Next steps with religious Church Wife: the Confession

[MH2024hot]

Long journey in our marriage. Written a lot about it here on Lit.

Started with repression, sex once every 2-3 weeks 25+ years ago. Me jacking off to porn, phone sex, cam girls and strippers. Then renewed focus on her and better sex but still long periods of drought. Thankfully, she cums like crazy when we do have sex but it's me doing all the work. She's a taker and I'm a giver, big picture. And she has misplaced priorities with her work, school, church.

Then it was me recently admitting (with zero guilt and some pride) my porn coping habits due to her historic lack of interest and creativity. Lots of deep and good discussions. We had some forays into sex toys, sex stores, massage (all part of my plan) and finally this church wife happily watches me jacking off to what she used to think was "evil" porn, enjoying herself and cumming afterwards while I fuck her and confessed my porn habits. That was revolutionary. I revealed some of this other side of her husband. We had alot of fun. I splurge during vacations, spend alot on her and she's secure in our relationship, knows I love her, so it was fun during the day with friends on vacation and our private, dirty lust at night.

But then more of the same. Family drama with kids. Misplaced priorities. So I'm writing a final confession to her (she loves it when I write) and I'm not holding back. I'm telling her I want to incorporate erotica, porn and three way sex fantasies into our regular lovemaking. Ever since our Vegas massage she wants an erotic massage when making love. I dutifully and happily comply. But now I want something. Listening to sex audios, watching scenes together, graphically admitting what I've done and fantasies about her getting pleasure from another man while I watch. I want to dive into that with her.

I'm about two weeks away from the reveal. It won't be a complete shock because I've been leading to this but the explicit invitation and discussion of her getting fucked by another man (fantasy) while I masturbate
is going to shake her up a bit. But it needs to be done. I love her and it's time for all the secrets to be made public.

Life is not lived without some risk.

 

[Olcatmech2]

Good luck enjoyed your writing

 

[MH2024hot]

Thanks. I Have a recent update if you are curious...I'll write something soon here

 

[Winchester3030]

Looking forward to an update

 

[Olcatmech2]

Thanks. I Have a recent update if you are curious...I'll write something soon here

Oh yes please do!

 

[MH2024hot]

So...I wrote it all out to her, talked about how I jerk off to AI pics and vids of her getting fucked by another guy, you should have seen the look on her face, reiterated how I enjoyed masturbating to porn stars with her on vacation last year, talked about our outside bedroom priorities, the whole works.

It led to a date night where she tearfully confessed that she was surprised I didn't leave her, which was a shock because we have NEVER once even contemplated a reality where that could happen. I still don't. Not leaving her. But it led to talk about how she approaches marriage and sex (she is wonderfully orgasmic but it's routine sex and rare). And just how we do things in the marriage, our relationship. And then we talked about sex.

So...SHE proposed role playing. My mouth nearly dropped. And she suggested a boudoir shoot, her mentality was if you like masturbating to pictures then masturbate to me. Ya, I like that. Assertive woman taking charge. I'm certainly good with that because I absolutely enjoy the spectacle of someone watching me jerk off so we set it up. I ordered some good lighting. We had a nice camera and did some role-playing with her (my texts in advance "confirming" the appt, her as married woman and me as single photographer hitting on her). Spent the day away and the night at a nice boutique hotel . It was fun. Got some nice pics too. Had very good sex and a week later shot my load all over the print outs with her. She told me to jack off with her pics whenever I feel like it and to just "confess" it to her later.

Then, I proposed a sex therapist (her) and patient (me) role playing session. I created an intake sheet for her with a pic of me as the client, a written summary of our relationship, early years, struggles and successes and that I needed a safe space to share my "masturbating to porn" fetishes with her.

We talked at length, and then I got into my real therapy. Covered that I watched hard core fucking and cum shots, compilation videos, masturbating dominant women, weak and compliant sluts fingering their pussies on command, OnlyFans babes just looking pretty in tight clothes and how I jacked off to each. She started stripping during the session, gave me full on masturbation show, first ever and she literally had 20 orgasms (she normally has 10-12, and she counted that might) after I was through with her. I took out a realistic porn star pussy sex toy complete with the porn star featured on the box cover (modeled after her pussy) and she jacked me off with it. I was yelling out "fuck me mommy" and sucking her breasts as I shot semen deep inside. Total therapy, getting to suck the maternal part of her. That's the part I love but also struggled with because "mommy" took priority in the marriage for so long. Well, mommy got cum scooped out of that porn star sex toy and dumped on her own pussy, eaten out of her, and she thoroughly enjoyed it. As did I.

