tmuyo
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this is a conversation that i had with my last ex. someone i care very deeply for and someone that has shown she still cared deeply for me after i broke up with her. but she seems to be acting completely different from the way she was. it's kind of long and i apologize, but i really care about her, and i still want to keep her in my life. what is your opinion of what she is or isn't saying?
conversation follows:tmuyo 7/3/01 3:13 PM how often do you use icq? also, when are you
usually online? i know you used to be online
all the time fall quarter, but then you said
you stopped completely. well, i miss ya and i
hope ya talk to me...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:43 AM if u ask ppl in BUSP, u'll know how busy we
are
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM lol
sorry chica
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM what is ur phone number?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM the one i have is ur old one
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:44 AM this phone # is temperary
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM oro?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:46 AM stupid icq
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:46 AM i liked this better than aim because it didn't
log me off
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:47 AM what's ur number then, how long is it good
for?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:47 AM i can't stay online all the time with is net
connection.....cuz it's dial up
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:48 AM ohhhhhh
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:48 AM i have dsl
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:48 AM oh...where are u ?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:48 AM u still in twon?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:49 AM twon?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:50 AM taiwan?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:50 AM i'm in shitty davis.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:50 AM town
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM oh, yeah. hell known as davis.
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM u in sf? or davis?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:51 AM hahah
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM lol, guess that means sf
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:53 AM shu fen
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:55 AM yes, i remember ur name u cute little 9 tail
fox
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:56 AM can u please stop calling me that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:56 AM i hate that name
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:56 AM ok, mcsilverfox
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:57 AM y do you hate it? i thought it was really
cute.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:57 AM it WAS
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:58 AM just call me Alisha....
i m not a little girl any more
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:59 AM you never were.....
you were always a cute young woman with a
bright future.
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:59 AM alisha
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:00 AM ok ok....stop shining my shoes
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:01 AM not shining them, telling you what i always
saw.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:01 AM i m not that bright
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:02 AM *frowns* you still need more self confidence
though, and yes you are.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:02 AM alright....alright..i'll know it if i really
do
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:03 AM well? do you?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:03 AM so, u finally have ur own computer?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:03 AM not now
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:04 AM no, i need to get new id still and have been
having problems because my mom stole all my id
when i moved to my friends house last year
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:05 AM i need the id to get a new bank account and
cash the check from fry's when i returned the
crappy comp i bought there to get a nice
gateway
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:06 AM didn't u need one when u move to davis?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:06 AM and yes, you do have a bright future ahead of
you, i know it, i could feel it every night i
was with you looking in your eyes. i could
see your future...........it was nice
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:06 AM a computer or new id?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:07 AM id
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:09 AM no, because they didn't ask for me to have
california id or driver's license
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:10 AM i just recently was finally able to get my
social security card again.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:12 AM you there?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:13 AM i m not here
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:13 AM hey! sly fox is looking for 9 tail milky fox,
do you know where she went?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:14 AM she's about 5'4", cute face, and a sweet
personality and sense of humor
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:14 AM sparkiling brown eyes
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:15 AM can u stop that.......please
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:15 AM a wonderful smile and likes to make cute
little faces
have you seen her?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:15 AM why? i can't tell the truth?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:16 AM besides, you disappeared
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:20 AM there you go again....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:21 AM yea....the sweet little fox has gone into
hiding without leaving her phone number
behind......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:23 AM sniff, please leave ur number........ : (
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:27 AM sorry...got disconnceted
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:27 AM ohhhhhh.............thought you ran off into
the woods.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:27 AM i need to sleep.....bai...night
remeber...i m not hiding......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:27 AM then leave ur number sweet fox
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM please don't talk to me like i m a little
kid...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM shit
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM i don't want to let u know
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM i want u to be out of my life
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM ok?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM i'm not. i'm speaking to someone that i'll
always hold dear and fondly in my heart. i
never thought of you as a little kid.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM ????????????????
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM why..........?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM just don't bother me anymore
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM what?
what the hell?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM i m having a great time here......
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:30 AM and don't care what the hell u r doing
..........
