not ranting....just....wonder

[Silverluna]

Seeing the fireworks with my family I couldn't help think...My God, I'm growing up....I'll be 21 soon....my brother's going away to college...he's got a Girlfriend...scary.

Do you ever feel a wash of either sadness....awe....or whathave you when you see something neat?

Maybe its just my medication acting up....

 

[cybergirly]

Yes I felt the same way today. Went to a family picnic and watching my dad with my niece and nephew, I suddenly had flashbacks to when it was my brother and myself he was playing with. I started thinking about all the things I thought I would have accomplished by the time I reached 30, and realized how differently my life turned out to be.

 

[Guest]

I do. And, I don't think it's the meds.

I find myself sighing sometimes, when others are smiling. I think too much, I think.

 

[Silverluna]

Memories

Cursing us with flashbacks of past errors....
Blessing us with images of past triumphs.....

 

[Silverlily]

Fireworks always make me a little maudlin. When I was little, my father was part of the team that set the fireworks off for the base. One year, the most memorable, he was in charge. Not only did he make sure my favorites got heavy rotation, but we got to sit so close it was like the world was nothing but explosions of light. Of course we also got fragged with hot little bits of expended fireworks, but when you're eight, it's all part of the fun.

Every display I see now reminds me of that night. I still remember the scratch of the old G.I. blanket we brought and the millions of mosquito bites I had the next day.

 

[Shaq]

Yeah, I know what you mean...we all reflect like that sometimes...19 isn't old but it's older than I thought I would be sometimes....lol...sometimes I actually forget that life does move...

 

[koalabear]

At my age you just smile when you wake up.

 

[mistressastra]

Being that I am a perrenial child, I was feeling blue that I missed fireworks for the first time this year. We used to go to a Burger King parking lot across from the Big Show (saves 16$ ) and watch for free. Hubby left and everyone else is busy with their own thing. I can hear them right now, makes me sad not to be able to see.

 

[Ezarc]

All the time.
Take Care,
Ezarc

 

[Silverluna]

At my age you just smile when you wake up.

LoL or if you do wake up @ your age....^_^

 

[calypso_21]

Seeing the fireworks with my family I couldn't help think...My God, I'm growing up....I'll be 21 soon....my brother's going away to college...he's got a Girlfriend...scary.

Do you ever feel a wash of either sadness....awe....or whathave you when you see something neat?

Maybe its just my medication acting up....

Gosh, I was feeling fine but this just reminded me that OMG 30!!! is less than two months away....Bring it on!

But to answer your question...I think almost everyone gets reflective, I know I do and it can't be the medication....maybe it should be?

 

[Silverluna]

Well It should be....

Damnit it should be my medication....how will i know if it's actually working if i don't FEEL anything? *frown*

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Most holidays bring waves of memories to the surface for me.

Sometimes there's a tinge of sadness when thinking of folks who have passed on. When feelings get too sad, I try and enjoy the promise of new memories to come!