New Years Eve

[Sammyjo]

Yeah, it's early, but WTF?

I just got an invite to a party...bring a date...from a friend, a very good friend, I might add.

Why does he ask me to bring a date? He knows I won't have one...and everyone else will...and I'll be all alone kissing no one on New Years while everyone else, including all my other friends, are kissing it up. Does he intend to cause me pain? or just extending a friendly offer, knowing I will turn him down for year 4 in a row because I have no date, and I'm too fucking depressed for New Years yet again?

I'm sitting here, watching the video of my cousin's wedding, which I didn't attend...and bawling my eyes out because I'm STILL alone. STILL...as always. Just when I get to that point where I KNOW, I mean really know that I don't need a man to make me feel complete...it all falls apart with one little "I'm in love with so and so..." or whatever...I am so happy that people are in love, but it really does make me upset. And maybe I'm just wallowing in self-pity again, and I'm sure the critics will abound...but IT SUCKS BEING ALONE!!! I'm tired of not having someone. And the worst thing about not having someone for so long, is that if (and I mean IF) any man were to ever actually want me, I'd probably suffocate him with so much love, he'd be gone...I don't even think I'd know how to behave around a man...I'd probably do something so entirely juvenile (please remember my dating experience ranged from 14-19 yrs old)...that he'd never want to see me because he would be having nightmaric flashbacks from highschool era.

Maybe it's the drugs talking...or the reality that I've been cooped up in this damn house for an entire week and I am completely frightened, because I don't know if I can face the world and go back to work. I can NOT believe that I am scared to leave this house. What the hell is wrong with me all of a sudden? and why am I telling you?

Dammit...I need to read a good book with a happy ending, or something...

*ummm...no, I'm not psycho...just a little holiday depression...it's normal, I think*

 

[Cyan BloodsBane]

A good book and warm bath... no lights and just a candle burning... now thats a good time...

My dear you really don't need a man to make you happy. What you need to do is go out and get some good friends and have fun... Who cares about about the guys...

Note: I am a guy.

You see, i am married and all I want to do is sleep and watch tv... wife ... hahahaha... she can go play with herself..

(looks around ... heheh I can say that when shes not around)

Because I am the boss... well thats what I tell myself

 

[Rattlesnake1775]

You need three ingridents to immediate happiness..1. hot bath...2. goood book....3. chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, the cure for all ails.

And then...uhmmm....I don't know how to attract guys, so let me shop around on that one and get back to you. I personally think that if you do what you like, you'll find one. At least that always works for me, but I'm looking for women.

 

[Cg1369]

Hi Sammy: haven't talked to you before, but must agree with you that it sucks being alone during the holidays. For all intents and purposes, I have been alone for the holidays for the past 11 years, due to my late wife's illness. But hopefully this will be the last holiday season that I'm alone. Am engaged to a lovely lady, plan to marry in Feb or Mar. I suffocate my budlady with love, devotion and attention, even tho we're 1400 miles apart. I spoil her rotten, give her anything she desires.
She felt pretty much the same way as you do about IF a guy wanted her, but thru long conversations, MANY flights from SC to OK, I convinced her that I wanted her as my mate.
And to my everlasting happiness, she said "yes".
So cheer up sammy, there's hope at the end of the rainbow.
Believe me, if i can find happiness, anyone can.
If ya ever wanna talk, vent, yell, scream or shout, you can find my addy on the log in page for the chat room, under budman.

 

[teresafannin]

Hi SammyJo, I am sorry you are in a funk. You can always email or ICQ me. I will be home on New Year's Eve, I'm not much of a socializer these days. Last New Year's Eve, I stayed home on the computer chatting with friends. It is freezing down here, but most of the ice is gone. Take care of yourself. Hugs, Teresa

 

[Chuckus]

Sammyjo and Rattlesnake...........

You need three ingridents to immediate happiness..1. hot bath...2. goood book....3. chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, the cure for all ails.

And then...uhmmm....I don't know how to attract guys, so let me shop around on that one and get back to you. I personally think that if you do what you like, you'll find one. At least that always works for me, but I'm looking for women.

Sounds like some good advice there Rattlesnake......by the way nice to meet you. I come down to Columbia quite often as I live outside of Charlotte and have some good friends there........

Sammyjo, just go and take a hot bath, light some candles and just relax...............I don't have any advice other than this. BE YOU, let it come to you. If you see someone who you would like to meet, do it. What is the worst that can happen? He says "No"? Well there are plenty of fish in the sea of life. I have been turned down and you know what.....it is NO BIGGIE. I get over it, sure I am a little dismayed but no big deal. More to life than that (well not much more but for the sake of arguments......) and if you look too hard you will not find anything at all. Just be you and let it come to you. Believe me, when you quit looking..........bammmmm.......outta left field there it is.

 

[Rattlesnake1775]

You live outside charlotte ? Thats where I used to live. But anyways...like the song says...my advice is not based on science. Except the chocolate chip cookie dough part...I've studied that intently.

