Hi all! I'm not entirely sure my comment/ question/ query, or whatever this is, will be welcomed, responded to, or is fully appropriate in this forum, but I'm giving it a shot.
I decided to look at the "extreme" section, and, yes, I know I was warned. But I wanted to see what a child molester thought. As a little girl, I was repeatedly and violently brutalized by a teacher. He was well into his 40's and I was a pre-teen. There was absolutely no room for doubt that I did not want nor in any way enjoy what he did to me. These attacks left a very lasting mark on my spirit, and I have spent most of my life trying to compartmentalize that away from my current reality. Having an amazingly intuitive, strong, gentle, loving, warm, kind, generous husband HAS healed most of what that bastard stole from me, but even now it creates difficulties in how I allow myself to express my sexuality. Anyway, I think what I was hoping to see in the story I read was even a shred of humanity. I was looking for something...a tiny bit of regret, or an honest delusion that the child would enjoy it, or maybe even something like a simple sentence saying he cringed at the thought of inflicting pain on this child. This was far from what I found. I wanted to believe that there was something redeeming in the child molester as a human being, that there was something ultimately forgiveable, but I found a monster. I found that this person not only felt no shame or regret at stealing a child's innocense, he stood proud of it and actually got off on the child's horror and pain.
I guess where I'm going with this is why do the powers that be allow these kinds of stories on this site? I've seen some sorts of censorship on the message boards, where minors have been asked to leave, and where authors have been encouraged to keep their characters over 18, so why allow this anywhere on the site? Is it that you want to provide a forum for people to allow themselves the fantasy rather than acting it out? Or is it possible that I'm hopelessly naive and this is a common, though rarely discussed fantasy of most men? Do men really get off on the fantasy of inflicting unwanted pain on women or children? I just don't want to believe this is possible! I don't want to believe there is anyone or anything that is pure evil, and it would seem to me that the author of the story I read is just that.
I really like the rest of this site, and have enjoyed all of the stories and posts I have read elsewhere, I just don't understand that one part. I'm not suggesting censorship is ever a good thing, more of an occasional necessary evil. I'm sure you must have your reasons for including that, and I'd appreciate it if someone could give me a really good reason for doing so.
I apologize if I've stepped on any toes or brought up a subject that has been thoroughly discussed before I started reading this site.
Hugs to all! Mary Jane
I decided to look at the "extreme" section, and, yes, I know I was warned. But I wanted to see what a child molester thought. As a little girl, I was repeatedly and violently brutalized by a teacher. He was well into his 40's and I was a pre-teen. There was absolutely no room for doubt that I did not want nor in any way enjoy what he did to me. These attacks left a very lasting mark on my spirit, and I have spent most of my life trying to compartmentalize that away from my current reality. Having an amazingly intuitive, strong, gentle, loving, warm, kind, generous husband HAS healed most of what that bastard stole from me, but even now it creates difficulties in how I allow myself to express my sexuality. Anyway, I think what I was hoping to see in the story I read was even a shred of humanity. I was looking for something...a tiny bit of regret, or an honest delusion that the child would enjoy it, or maybe even something like a simple sentence saying he cringed at the thought of inflicting pain on this child. This was far from what I found. I wanted to believe that there was something redeeming in the child molester as a human being, that there was something ultimately forgiveable, but I found a monster. I found that this person not only felt no shame or regret at stealing a child's innocense, he stood proud of it and actually got off on the child's horror and pain.
I guess where I'm going with this is why do the powers that be allow these kinds of stories on this site? I've seen some sorts of censorship on the message boards, where minors have been asked to leave, and where authors have been encouraged to keep their characters over 18, so why allow this anywhere on the site? Is it that you want to provide a forum for people to allow themselves the fantasy rather than acting it out? Or is it possible that I'm hopelessly naive and this is a common, though rarely discussed fantasy of most men? Do men really get off on the fantasy of inflicting unwanted pain on women or children? I just don't want to believe this is possible! I don't want to believe there is anyone or anything that is pure evil, and it would seem to me that the author of the story I read is just that.
I really like the rest of this site, and have enjoyed all of the stories and posts I have read elsewhere, I just don't understand that one part. I'm not suggesting censorship is ever a good thing, more of an occasional necessary evil. I'm sure you must have your reasons for including that, and I'd appreciate it if someone could give me a really good reason for doing so.
I apologize if I've stepped on any toes or brought up a subject that has been thoroughly discussed before I started reading this site.
Hugs to all! Mary Jane
Also, I recently started talking more about sex to a good friend, and she's opened up new worlds for me! LOL