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:30 AM i'm glad......i just wanted to hold onto you
sd s friend.......a dear friend.....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:30 AM where is this all coming from?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:30 AM sorry to say this....
but...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM my heart
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:31 AM alisha, what's going on?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM just want to tell u the truth............
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM what's in my heart
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM sorry
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:32 AM why is something like that in your
heart....... : (
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:32 AM i lied......i had never loved u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM : (
well, it doesn't matter.
i still care about you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM i still do love you in a different fashion.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:33 AM welll...i don't.....
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:33 AM i know u do....but i don't...and i didn't love
u in any fashion
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM i honestly did think you were the one, until
one time while looking in ur eyes, i just
didn't see myself in your future...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM i didn't want to see that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM but i did,.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:34 AM cool
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM and it doesn't matter what ur saying right
now......i do really miss you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:35 AM ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM i know we can't be together in the way i
wanted, but why can't we still be friends?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM i just don't know why ur acting this way shu
fen
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM ur not a good liar.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM it doesn't suit you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM cuz............
..............it's a shame that i dated with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM i know at one point you did care about me.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM i was a good lier
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM i never thought it was a shame to date you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM yes i did.......very very short time
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM ur the only ex i've ever had that i still
cared about having in my life.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:37 AM i've never...
but i do!!!
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:37 AM i know...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:37 AM alisha, why are you saying these things i know
you don't mean?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:38 AM you can't possibly mean these things.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:38 AM this is excatlly what i mean...and what is in
my heart for a long time.......that i wanted
to tell u....but i m afraid that it will hurt
u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:38 AM it does.....
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:39 AM i was very happy the minute i broke up with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:39 AM it stings like the feel of a blade sliding
into my heart. but i still careabout you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:39 AM it hurts to hear you lie. please don't.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM i m not lying now...
i was lying
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM when i was with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:40 AM i know that isn't true.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM and i thought u shouldn't have done this to
myslef
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM it's is ture.........belive it
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM i m real
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:40 AM i regret having hurt you. i always have.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:41 AM Cindy even knows that i regret it.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:41 AM i don't think i ever will stop regretting it.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:41 AM good for u both...........
i can feel that ur relationship is very strong
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:41 AM i regreat too, richard!
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:42 AM i regreat dating with u
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:42 AM dated
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:42 AM i had never broke up with someone before. i
had always been the one cast off. it was too
hurtful to say "no" when you asked for a
second chance. i was so tempted to say yes.
i was.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:43 AM well...thanks for saying no.......
because i was going to say it.....
but u said it before i do
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:43 AM alisha, at least know that i always have and
always will love you and i will always regret
having to hurt you. it felt like i was
destroying myself. i didn't even go see Cindy
afterward.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:44 AM i went home for days.
and cried at what i had done to you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:44 AM i know what you just said is a lie, because
you only cried more after i said it.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:45 AM i may be a good actor, but i did not act my
feelings for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:45 AM i really shouldn't have cried.....
cuz ..u didn't hurt me at alll...........u
help me....to unfold the not
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:45 AM : (
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:46 AM why are you acting like this? why are you
rubbing salt in open wounds?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:47 AM i m a good actor.....belive me
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:47 AM no ur not. in a comedy yes, but not in a
drama.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:47 AM i m not acting....!!
this is the real me....
i was acting....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:47 AM this is no comedy.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:48 AM this is reality
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:48 AM wo ai ni.......................i hold you in
my heart.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:48 AM wo bu ai ni
shit...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:48 AM no matter what you are trying to do right now.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:50 AM i will always feel what i feel this for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:50 AM huh?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:50 AM wo.........ai......ni.........................
