Peace or Anguish

[bashfull]

Isn't ironic how you may be surrounded yet be all alone?
How you look around and realize your friends are all gone?
Those who seek your company would tear asunder your pillar,
Seeking to build their own.

Standing atop the mountain, lording it for myself but longing to share the triumph and spoils.
Breast full with success, memories throbbing with toils.
The approaching storm clouding the sky, whipping my hair;
my nostrils charged with the ionized air.

Hands upon hips, I seek fortitude for I no longer know solitude.
Ignoring the surrounding calamity for I have sacrificed my humanity.
A fire of self loathing builds within my breast
For a world of ice is now all I know best.

 

[Native Alien]

Something on your mind bashful?

 

[bashfull]

Something on your mind bashful?

merely my whining musings and how, in search of freedom, I have become a slave.



Bash

 

[cookiejar]

Ever think how you can have everything ...but have nothing but emptiness?

 

[Native Alien]

Then you just slave that ass right over here to Ohio and let me show ya what freedom is...

Sorry I couldn't resist, and how right you are Miss Cookiejar.

 

[Angelofsex]

What about hearing a knock at the door.....you open it up to let a friend in .......and no one is there.

 

[bashfull]

I grew up under rather harsh conditions. Street gang, violence, etc. I see definable lines perhaps more cleary than many. Then, loyalty was an expression of love (though we wouldn't have expressed that way) and duty. Now, I find there is loyalty to me because of power and position. Hence, not loyalty, but obedience to authority. I find myself seeking someone who would challenge, even defy me. Perhaps I merely seek company of respect.

 

[bashfull]

What about hearing a knock at the door.....you open it up to let a friend in .......and no one is there.

Darlin', there hasn't been anyone there since I was 13.



Bash

 

[Angelofsex]

Darlin', there hasn't been anyone there since I was 13.



Bash

Well if I knock at a door......the door will open to find me waiting to come in.

 

[Native Alien]

Bashful, I am not trying to be harsh here okay. I don't want to hurt anyone.

But have you ever stopped to think that maybe you refuse to allow people to get close to you. You can't have a friend without first being one.

That doesn't have anything to do with power, wealth, position or authority. The authority one I am an expert at believe me. My friends know me as a person first. I don't talk about what I do. I do ask that they mentally be able to hold their own in debates and discussions on a multitude of subjects.

I have a few very close friends that really know me. I work hard at maintaining and enriching those relationships. I allow them to see parts of me that I wouldn't allow the world to see.

You can be my friend anytime, just be aware, that I do require honesty and respect.

 

[bashfull]

Bashful, I am not trying to be harsh here okay. I don't want to hurt anyone.

But have you ever stopped to think that maybe you refuse to allow people to get close to you. You can't have a friend without first being one.

That doesn't have anything to do with power, wealth, position or authority. The authority one I am an expert at believe me. My friends know me as a person first. I don't talk about what I do. I do ask that they mentally be able to hold their own in debates and discussions on a multitude of subjects.

I have a few very close friends that really know me. I work hard at maintaining and enriching those relationships. I allow them to see parts of me that I wouldn't allow the world to see.

You can be my friend anytime, just be aware, that I do require honesty and respect.

~snip and edited~
But, enough whining. How fare thee tonight?

 

[Native Alien]

Getting better and stronger everyday. I have survived worse than the last three weeks, but it has been a while. So I take it one day at a time for now and seek the comfort and solice of friends that are there for me.

You can't be all to everyone, all the time.

 

[bashfull]

Well if I knock at a door......the door will open to find me waiting to come in.

Darlin', for you the door is always open.



Bash

 

[Angelofsex]

Darlin', for you the door is always open.



Bash

I thank you very much........the sun is shinning.

 

[bashfull]

I thank you very much........the sun is shinning.

good, for you are the sun.



Bash

 

[Georgia Girl]

Darlin', there hasn't been anyone there since I was 13.



Bash

I beg to differ

 

[Mysticcal]

Darlin', there hasn't been anyone there since I was 13.



Bash

hmmm, I have to wonder about this one Bash....you must have a very different definition of friend then I do.

 

[Forever_Gemini]

Hiya Bash....

 

[bashfull]

Hiya Bash....

Howdy, darlin'. Always a pleasure, in so many ways, to be in your presence.



Bash

 

[kikmosa]

Friend

When times are hard
And you feel the strain
A friend will be there
To hold you steady

When your mind is filled
With despair and pain
A friend will be there
To sooth and comfort you

When you've lost your way
And walk blindly along
A friend will be there
To guide you to safety

When the agony of life
Becomes to much to bear
A friend will be there
To help carry the load

Look not for this friend
In front to lead
Look not for this friend
To the rear to be led

Look not beneath you
For this friend to carry you
Look not for this friend
Above to shelter you

Look for this friend
Beside you only
To share your journey
Always at your side