Ponderances

[ToolmanTim]

I was asked to do a cheating roleplay recently and I turned it down. I didn't really explain why, beyond stating that I don't do cheating roles. That's all an explanation that was needed, they like the thrill of cheating, and I don't. That simple.

But there's more. I started here in 2007. I've been here and other sites on and off, mostly off. I was reading over those threads and comparing them to my new stuff. My kinks have changed. Alot. I would never have generated or derided a woman back in 2007. Now it's almost a requirement. In private, I consider the word 'slut' to be complimentary. It means you're horny, you want sex, you know you want sex, and you own that. Cum-drinking, cock hungry whore? Same thing. It's a good thing, I want you to be my whore, to drink my cum, to hunger for my cock. I get aroused by that now, and quickly.

The thing is, it has bled over into real life. My last relationship had alot of dirty talk. She didn't like it, at first but very soon she was calling herself my slut, my whore, etc. It turned her on.

Then there's cheating. I won't do it in a roleplay. I can appreciate the rush of the forbidden, the thrill of taking something that doesn't belong to you. I can appreciate it, but I don't want to experience it. Not even in a purely fictional setting.

Anyway, just something I thought I'd share, see if anyone experienced something similar.

 

[Veroe]

I applaud your candor, Toolman. Cheating threads aren't really a problem for me.

For me its Daddy Dom/Baby gurl relationships. I know a few girls here are into that, but it creeps me out. For me its a little too close to surrogate molestation of a minor...I know its not really...its totally different. But it makes me feel yuckyjust trying to get into that headspace.

Also I'm not keen on Incest either, though that isn't nearly as hard a limit as trying to play a Daddy Dom for me.

 

[Ldy_Sea]

Everyone has their own turn on's turn off's. No one should be made to feel bad about them, as long as they are legal and consensual.

I for one am turned off by gay male scenes. I get physically sick if I see, or read one. So I will not RP one, nor will I read a story or watch a porn that has that in it.

That does not mean that gay male is bad. It just means it is not something I enjoy, and will not voluntarily read about, write about or watch. That's called being an adult.

If you like it fine. Have at it. Just don't make me have anything to do with it.

 

[ToolmanTim]

I post, on average, once a day. Which generally means I have an hour or two a day where I sit down and type. It also means that sometimes I post three times a day and some days I don't post at all.

And then there are days like today. I finished all my projects, work and personal, or brought them as far as I can go until I get more resources or input, depending on the project. I had hours of free time. It's days like this that make me want to join a dozen extra threads.

I resisted. I had time to write a thousand threads today, I will probably not tomorrow. But it is a strong compunction.

I think it has something to do with combining the creative and the sexual. We have a need to create and a need to satiate. When one is fulfilled the other still calls, pushing us onward to write another story, or make another post. I've written on non-sexual sights and the drive just isn't this strong.

Something to think about.

 

[ToolmanTim]

More of a status update than a ponderance. I am quite busy with Real Life at the moment, and my posting has crawled back to the once a day or less level. Hopefully by Tuesday I will have more time to write.

Ever notice how when you have time to post it seems like everybody is busy, but when you have no time, everyone is free? Maybe it's just that we remember our frustrations better so those times tend to stick out in our consciousness.