sad and lonely

[boredguard469]

I feel so worthless all the time. My life has been one failure after another in all I do. I have no hope or friends I can talk to. I am a failure as a husband, father, and man. If everyone in my life has cheated on me, screwed me over, or just ignored me, it's not the world it must be me. I have tried for so long I am just ready to give up. I hate myself for being me.

 

[Grouse0816]

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[box13]

I feel so worthless all the time. My life has been one failure after another in all I do. I have no hope or friends I can talk to. I am a failure as a husband, father, and man. If everyone in my life has cheated on me, screwed me over, or just ignored me, it's not the world it must be me. I have tried for so long I am just ready to give up. I hate myself for being me.

Unfortunately you do need someone else right now, to help you step back and look at what you think you're seeing, and perhaps help you with how you value things. If you have kids (father?) and a wife (husband?) and you're holding down 3 jobs, then it sounds like you work like hell and should be damn tired.

None of us have the life that we see on TV but we tend to measure our success and value based upon some kind of standard that we get from someone else. Your thinking is wrong, and therefore your conclusion about yourself is wrong as well.

Or there may be a chemical thing involved too, I don't know you.

Patterns of thought can be learned and unlearned. We can look at ourselves as ugly or attractive, but there really is no accurate measure, it's all in what we think is "good" and "bad".

You're doing the right thing though. Talking helps. Listening might help too. Depends upon who you listen to though.

Take care.

 

[silo_x2]

I feel so worthless all the time. My life has been one failure after another in all I do. I have no hope or friends I can talk to. I am a failure as a husband, father, and man. If everyone in my life has cheated on me, screwed me over, or just ignored me, it's not the world it must be me. I have tried for so long I am just ready to give up. I hate myself for being me.

Well take it from a husband in a similar situation, you can't hate yourself for being you, but if you don't agree with something about yourself, you have the power to change it. I learned this myself recently. If you need a friend, I'll be your friend my yahoo is just a click away under my name. Give me a shout.

 

[silo_x2]

I feel so worthless all the time. My life has been one failure after another in all I do. I have no hope or friends I can talk to. I am a failure as a husband, father, and man. If everyone in my life has cheated on me, screwed me over, or just ignored me, it's not the world it must be me. I have tried for so long I am just ready to give up. I hate myself for being me.

Well take it from a husband in a similar situation, you can't hate yourself for being you, but if you don't agree with something about yourself, you have the power to change it. I learned this myself recently. If you need a friend, I'll be your friend my yahoo is just a click away under my name. Give me a shout.

 

[boredguard469]

Thank you.

 

[TSienna]

Hang in there. I've been down that path myself and I've chewed the same dirt at several points in my life. When life knocks you down, you have to get up, brush yourself off and keep fighting. It's not easy but in the end you feel better about yourself.

 

[cj200267]

I feel so worthless all the time. My life has been one failure after another in all I do. I have no hope or friends I can talk to. I am a failure as a husband, father, and man. If everyone in my life has cheated on me, screwed me over, or just ignored me, it's not the world it must be me. I have tried for so long I am just ready to give up. I hate myself for being me.

I agree with the others, keep fighting because life is worth fighting for. I'm sure there was a time in your life when you felt completely different. Look back on those days and know they can be once again.

And please get some help. There's nothing wrong with getting help. We've all gotten help at some time in our lives and there's nothing to be ashamed of.

Take care.

 

[Electricnights]

I am very new to this..to be honest, you will be my first.. I've been a member for about 5 min... But I am willing to lend you an ear to listen with...or a shoulder.... Just be patient. With me...I am going to have to learn this.....being a newbie on here... Sometimes it helps to chat

 

[ratherabsurd1]

I am there and have been there .. Remember You are the one who decides who you are .. It is tough because I still fall into the same feelings you talk about but I can tell you are not a failure and will never be ..

 

[Lookn4brownsuga]

hey

Sorry to hear about your thoughts. The people on here willing to talk with you is really inspiring how nice people are and can be. But I want to tell you that all the platitudes from others are not going to help unless you seek professional help....a psychologigist, mental health counselor, or psychiatrist. You may get help from medication as your depression may need that help as well as some one you can trust to talk with. Don't know where you live, but there are services that are available to everyone. Good luck to you and I wish you the best.

I am telling you this because I know depression and you have it. Take that first step of getting help.

 

[uvaethan]

i agree with brownsuga

you sound depressed. you might need professional help. see your PCP first - he or she will help you get in touch with a counselor or psychologist or even a psychiatrist. don't wait - your family needs you.

hang in there. life has its ups and downs but it is worth living.

hope to hear from you soon!

 

[boredguard469]

Thank you all.

 

[boredguard469]

I realize I probably need to see someone but I can't open to someone like that. The circumstances of my life require me to grin and bear it. It is easier for me to say something here simply because of the anonymity of the web. I do thank everyone for the well wishes and it's nice to know that kind people are out there also.

 

[blushingtemptation]

Never give up, never surrender.

 

[lordexter]

i'm in the same boat man

 

[SecretRogue]

Why, exactly?

I'm curious about why your situation requires you to grin and bear it. I understand the feeling, quite well, but somewhere in that space of time where I found myself sitting in the dark while crying and holding a box cutter to my arm, I decided that my situation wasn't worth it.

I can't say I'm completely better yet and I can't say that I'm a huge fan of shrinks and the like, but I am (depending on when you ask me) a fan of not killing myself. What people think of me, my "role" in my family and in life, my expectations for myself and every other excuse I conjured are not important enough that I need to be so depressed I don't want to breathe anymore.

I'm hoping you're not that far down the road yet. Still, you need to know it won't just magically get better if nothing is done about it. Grinning and bearing it gets nobody anywhere. Trust me.

I wish you all the best. Like the others here, I'm always glad to talk to you if you need it.