Rambling Rosie's Retreat

[Wriggle]

As some (one) of you may know, outside of LIT I'm a published horror writer, so for my first landmark post number I present a dark piece of FLASH fiction totally contrary to Rosie's uplifting positive theme.

(Post)666: The Beast.

You all know that it lurks in the darkness of our rooms late at night. You all know that it lurks in the darkness of our minds, too. Some will choose to let it into their souls, knowing they can never look back. But Dorothy would still be in Oz if she didn't look behind the curtain...
The Beast visited me last night. I could feel its presence all day; growing and growing. Trying to tempt me into releasing it, until I could resist it no longer and it had escaped into the world. Fortunately I managed to capture it and hide it back away in the dark.
Now I'll give you the option; you see I caught it on camera - a flash in the dark that lasted a thousandth of a second captured the beast waiting. So it's up to you - kind of a red pill/blue pill. You can choose to pussy out and keep your soul and eyes intact, or you can choose to see what can never be unseen, and it may keep you awake at night like it does to me. You have been warned - The Beast That Haunts Me

 

[RosewoodTulip]

As some (one) of you may know, outside of LIT I'm a published horror writer, so for my first landmark post number I present a dark piece of FLASH fiction totally contrary to Rosie's uplifting positive theme.

(Post)666: The Beast.

You all know that it lurks in the darkness of our rooms late at night. You all know that it lurks in the darkness of our minds, too. Some will choose to let it into their souls, knowing they can never look back. But Dorothy would still be in Oz if she didn't look behind the curtain...
The Beast visited me last night. I could feel its presence all day; growing and growing. Trying to tempt me into releasing it, until I could resist it no longer and it had escaped into the world. Fortunately I managed to capture it and hide it back away in the dark.
Now I'll give you the option; you see I caught it on camera - a flash in the dark that lasted a thousandth of a second captured the beast waiting. So it's up to you - kind of a red pill/blue pill. You can choose to pussy out and keep your soul and eyes intact, or you can choose to see what can never be unseen, and it may keep you awake at night like it does to me. You have been warned - The Beast That Haunts Me

Thank you so much for gifting my little thread something so clever

I chose both options but definitely preferred the second one. Can't say it'll haunt me but it may keep me up at night

 

[Wriggle]

Thank you so much for gifting my little thread something so clever

I chose both options but definitely preferred the second one. Can't say it'll haunt me but it may keep me up at night

Thank you, Rosie - I wanted to give your post a like, laugh, & love reaction.

 

[AngelicaS1780]

Thank you, Rosie - I wanted to give your post a like, laugh, & love reaction.

And that’s exactly what I wanted to give your post, Wrig (or Wil. Do you have a nickname and I’ve missed it?) A laugh because I had a suspicion you might be going that direction. A like and a love for your writing and your photo.

 

[Wriggle]

And that’s exactly what I wanted to give your post, Wrig (or Wil. Do you have a nickname and I’ve missed it?) A laugh because I had a suspicion you might be going that direction. A like and a love for your writing and your photo.

I tend to get called Wriggle or Wriggles

 

[Wriggle]

And that’s exactly what I wanted to give your post, Wrig (or Wil. Do you have a nickname and I’ve missed it?) A laugh because I had a suspicion you might be going that direction. A like and a love for your writing and your photo.

And of course, thank you so much for the compliments.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I tend to get called Wriggle or Wriggles

Wriggles! Love it!

 

[Saltfountain]

Just need Salty to do a Variation theme on peeping or hidden.
Speaking of which - the word occult also means hidden & 666 is my number of the beast...

(I still have no idea, do I?)

Hidden is on the list

 

[onanismaddict]

Yes I've been doing the same lately though today I've had the time and energy to be a bit more sociable.

Well please feel free to drop by whenever you're around

I'm very grateful for this fun little excerpt: "... though today I had the time and energy to be a bit more sociable."

I wasn't feeling as if I had the time 'or' energy to be particularly sociable today, myself... but I very much appreciated discovering all of the delightful posts that you've contributed to various threads.
It's always fun to stumble upon your excellent contributions, Rosie!
Thank you for brightening up the Lit world for us all...

 

[MedicalMuse]

I'm very grateful for this fun little excerpt: "... though today I had the time and energy to be a bit more sociable."

I wasn't feeling as if I had the time 'or' energy to be particularly sociable today, myself... but I very much appreciated discovering all of the delightful posts that you've contributed to various threads.
It's always fun to stumble upon your excellent contributions, Rosie!
Thank you for brightening up the Lit world for us all...

She’s a beauty. Every single day.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Hi everyone

Another busy week here but not a bad one really.

