need to vent

[curvacious]

I really need to vent. I've had a shitty almost 24 hours now.

Ok--I admit that I'm spoiled by my mom's side of the family.
Anyway, up until this September I lived with my mom. In September I moved to start a Master's and I moved into my dad's home.
I have been having to pay rent while living there. Which isn't all that big of a problem except that I really resent it because my dad says one thing about the money but really means another. He says that the rent is to try to teach me to be responsible and to learn what it's like in the "real" world. What he really means though is that he's broke and needs the money. So I don't know why he doesn't come out and just say it. I'm not stupid---I can tell when the bill collectors call.

Well last night he and my sister got into a fight. There was a lot of screaming going on and possibly a hit thrown against my sis. So I left. I know that I'm really blessed to never have grown up in such an envrironment---one reason I was soo upset.
Luckily, I was able to stay at my bf's home.
I know that I wasn't a planned pregnancy but I sure never felt that way from my mom's family. Last night was the first time I've ever felt unwanted by a family member. My dad was yelling that he was tired of helping out my sis and her bf (that just moved back in to get on their feet with a new baby) and then he said he was tired of helping me out too -----how nice is that to listen to through a closed door. I don't know who you're supposed to help if you don't help family.

So now I'm looking for apartments while I try to figure out how to tell my mom's side of the family all this shit.

Thanks for letting me vent-. I am so emotionally exhausted right now. I feel numb but also feel like anything could set me off to tears again at any moment.

 

[Rubyfruit]

Curvacious,

I am really sorry you are going through this. You sound like a very strong woman and that will take you a long way from this chaos in your family.

I think you are right in pursuing alternate housing. Sharing a cheap apartment with a roommate can't be that much more expensive than living with dad. And what it will save on your emotional toll will be priceless.

Good luck and keep focused on your goal.

Ruby

 

[april-wine]

Opening up the windows.....turning on the fans....venting now in progress........

Lining up the tequila shots.........ok lets get at it..........

Finding new digs, that's the way to go I think....Listen to Ruby she gives great advice......I just follow around at her coat-tails....

I hope things work out for you though, worry about you....Keep your mind clear and focused and you will do fine...........

Oh yeah.......cheers a few shots won't hurt will it...........