Oh If i could just Leave it all behind

[Svedish_Chef]

Nothing could be bring me closer
Nothing could be bring me near
Where is the road I follow?
Believing, leave

It's under, under, under my feet
The scene spread out there before me
Better I go where the land touches sea
There is my trust in what I believe

That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me down
To leave it, believe it
Leave it all behind

Shifting the dream
Nothing could bring me further
From my old friend time
Shifting the dream
It's charging the scene
I know where I marked the signs
Suffer the dreams of a world gone mad
I like it like that and I know it

I know it well, ugly and sweet
A temper man who said believe in his dream

That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me down
I sent it on an airline plane
I sent it off in an airplane
That never left the ground

That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me down
To leave it, believe it
Leave it all behind

Lift me, lift me
I attain my dream
I lost myself, I lost them
Heartache calling me
I lost myself in sorrow
I lost myself in pain
I lost myself in gravity
Memory, leave, leave

That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me down
To leave it, believe it
Leave it all behind

That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me
That's what keeps me down
To leave it, believe it
Leave it all behind

Midnight hands, my eyes are still
I walk into the scene
Shoot myself in a different place
Leavin'

Longed for this to take me
Longed for my release
Waited for the coming
Leavin', leave

Leave, leave
Leavin', leavin'

I want to leave it all behind... let everything go I need to make that break

Country Feedback
This flower is scorched
This film is on
On a maddening loop
These clothes
These clothes don't fit us right
I'm to blame
It's all the same
It's all the same

You come to me with a bone in your hand
You come to me with your hair curled tight
You come to me with positions
You come to me with excuses
Ducked out in a row
You wear me out
You wear me out

We've been through fake-a-breakdown
Self hurt
Plastics, collections
Self help, self pain
EST, psychics, fuck all
I was central
I had control
I lost my head
I need this
I need this
A paper weight, junk garage
Winter rain, a honey pot
Crazy, all the lovers have been tagged
A hotline, a wanted ad
It's crazy what you could've had

It's crazy what you could've had
It's crazy what you could've had
I need this
I need this

It's crazy what you could've had
It's crazy what you could've had
I need this
I need this

It's crazy what you could've had
It's crazy what you could've had
I need this
I, I need this

It's crazy what you could've had
I need this
I need this

It's crazy what you could've had
It's crazy what you could've had
I need this
I need this

It's crazy what you could've had
It's crazy what you could've had

To go to the US to see all you guys understand it "I need this"
I refuse to back down for whatever reason... if it takes my 5 years to finally get over there I don't care I am going to do it. And hopefully everyone can understand.

Every time I turn around something else is stopping me... I am trying the best I can... and one day I will have money and buying that ticket will be one of the greatest things in my life.

Hope to see all of you one day

 

[Siren]

Cheffie....

 

[lickerish]

Patience darlin. Remember what I said about time? Just do what you need to do to get yourself here. It may be nerve-wracking now, but u will be here soon enough.. and those that care will have our arms wide open waiting for you.

*MuaH*

 

[Ezzy]

Chef I feel the same way...

So much so that after pain and struggle and more pain and more struggle, I picked up my passport this morning, and my ticket this afternoon and my flight tomorrow.


The only fly in the ointment is having to fly past where I want to go then land, take a 2 hr and 15 min layover, then fly back to where I want to be.


So like a few others have said tonight I will be away from the BB for a couple of days, before I get any where near a computer.


Stick with the good thoughts and when the chance arrives grab it with both hands and don't let go for anything.




EZ

 

[Siren]

Where you going Ezzy???

 

[Ezzy]

Yup it is to meet someone wonderful...

I am awake (if you can call the twisting and turning I did earlier sleep) and will be awake till I arrive 22:00 MDT and then meet IRL for the first time.


That is why I wont be on line for at least a couple of days lol.


<Wink>




EZ

 

[Siren]

That is so great, I am so happy for you Ezzy...

 

[Ezzy]

Yup I found my love ...

Online in the chat here, just talking the last few things through before I box up my comp and bring bits with me.

So I can sit next to her and type that Extra E mail to say I love her, and say hun you have mail and lean over and kiss her.




EZ

 

[Ezzy]

My apoligies for the time these posts are taking...

Voice chatting the final final final extra details.




EZ

 

[Siren]

I am so happy for you sweet Ezzy....

 

[Nicole]

Ezzy there's no way you'll see this cause I have a feeling you'll be in the air as we speak, alright as I speak.

Good Luck you, YOU deserve to be happy.

Chef I know babe, I truly know One day you and I will make it

 

[Ezzy]

Thanks for the good thoughts...

Well I made it to my destination in the US with only a single days delay, due to problems with a connecting flight.

Brunch and a cuddle then off for a getting to know the IRL you and me in a hotel for 3 days as a hunnymoon, before getting to meet the rest of the folks.

I am still finding my feet, I had thought they would stay one on the end of each leg, but I have had them swept from underneath me and I am not back up on them yet.




(((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))




EZ

 

[Svedish_Chef]

Re: Thanks for the good thoughts...

Well I made it to my destination in the US with only a single days delay, due to problems with a connecting flight.

Brunch and a cuddle then off for a getting to know the IRL you and me in a hotel for 3 days as a hunnymoon, before getting to meet the rest of the folks.

Isn't it time to change your from.... henceforth.

Oh and you lucky lucky bastard!