A quick update on how I've been feeling.

I spoke to a mental health nurse (finally) earlier this week and told her how I've been doing. She read over my notes and apparently I was referred for counselling last year. Would have been helpful to have been told this...

So because it was a telephone appointment she sent me the info via text and I've just put in my request to hopefully get some sessions soon. She is also going chase up my ADHD assessment although there is a long waiting list.

Amongst other things she suggested that when I'm feeling too overwhelmed, anxious, unfocused etc etc to start just writing my thoughts down. Stop them bouncing around my head and help me maybe get some clarity on why certain things are bothering me. I think that's a good idea and definitely manageable (until I get distracted and forget )

Oh and in other news, I finally got my new glasses yesterday. And then forgot I had them this morning until around 20 mins ago

So that's been my week so far.

What have you all been up to?

 

[deft]

Sounds positive, Rosie! Writing thoughts down sounds like a good plan, too.

Pretty much nose to the grindstone here, nothing extraordinary to report.

But... happy Little Friday!

 

[Lindi37]

Hi everyone

Another busy week here but not a bad one really.

A quick update on how I've been feeling.

I spoke to a mental health nurse (finally) earlier this week and told her how I've been doing. She read over my notes and apparently I was referred for counselling last year. Would have been helpful to have been told this...

So because it was a telephone appointment she sent me the info via text and I've just put in my request to hopefully get some sessions soon. She is also going chase up my ADHD assessment although there is a long waiting list.

Amongst other things she suggested that when I'm feeling too overwhelmed, anxious, unfocused etc etc to start just writing my thoughts down. Stop them bouncing around my head and help me maybe get some clarity on why certain things are bothering me. I think that's a good idea and definitely manageable (until I get distracted and forget )

Oh and in other news, I finally got my new glasses yesterday. And then forgot I had them this morning until around 20 mins ago

So that's been my week so far.

What have you all been up to?

Hey gorgeous girl. I’m so happy for you. It’s hard work being proactive and you are nailing it

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Sounds positive, Rosie! Writing thoughts down sounds like a good plan, too.

Pretty much nose to the grindstone here, nothing extraordinary to report.

But... happy Little Friday!

Little Friday is cute, I like it!

Any plans for Big Friday and beyond? Gonna get your dancing shoes on and hit the town?

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Hey gorgeous girl. I’m so happy for you. It’s hard work being proactive and you are nailing it

I'm just plodding along but hoping it pays off.

Thank you though my lovely

Your friendship, as always, is a tremendous help

 

[Lindi37]

I'm just plodding along but hoping it pays off.

Thank you though my lovely

Your friendship, as always, is a tremendous help

I love you

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I love you

I know

Ha sorry. Couldn't resist!
Love you too

 

[Saltfountain]

Hi everyone

Another busy week here but not a bad one really.

A quick update on how I've been feeling.

I spoke to a mental health nurse (finally) earlier this week and told her how I've been doing. She read over my notes and apparently I was referred for counselling last year. Would have been helpful to have been told this...

So because it was a telephone appointment she sent me the info via text and I've just put in my request to hopefully get some sessions soon. She is also going chase up my ADHD assessment although there is a long waiting list.

Amongst other things she suggested that when I'm feeling too overwhelmed, anxious, unfocused etc etc to start just writing my thoughts down. Stop them bouncing around my head and help me maybe get some clarity on why certain things are bothering me. I think that's a good idea and definitely manageable (until I get distracted and forget )

Oh and in other news, I finally got my new glasses yesterday. And then forgot I had them this morning until around 20 mins ago

So that's been my week so far.

What have you all been up to?

When I was going through my cancer treatment, I found that writing things down was actually really cathartic, and helped me to organise my thoughts.
My friends on FB caught the brunt of my essays, but it allowed me to process in a way I couldn't stuck in my own head.
The rule I made for myself was that if they were going to get positive me who was fighting and optimistic, they were also going to know about days when the clouds were gathering and hope was hard to find.
I realised that my friends wanted to know what was really happening, warts and all. The few who only wanted sunshine and happiness were acquaintances rather than friends.
And whilst I appreciated my friends on good days, it was on the bad days I really needed them to walk with me and help carry me.
Finally realising that friends want to be asked to help because they loved me and cared for me was a real step forward

Love and hugs Rosie Posey

 

[RosewoodTulip]

When I was going through my cancer treatment, I found that writing things down was actually really cathartic, avd helped me to organise my thoughts.
My friends on FB caught the brunt of my essays, but it allowed me to process in a way I couldn't stuck in my own head.
The rule I made for myself was that if they were going to get positive me who was fighting and optimistic, they were also going to know about days when the clouds were gathering and hope was hard to find.
I realised that my friends wanted to know what was really happening, warts and all. The few who only wanted sunshine and happiness were acquaintances rather than friends.
And whilst I appreciated my friends on good days, it was on the bad days I really needed them to walk with me and help carry me.
Finally realising that friends want to be asked to help because they loved me and cared for me was a real step forward

Love and hugs Rosie Posey

I often feel like I'm a burden.

