Non-binary/genderqueer

[RDeLajour]

Hi everyone...I'm new here...I was very surprised and pleased to see the LGBT forum.

This is still hard for me to do but I feel so lost lately when it comes to my gender identity. For most of my life I have felt more masculine than feminine...I love wearing guys' clothes and doing guy things. I have noticed that a lot of guys see me as one of them and even my husband has said it before. It's only recently that I have embraced my feminine side. But I feel a balance with the two. A lot of times I am both, while other times I am more masculine or feminine.

So many people tell me that my breasts are nice and that I should show them off more but I secretly hate them because they feel foreign to me. If it were up to me, I'd get surgery to make them smaller. I'm contemplating getting a chest binder so that when I wear guy clothes, I can look more androgynous.

Does anyone else go through this or am I just a freak? I have severe depression and anxiety and I just feel so alone and overwhelmed in this...

 

[Bramblethorn]

Hi everyone...I'm new here...I was very surprised and pleased to see the LGBT forum.

This is still hard for me to do but I feel so lost lately when it comes to my gender identity. For most of my life I have felt more masculine than feminine...I love wearing guys' clothes and doing guy things. I have noticed that a lot of guys see me as one of them and even my husband has said it before. It's only recently that I have embraced my feminine side. But I feel a balance with the two. A lot of times I am both, while other times I am more masculine or feminine.

So many people tell me that my breasts are nice and that I should show them off more but I secretly hate them because they feel foreign to me. If it were up to me, I'd get surgery to make them smaller. I'm contemplating getting a chest binder so that when I wear guy clothes, I can look more androgynous.

Does anyone else go through this or am I just a freak? I have severe depression and anxiety and I just feel so alone and overwhelmed in this...

Nah, I know several GQ folk with similar stories