Then we went to church the next day. That's the way it should be. She had a blast and wants to do it again.

 

[MaturemanAJ]

So...I wrote it all out to her, talked about how I jerk off to AI pics and vids of her getting fucked by another guy, you should have seen the look on her face, reiterated how I enjoyed masturbating to porn stars with her on vacation last year, talked about our outside bedroom priorities, the whole works.

It led to a date night where she tearfully confessed that she was surprised I didn't leave her, which was a shock because we have NEVER once even contemplated a reality where that could happen. I still don't. Not leaving her. But it led to talk about how she approaches marriage and sex (she is wonderfully orgasmic but it's routine sex and rare). And just how we do things in the marriage, our relationship. And then we talked about sex.

So...SHE proposed role playing. My mouth nearly dropped. And she suggested a boudoir shoot, her mentality was if you like masturbating to pictures then masturbate to me. Ya, I like that. Assertive woman taking charge. I'm certainly good with that because I absolutely enjoy the spectacle of someone watching me jerk off so we set it up. I ordered some good lighting. We had a nice camera and did some role-playing with her (my texts in advance "confirming" the appt, her as married woman and me as single photographer hitting on her). Spent the day away and the night at a nice boutique hotel . It was fun. Got some nice pics too. Had very good sex and a week later shot my load all over the print outs with her. She told me to jack off with her pics whenever I feel like it and to just "confess" it to her later.

Then, I proposed a sex therapist (her) and patient (me) role playing session. I created an intake sheet for her with a pic of me as the client, a written summary of our relationship, early years, struggles and successes and that I needed a safe space to share my "masturbating to porn" fetishes with her.

We talked at length, and then I got into my real therapy. Covered that I watched hard core fucking and cum shots, compilation videos, masturbating dominant women, weak and compliant sluts fingering their pussies on command, OnlyFans babes just looking pretty in tight clothes and how I jacked off to each. She started stripping during the session, gave me full on masturbation show, first ever and she literally had 20 orgasms (she normally has 10-12, and she counted that might) after I was through with her. I took out a realistic porn star pussy sex toy complete with the porn star featured on the box cover (modeled after her pussy) and she jacked me off with it. I was yelling out "fuck me mommy" and sucking her breasts as I shot semen deep inside. Total therapy, getting to suck the maternal part of her. That's the part I love but also struggled with because "mommy" took priority in the marriage for so long. Well, mommy got cum scooped out of that porn star sex toy and dumped on her own pussy, eaten out of her, and she thoroughly enjoyed it. As did I.

Then we went to church the next day. That's the way it should be. She had a blast and wants to do it again.

Congratulations to you for being brave enough to lay it out there.
Congrats to her for being brave enough to do it for both of you

 

[Shanes_OralOrations]

Some parallels to my own history with my wife. One of my signature links talks about how I turned her from not wanting my cock near her lips to my regular blowjob and facial porn queen. Her libido is still up and down and I often need to "re-energize" her over sex. While I think an actual sharing fantasy is out of the question for us, I've been surprised how turned on she has been by watching other guys jack off to her pics and vids that I've occasionally shared. Do you think your wife would like that? Seeing other horny men jack off to her pics?

 

[MH2024hot]

I wish, ha. That's pretty awesome she is willing to share that part of you with her. We all have temptations and get aroused by other attractive people at times or certain fantasies so I think the best way to seal the bond between married partners is to confess and be truthful and to not have any secrets. To allow each other to receive that pleasure and enjoy it together.

I've told her she has the green light to masturbate but she's hard wired into thinking porn is bad. Granted, she did watch me jack off to porn models about a year ago so she is capable of giving in to naughty. She has now openly said I have the green light to jack off by myself looking at her boudoir pics we took, listening to the anudio I have of her cumming, and she said I can use my realistic porn start pussy if I want. That's soooo different from what she would have said a few years back. So that's sweet of her. I haven't but I haven't looked at any porn the last two months as I like saving my semen for her.

I will say that telling her about my secret porn forays is almost as good as watching it with her. The confession of how I stroked my cock to explicit scenes of couples fucking and women using dildos while my cum burst on my chest, just describing it is intense...it's not that I'm aroused remembering the actual porn. I'm aroused by the confession to my church wife. That was the first time we ever incorporated that into our lovemaking and the result was, well, she had 20 orgasms. Granted her having a dozen is typical but my point is that my church wife has come along way. Very proud of her. So...me want more.

She mentioned again to me how much fun she had so I'm going to write a "thank you" note to my "therapist" and suggest another "masturbation therapy session."