 

[KillerMuffin]

Screw them and the nasty ass goats they rode in on Sammy. You are one of the sexiest women on the continent dammit. Who the hell needs a date? You go to that party and take four of them home with you, begging and pleading for a moment of your favors.

I've seen the person you are here, unafraid, bold, brash, assertive, intelligent, witty, and you have one sexy ass attitude. Someday soon, I hope you can see that. You're a very special person. I don't know you well enough to call you a friend, but I'm willing to bet that you are one of the best.

 

[TN_Vixen]

Sammy

honey, I know how you feel. Although I pretty much choose to be single, there are those times where I'm lonely and feel like I'll never find love... never have it in my life.. and that makes me so sad. I mean, I love to cuddle and kiss and have someone THERE to talk to when I come home, to share my life with and laugh... but, but.. I also want my time. I want my time to do my thing.

Plus I have these expectations that make finding someone I want to go out on a date with nearly impossible. Especially in this city. ~sigh.

So, what can I say? Wanna talk? e-me and I'll listen and try to give you some hope. *smile*

 

[Sammyjo]

Well, I spent the evening making Velveeta/chili dip...yummm
And then some beef stroganoff...not that good, but it was some lame recipe my dad had...I should have known better.

T-I will e-mail you shortly...just need to get the little bugger to school.

KM...thank you so much...you put a smile on my face. It is nice to know the impression you make on people (hopefully it is good, but even if it's bad, at least you know). I don't know about 'sexy', but....heehee...thank you

TN...I guess I sort of "choose" to be single, too. I don't think I am that awful I can't attract a man...I just think that I don't put myself out there...I do "homey" things and don't go out...I want one thing, but I don't do the things I need to do to get that thing...confuses even me.

Thank you all for writing...8 replies, CW, and none of what I thought...heehee

On the up-side, mommy is buying the tree today...so, we get to feel festive for the afternoon.

*huggles*

 

[Rattlesnake1775]

Tree ? Tree ?!? TREEE ?!?!?! IS IT THAT TIME AGAIN ALLREAYD ?!? ARHGHGHHHH !

I'm not ready !!! I'M NOT READY !

Calm down...its ok...breathe....breathe...TREEE ! ARGHHHHHHH !

 

[Sammyjo]

I don't know if this is the reaction you wanted, but whenever I see your name, I think "Rattlesnake Shake" by Skid Row...*drooling*

Ok, calm down...yes, it is that time again...I think we can all get through this together. We need some sort of holiday support group...for those who seem to not be able to function during these important moments.

*hugs Snakeboy real tight and starts to grope his ass*
Maybe that will help

 

[Andra_Jenny]

I'll be home alone too!

Its amateur night as far as I am concerned. I'll stay home, get real drunk, go out and shoot off my guns at midnight (tee-hee) and then go sleep it off and the next morning, everything will be the same (unless I shoot a cow and then we'll have to BBQ!). Drop me a line at ANdra_Jenny@Literotica.org and we can cry in our cups together!

 

[Rattlesnake1775]

Wow...hey....HEY NOW !

I think I now have my own little tree there...

And yes ! We should form a holiday support group. We shall call it..."Lit's United Holiday Procrastinators"...or LUHP. That way, unlike other support groups, once the holidays are over, we can disolve, and just go back to regular procrastinating...< you can see the trend here >

Speaking of which...seeing how I need a tree, I guess I need gifts for said tree. Anybody have any ideas as to what is approrpriate for the second christmas in a relationship, seeing how this is the first time my dating has lasted longer then the average 4 month.

 

[Sammyjo]

Sex toys? That's always a good gift...of course, I'm the only one who has ever bought them for me...but I wouldn't mind if someone else made a purchase

 

[Chuckus]

Rattlesnake..........

Sex toys? That's always a good gift...of course, I'm the only one who has ever bought them for me...but I wouldn't mind if someone else made a purchase

"Shake, Shake that thing, Shake it like a rattlesnake baby............" What a song........

Now as for Christmas gifts to get someone, sexy type gifts always works.....there is the little place in Columbia I could tell you about Rattlesnake.....drop me an email and I could tell you where it is if you like?

 

[Sammyjo]

no, no, no...toys for ME!!!

grrrrrrrrrrr

 

[Chuckus]

no, no, no...toys for ME!!!

grrrrrrrrrrr

Sammy...........I don't know of any toy places in MN, sorry :-(

I am sure you can get them via the web though.......

 

[Sammyjo]

yeah, i know...know of anyone who wants to help me enjoy them though? that's what i really want

 

[Chuckus]

yeah, i know...know of anyone who wants to help me enjoy them though? that's what i really want

Let's see, I will be in MN this coming July? Not soon enough though I am sure, right? I have a couple of cousins who live there........

 

[Sammyjo]

yeah, i know...know of anyone who wants to help me enjoy them though? that's what i really want

Let's see, I will be in MN this coming July? Not soon enough though I am sure, right? I have a couple of cousins who live there........

You would share me with your family? I COULD wait until July...I suppose