mail support person for iTunes. I’d get to help resolve customers issues all day while simultaneously watching movies or listening to music. Hands down the most fun I’ve ever had…very sadly though, corperate politics decided they only liked temporary workers and didn’t want to provide benefits and wage increases to their dedicated workers. Out of 300 they hired about 20. I later talked to my boss and asked what I had done wrong. He replied, “You are awesome and if we had another 5 slots, you’d have been there.” Thus my life took a new path that I never saw coming.
On the Downswing:
On the 10th month of the one year Apple contract I started looking for a replacement job. I had a friend in Dallas that had been pestering me for a long time to apply where she worked since she thought it would be perfect for me. I added it to my list of places to apply and sent in my resume. Two days later I got a call from Fidelity Investments asking if I could come to their open-house this week. I told them I couldn’t make it since I already had a job and I lived in Austin and their workplace was in Dallas. So…they did a phone interview on the spot. I was surprised and rather floored when they offered me a job two days later making about 1.5x what I was currently making.
“NO means NO.” It’s a familiar saying that I had always assumed was weakness. People that didn’t wish to deal with certain circumstances that they weren’t comfortable with. We all have them. Each-and-every-one-of-us. I have several myself and I thought they were some childhood tantrum that needed to be overcome. I was wrong.
I’ve always hated using phones. Even as a kid, I dreaded having to call to order pizzas. I’m really not sure why it’s so frustrating to communicate on a phone when face-to-face and online chat is never an issue in the slightest. I even avoid using drive-through service and always find myself parking and eating food inside.
So, after about a month of training and a month on Fidelity’s phones, I started breaking down until it got to the point where I had a panic attack. I went to see a Dr. the next day and discovered my BP was way into the hypertension ranges. The Dr. sent me straight over to the nearby hospital for 23 hour observation and a stress test. Thankfully we discovered that my heart was healthy and no damage had been done to it. They put me on heart meds and told me to see a psychiatrist since the problem was likely part environmental and part mental since there wasn’t anything physically wrong. I did and was diagnosed with the ever popular combo of depression/anxiety disorder.
I was put on short term leave of absence and the company disability plan to get myself out of the stressful environment and give my body time to heal and get all my medications corrected to the optimal doses. Almost all of the medications I was on had drowsiness as a side effect (Klonopin was the worst offender), so I really didn’t do much but sleep and rest all day.
Time passed quickly and I truly learned to love having a DVR since I mostly watched TV shows all day long. Around the end of the year things were finally getting better. My BP was in the normal range and I was able to cut back on some of the medications I was taking, so I was beginning to get more energy and motivation to get out and about once in a while. I started dating again and even decided to get a new car. I went to stay with my parents for Christmas vacation and I had a blast. My sister brought her newly born baby and I was officially “Uncle Michael” now. Unfortunately, I had to leave sooner than I had intended when I started coming down with a nasty infection. I got some antibiotics and was ready for some good times to come in the new year.
Still plenty more to come. I'm going to be out of town for the week, so it might not be updated until next weekend.
On the Upswing:
A little over a year ago I was at the top of my game. I’ve had a business degree from UNT since 02, but hadn’t really put it to use. I’m one of those people that is fascinated by different jobs and I wanted to try out as many as I could until I found one I really liked. Eventually, I found one of the neatest jobs ever! I got a job as a contractor working for Apple Computers as an e-mail support person for iTunes. I’d get to help resolve customers issues all day while simultaneously watching movies or listening to music. Hands down the most fun I’ve ever had…very sadly though, corperate politics decided they only liked temporary workers and didn’t want to provide benefits and wage increases to their dedicated workers. Out of 300 they hired about 20. I later talked to my boss and asked what I had done wrong. He replied, “You are awesome and if we had another 5 slots, you’d have been there.” Thus my life took a new path that I never saw coming.
On the Downswing:
On the 10th month of the one year Apple contract I started looking for a replacement job. I had a friend in Dallas that had been pestering me for a long time to apply where she worked since she thought it would be perfect for me. I added it to my list of places to apply and sent in my resume. Two days later I got a call from Fidelity Investments asking if I could come to their open-house this week. I told them I couldn’t make it since I already had a job and I lived in Austin and their workplace was in Dallas. So…they did a phone interview on the spot. I was surprised and rather floored when they offered me a job two days later making about 1.5x what I was currently making.
“NO means NO.” It’s a familiar saying that I had always assumed was weakness. People that didn’t wish to deal with certain circumstances that they weren’t comfortable with. We all have them. Each-and-every-one-of-us. I have several myself and I thought they were some childhood tantrum that needed to be overcome. I was wrong.
I’ve always hated using phones. Even as a kid, I dreaded having to call to order pizzas. I’m really not sure why it’s so frustrating to communicate on a phone when face-to-face and online chat is never an issue in the slightest. I even avoid using drive-through service and always find myself parking and eating food inside.
So, after about a month of training and a month on Fidelity’s phones, I started breaking down until it got to the point where I had a panic attack. I went to see a Dr. the next day and discovered my BP was way into the hypertension ranges. The Dr. sent me straight over to the nearby hospital for 23 hour observation and a stress test. Thankfully we discovered that my heart was healthy and no damage had been done to it. They put me on heart meds and told me to see a psychiatrist since the problem was likely part environmental and part mental since there wasn’t anything physically wrong. I did and was diagnosed with the ever popular combo of depression/anxiety disorder.
I was put on short term leave of absence and the company disability plan to get myself out of the stressful environment and give my body time to heal and get all my medications corrected to the optimal doses. Almost all of the medications I was on had drowsiness as a side effect (Klonopin was the worst offender), so I really didn’t do much but sleep and rest all day.
Time passed quickly and I truly learned to love having a DVR since I mostly watched TV shows all day long. Around the end of the year things were finally getting better. My BP was in the normal range and I was able to cut back on some of the medications I was taking, so I was beginning to get more energy and motivation to get out and about once in a while. I started dating again and even decided to get a new car. I went to stay with my parents for Christmas vacation and I had a blast. My sister brought her newly born baby and I was officially “Uncle Michael” now. Unfortunately, I had to leave sooner than I had intended when I started coming down with a nasty infection. I got some antibiotics and was ready for some good times to come in the new year.
Still plenty more to come. I'm going to be out of town for the week, so it might not be updated until next weekend.
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