One of the reasons I made this thread was because I was never sure how well I fitted in elsewhere (I've never been told I was or made to feel unwelcome, this is just how things are in my head) and even if it was just gonna be me talking to myself, at least it was somewhere to go.

I'm so very grateful that hasn't happened though.

Yes if I'm gonna share all the fun stuff I get up to then I'm also gonna share the real stuff too. My friends, of which you are one of my best, are here for me no matter what and knowing that, and believing it is so very helpful.

I am glad your friends were there for you when you needed them the most

 

[Saltfountain]

I often feel like I'm a burden.

One of the reasons I made this thread was because I was never sure how well I fitted in elsewhere (I've never been told I was or made to feel unwelcome, this is just how things are in my head) and even if it was just gonna be me talking to myself, at least it was somewhere to go.

I'm so very grateful that hasn't happened though.

Yes if I'm gonna share all the fun stuff I get up to then I'm also gonna share the real stuff too. My friends, of which you are one of my best, are here for me no matter what and knowing that, and believing it is so very helpful.

I am glad your friends were there for you when you needed them the most

I've never found you to be a burden.

I get that you want to be upbeat in the general chat bullshit threads, but the value of a thread like this is it is almost a blog, allowing you to sort, manage and process thoughts and feelings, and gain feedback and support at moments when you need it, without having to specifically ask for it.

You keep being you. You're awesome

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I've never found you to be a burden.

I get that you want to be upbeat in the general chat bullshit threads, but the value of a thread like this is it is almost a blog, allowing you to sort, manage and process thoughts and feelings, and gain feedback and support at moments when you need it, without having to specifically ask for it.

You keep being you. You're awesome

As are you

Yeah I mean dicking around, being silly and chatting it up is a great distraction but I haven't been able to do that lately. Maybe that will change but then maybe I'll just keep a lower profile.

I like how this space isn't just about me too. I want it to be a welcoming place for people to feel comfortable talking about whatever is on their mind. I know I'm not the only awkward af introvert around here

 

[HoneyMeadows]

I feel so similarly to you Rosie. I literally need to be told that I'm friends with someone, otherwise I act as a lifelong acquaintance

I was so surprised when I came back earlier this year and people I had only admired before were telling me that I had been missed

Our reach is far further than we know.

You are wonderful and I love how honest you are about things. I aim to do the same, but always feel like I'm intruding in these spaces (even though I know I'm not). I will endeavour to share here and in other places until I'm told to sod off

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I feel so similarly to you Rosie. I literally need to be told that I'm friends with someone, otherwise I act as a lifelong acquaintance

I was so surprised when I came back earlier this year and people I had only admired before were telling me that I had been missed

Our reach is far further than we know.

You are wonderful and I love how honest you are about things. I aim to do the same, but always feel like I'm intruding in these spaces (even though I know I'm not). I will endeavour to share here and in other places until I'm told to sod off

You are very welcome here

Ha yeah I get that.
"you mean you actually like me?"
Shocked Pikachu face!

It's hard being open like this but I do try and be "myself" as much as I can here without obviously giving up too much personal info.

I'm just glad that you're here Honey. You're so kind and friendly and I've really enjoyed getting to know you over the last few weeks. You are welcome to post or lurk or whatever really

 

[Saltfountain]

For those of us who don't value ourselves enough, it's always a surprise when we find people actually like us...

From a personal point of view, you two (@RosewoodTulip @HoneyMeadows) are two of the very best on here

People who accept us for who we are, and despite what we see as our faults are valuable and are worth holding on to

 

[Radiantcurves87]

You are very welcome here

Ha yeah I get that.
"you mean you actually like me?"
Shocked Pikachu face!

It's hard being open like this but I do try and be "myself" as much as I can here without obviously giving up too much personal info.

I'm just glad that you're here Honey. You're so kind and friendly and I've really enjoyed getting to know you over the last few weeks. You are welcome to post or lurk or whatever really

Rosie, this is one reason I adore you soo much and you are wonderful.

Even when you are struggling you are there to help others and keep it positive.

I agree with @Saltfountain where when we don't value ourselves, we can find people like us.

Okay, I need to stop thinking I am not welcomed or a burden as well.