philologos
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- Jul 14, 2008
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Hey everyone, I've been enjoying this site immensely. I'm especially partial to the stories and posts which concern first time gay sex. It's easy to imagine myself as the lead characters of those stories, in large part because I am a gay virgin. I have gravitated more towards women over the years, but I must admit I like cock as well and have a fascination with cum. I remember getting aroused when I would catch a glimpse of a friend's genitalia, and later I recorded some videos that showed rather long segments of full frontal male nudity. Later I would regularly watch straight cum shot porn, and often it would happen that I fantasize playing the feminine role in that scenario. In other words, I get excited by imagining what it must feel like, taste like, and smell like for those girls as they suck and swallow. Now, I've branched out into gay genres, thanks in no small part to my discovering of Sean Cody. His website has opened my eyes to how beautiful gay sex can be. And, to tell the truth, I am very picky about gay porn. For example, if the models are too old or too young, or if they're too effeminate or too "bearish." I'm not being critical, and I know there are many in the community who would strongly disagree with my preferences, but unfortunately the vast quantity of film out there does nothing for me. Maybe I'm just not looking in the right places. But I've found a few real good gems to get me started.
Now I guess the question naturally arises as to what I plan to do with these desires. I'm kinda stuck on that one. Thinking about gay sex is one thing, but I'm afraid the real thing could be something I might not be able to go through with. I wish I had a trusted bisexual friend that I could just experiment with. I'm somewhat familiar with all the NSA message boards and such, but they kinda scare me. I'm definitely a private person, and to go that route would cause all sorts of anxiety for me. But maybe there's a middle way, where I can just chat online for the time being until I feel comfortable with any possible sexual partners. I also really want to write some gay erotica to let out all of these suppressed fantasies I've been carrying around.
I love how on this forum you see a lot of posts, in which the author declares that he will be trying his first gay sex that night. Then, the next day it seems the vast majority re-post to say how wonderful the experience was, and how they are now committed cocksuckers. Well, I like to think one day when the time is right I too will be able to call myself a cocksucker, although I have no plans of relinquishing my post as pussy licker. In the future, I think a significant segment of the population will practice what we call bisexuality today. It has already occurred in the ancient world and I foresee its return. It makes clear sense to me. Dicks are magnificent organs for pleasure, and there is no reason not to enjoy them, regardless of your gender or sexual orientation. However, it is not easy as we have been inculcated from a very young age to think in binaries (either x or not x). At a stage in human history this may have been entirely necessary as the rulers of antiquity feared disorder above all else and it was of the utmost importance to fix a canon of social morality to provide a people with a sense of identity and place in the future.
These days I don't believe we need to concern us with such grim tasks. I could even see homosexuality being encouraged in some future era, as a means of self-overcoming and the rejection of an outmoded moral sense that surely is more dangerous than anything we have heretofore deemed wicked. Forgive this rather long diatribe; you must understand I was a philosophy student. I wrote this primarily for myself, but any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
Now I guess the question naturally arises as to what I plan to do with these desires. I'm kinda stuck on that one. Thinking about gay sex is one thing, but I'm afraid the real thing could be something I might not be able to go through with. I wish I had a trusted bisexual friend that I could just experiment with. I'm somewhat familiar with all the NSA message boards and such, but they kinda scare me. I'm definitely a private person, and to go that route would cause all sorts of anxiety for me. But maybe there's a middle way, where I can just chat online for the time being until I feel comfortable with any possible sexual partners. I also really want to write some gay erotica to let out all of these suppressed fantasies I've been carrying around.
I love how on this forum you see a lot of posts, in which the author declares that he will be trying his first gay sex that night. Then, the next day it seems the vast majority re-post to say how wonderful the experience was, and how they are now committed cocksuckers. Well, I like to think one day when the time is right I too will be able to call myself a cocksucker, although I have no plans of relinquishing my post as pussy licker. In the future, I think a significant segment of the population will practice what we call bisexuality today. It has already occurred in the ancient world and I foresee its return. It makes clear sense to me. Dicks are magnificent organs for pleasure, and there is no reason not to enjoy them, regardless of your gender or sexual orientation. However, it is not easy as we have been inculcated from a very young age to think in binaries (either x or not x). At a stage in human history this may have been entirely necessary as the rulers of antiquity feared disorder above all else and it was of the utmost importance to fix a canon of social morality to provide a people with a sense of identity and place in the future.
These days I don't believe we need to concern us with such grim tasks. I could even see homosexuality being encouraged in some future era, as a means of self-overcoming and the rejection of an outmoded moral sense that surely is more dangerous than anything we have heretofore deemed wicked. Forgive this rather long diatribe; you must understand I was a philosophy student. I wrote this primarily for myself, but any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
