There have been some really wonderful moments in my life this year. Some have been very stressful and problematic.
The 2 best center around MA naturally, I regained my best friend, lover thanks to a spontaneous stop @ a grocery store here in town. (she knows what the other is)
I was very fortunate earlier this fall when I hit a deer on my harley, I was heading home from work one night and I tagged it going 45 mph. I did'nt lay the bike down and no bones were broken. less than 10.00 damage to the bike.
This has been the most eventful year in my adult life. Many of you are not aware as I don't usually post things that are too personal or very negative.
Feb: I left my husb in the middle of the night to stay with dear old mom for two months.
March: 3 yr old was hospitalized for a week with an infection that carried with it ecoli bacteria.
April: Moved into my own place. Freedom!
June: Met the man who seemed to be Mr. Right. I regained years of lost self confidence and independence.
September: Resigned my position with the agency I was with...without having another job. Had many prospects.
September 20th (approx.): The Governor of NY placed a freeze on state hiring. *Poof* Gone were the prospects.
October: began my current job at a third what I used to make. (But I love the job!)
November: Met Mr. Right
December: Divorce is final. (Settlement is in the bank.) Mr. Right is awesome, but is he really Mr. Right?
And on to 2002 to continue the saga that has become my life!
In the meantime, lit friends have unknowingly, and some knowingly seen me through some very difficult times. Ya know what? I am happier now than I have ever been!!!!!
Started this year out kind of full of myself because I finished my career in my chosen discipline with the largest and most successful undertaking in that entire career. Partly as a result of that accomplishment, I also received the biggest promotion of my career. However, I realize now that was the LEAST important thing that happened to me, either this year or in my lifetime.
This year is ending in a sweet spot with my family. Extremely difficult emotional turmoil smoothed out incredibly over the course of the year as several generations came to grips with and got past some deeply seated conflicts. We all seem to recognize now the value in family. That was a long time coming and a battle almost lost at times.
A number of people near and dear to us have struggled with serious and even life threatening illness. (*edit*)Year wasn't over yet, (unfortunately). Since the original post, a friend we knew was extemely ill, but was fighting it, now seems on the final glide path and resigned to it. Don't know if that's a good thing or bad. I think, perhaps good for them, bad for us selfish friends who will miss them so. Also have learned that a newly rediscovered and very dear friend is very ill and don't yet know just how ill, but apparently very seriously. Still, so far as I know the two generations succeeding me are healthy at year end. I hope I can avoid that old Chinese curse, the one about surviving your children. That, at least looks ok so far. Mixed review in this category I guess.
I discovered in Lit a whole new and, on balance, a very nourishing family. It also has served in a small way as a creative outlet for a once aspiring young wannabe artist who had buried all that in several decades of “nuts and bolts”.
I’ve discovered a number of new and dear friends, including a perhaps another kindred spirit from sojourns past.
(*edit*) I still don’t deserve to be so fortunate, but after half a century of beating my head against a wall, I’ll take it… and am still indescribably grateful for my blessings this year.
This year has been "payback" year for my soul for all the damn hours of work and research I have put into my work the last few years. As they say, nothing is for free and I've been paying with the hours and effort the last few years. But this year It there have been some things that happened that have satisfied me that all my work has been worth it.
I have come to terms this year for accepting that I can not please everyone or fix everyones problems. After a helping hand is given it is also up to the person with the problem to help themselves also. I will be there with a helping hand with friends, but I will not bust my gut time and again to help people who will not change the smallest things to get themselves on the right road again. I have to have some energy for myself to see life through also. What energy I have left I will gladly hand to others.
I have also learnt the last few months that working too many hours puts stress on the brain and soul, so my new years resolution is too step back and play more.
It has been a year once more of learning...... the day we stop learning in life...... what will be left?
Jan: 4 months after the accedent one month after I could finaly walk under my own power again... leg went into remition I needed the crutches again. Had to quit my job entirely instead of just sick leave.
Feb: Found lit.... a release to the real world
april: got called about a job in my field, 18 people had recomended me.... 2 weeks later lost the job cause of Physio Therapy. Got a Guinea Pig. met a wonderful lady that's i've talked to everyday since.
May, school is done i was only in one class but at least I was aloud to leave the house once a week.
June had my wisdome teeth removed... or at least they tryed and failed.
July Had my wisdome teeth remoed (they got them this time) got addicted to pain killers.
Memories of stuff that happened as a chile... I lost it mentaly.
august... (lets no go here)
sept: actualy started talking on lit.
oct. not much happened.
Nov: neice got her fingers cut off.
Dec. Birthday came everyfucking person forgot it. I attacked people in a store, going to see the doctor.
this year yes had some good points but sucked shit.
In January my daughter underwent open heart surgery to repair a hole in her heart.
On May 2nd I first met someone that I didn't realise I'd fall in love with.
On May 18th I lost my job.
On May 20th they rehired me, with deep appologies for making a mistake.
In October my granddaughter was born with a malformed heart. She underwent open heart surgery and although scheduled for two more surgeries, she's doing well.
On November 12th, I met face to face, the woman I had met in May and now love deeply.
On November 30th, I had my dog of 16 years put to sleep, I felt like I lost a child.
All in all a year filled with worry, stress, and atleast one or two good things!
for my family. My oldest son was diagnosed with autism in September of this year. He now has 6 hours of therapy (3 of speech, and 3 of occupational therapy) a week. He also attends preschool full time now. This has been very hard on him, and me, as we are both used to being around each other all the time.
I have changed my status from Stay at home mom, to a College bound mom. I started my first semester in August. This has taken a lot of adjusting on everyone's part, but we seem to have worked through a lot of the problems. And I did finish my first semester with a 4.0. (They even sent me a certificate for being on the chancellors list. hee hee)
I have had to sit and watch an illness take over my dads kidneys. It wont be long before they demand a kidney transplant. My mothers health has also diminished over the past year. But they both seem to be doing better in the last couple months.
*I have come to realize over the year that we can't take anyone or anything for granted.
*I have learned to look at life through an autistic 4 year olds eyes. It is a big scary place out there for him, but he is striving because the love he has from family can weather any storm.
*I have learned money isnt as important as I once thought, but without it, it's hard to survive.
The past year started out a little rough and got even worse. Only in the past few months have I realized that I may be facing the opportunity of a lifetime.
On April 23rd, I came in from work and parked my motorcycle in the driveway as usual. I didn't know that it would be the last time I would ever ride it. I grew up on motorcycles and my bikes have always been my primary transportation. I don't like cars!
On April 24th, the weatherman predicted major thunderstorms so I drove my wifes Camero to work. If it were only a shower I would have ridden my bike. As it turned out it was a good thing because I hurt my back at work and was barely able to drive her car home.
Later I would be hospitalized and the surgeon would fuse several disc's and install 6 screws and 3 rods in my back. I am still recovering from but doing well.
The insurance company jerked me around causing delays in my weekly check from them so I told my lawer. He got that straightend out and told me to get an old military chest injury re-evaluated in hopes of me qualifying for SSI.
The evaluation was done at the veterans hospital in Aug. I was diagnosed with bolus emphasima (sp) that was already at a moderate level. I quit smoking!
What's the opportunity of a lifetime? Faced with the events of 2001, My love and I have become even closer, and now I have the time to write short stories reflecting very special events in my life before we met. Hopefully my first one will be posted here soon.