Porn Shock!

[polynices]

This is just a short piece, a kind of essay, on my early experiences of pornography:

http://www.literotica.com/s/porn-shock

I'm not really looking for critique here (though I'll take what I'm given, of course, if anyone feels like writing some) but I would be very interested in other people's reactions to the experiences and feelings I've described. Does my experience 'chime' with yours in any way, or was your early experience completely different? - etc.

- polynices

 

[ChrissieLecker]

I can relate to your experience, I still remember watching a porn movie for the first time like it was yesterday. It was in the late eighties, when a friend from school had discovered a movie hidden in their attic and came to me to watch it - it was on a Beta Max tape for which I had a player, while his parents had since switched to the new VHS system. I had seen the usual magazines like Playboy and Hustler (one of the perks of volunteering for the catholic youth's quarterly waste paper collection), but the movie was unlike anything I had encountered before. I didn't know it back then, but it was already a classic - Lasse Braun's "Sensations".

Some of the scenes there burnt themselves into my memory, like the one early on where the main character's boyfriend takes an asian woman in the bum while his female assistant whips that body part, all in front of a running movie camera. I saw the first girl-on-girl scene and still find it incredibly hot, and it even had a golden shower scene that rendered both of us speechless.

My (at that time still very recently acquired) perception of sexuality simply shattered in those little-less-than-90-minutes, and yes, I also felt all the symptoms - sweaty hands, my heart beating like a jungle drum and that dizzy, strange, high feeling.

I've not encountered that feeling very often in regards to porn (there were one or two occasions when I discovered the varieties of bdsm), but it is very similar to those incredible moments when me and the beautiful, witty woman I'd just had a fantastic dinner and wonderful conversation with shed our clothes and inhibitions and get kinky, sharing levels of intimacy, vulnerability and trust that send me (time and time again) into a state of utter bliss.

 

[sunandshadow]

This is one of the reasons I love science fiction and fantasy erotica. When you can use story elements that don't exist in real life there are more astonishing and hot concepts to discover. I do have a clear memory of being riveted by the first story I encountered where a hermaphrodite got itself pregnant. Hermaphrodites were not a new concept to me, neither was the idea of incestuous pregnancy, but it had never crossed my mind that the two could be combined.

 

[Feotakahari]

I tried Sunandshadow's path, but not successfully. There really is a level of jadedness where you can read a story containing underage genderbending incest with transformation, pregnancy, and egglaying, and all you can think is "this is boring. Where's the characterization?" (That is not a random string of fetishes, incidentally--it's the actual content of a story that recently bored me.) Anyways, I eventually found more pleasure in romantic stories, even ones without sex, than in stories with over-the-top sex acts.