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:51 AM i will always feel love in my heart for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:51 AM whatever man.....
i don't........
tell u something.....wo ai ni...is used for
lovers only....in chinese....please don't use
it on anyone else besides cindy
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:52 AM if u don't "love" me....
we can be friends....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:52 AM ok, my mistake.
then how do iu say love for someone close that
is not a lover.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:52 AM but a friend's love
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:52 AM friends like....say "hi" when we see each
other....
not hiding behind the rocks
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM how od i say that?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM rocks?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:53 AM that's different love...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:53 AM trees
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM i know, that's what i'm trying to say.
how would i say that?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM i care about u...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM is
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:54 AM i've been trying to explain that this whole
time
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM wo guan xin ni
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM then dont' say i "love" u...
i dont' feel good with it
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM hmmm....what are the tones?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM by the way....i have a new bf
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM ok, i apologize. i care very deeply for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM ask cindy........ask for "i care about u"
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM there.....much..better
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM i am very happy for you. i knew someone much
better than me would come along.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:56 AM ^^......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:56 AM
....^_^
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:57 AM so you're going to stop saying the mean
hurtful comments now?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:57 AM this time...i can really feel...what real love
is..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:57 AM maybe.....~.^
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:58 AM grrr
it pains me that i couldn't be the right one
for you, but i am very happy that now you can
get what i wasn't able to provide.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:58 AM grrr is for the maybe
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:59 AM did you honestly mean the things you were
saying earlier?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:59 AM yes.......yes x 1000 times
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:00 AM U_U
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:00 AM but u r still my friend..
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:01 AM sniff.......i'm sorry to hear that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:01 AM but i know ur not a good liar or actor, so i
know what you said isn't true.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:02 AM hey...i am
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:02 AM i can be your friend if you'll start being
honest with me.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:03 AM NO ur NOT........i KNOW you weren't happy
when those tears were falling from your face.
i KNOW you weren't happy when i found that
note. i KNOw u weren't happy when i held you
that night and didn't want to let go.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:04 AM i didn't want to let go.....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:04 AM did you know that?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:05 AM may be u.....
i wasn't unhappy about we braking up....
i was unhappy about my past.......for what he
did...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:06 AM i was preparing for tears...when u hold my
hands....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:06 AM i didn't care about anything except you then,
i didn't care that i was soaked with two
peoples tears. i didn't care that snot was
all over my face and neck, i just cared about
being able to hold oyou for the last time. on
those steps by the dc
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:06 AM i know what u were going to do
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:06 AM i know. i could see the moisture in your
eyes, ut i tried to hide mine.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM did you know i cried on the way over to ur
place?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:07 AM nope
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM i ran cold water over my face until i looked
ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM and then came ot meet you at the door.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:08 AM oh....i didn't know that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:09 AM remember u saw me crying on the window when u
were leaving....
man...that was so fake..........
i u don't belive me...u can ask selena....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:09 AM i know. you didn't know how fucked up i was
when i had to choose between you and Cindy did
you. did you know i almost decided for you.
and that i couldn't make up my mind until i
got away from regan and sat on a curb and
couldn't stop crying. i didn't want to hurt
you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:10 AM i won't believe you. i said ur not a good
liar.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM when you asked for a second chance i wanted to
say yes. i wanted to fix the damage i had
done. i wanted to make you happy. to see
your smiling face.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM you want to know why i left busp and blew off
chem?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM the real reason?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:13 AM the reason even Cindy doesn't know?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:13 AM "I didn't want to hurt you."
when u say this......u had already
decided...but just were just afraid
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:14 AM ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:14 AM it was because i couldn't see you everyday and
not want to be with you. i couldn't stop
thinking about how much i cared for you, and
i threw it away. i couldn't believe how
stupid i was.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:16 AM there. now criticize me again. tell me
another hurtful thing to make me feel worse
than i always do.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:16 AM no....u started to blow off chem before we
broke up
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:16 AM but u were
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:17 AM no. i had trouble, but i wasn't blowing it
off. i went to see rolf and i wasn't
progressing very fast, but i was gonna stick
it out to be with you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:18 AM but what happened afterwards?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:18 AM even if i was going to fail the class. i was
going to stay. after i broke up with you, i
couldn't handle seeing you and the pain it
brought to me as well as feeling the pain i
brought to you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:19 AM so don't tll me a lie. don't ever lie to
me....please. it only makes the pain i carry
with me much worse.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:20 AM sorry ....but what i m saying right now IS the
Truth..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:20 AM u didn't hurt me.....richard
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM no even a sting
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM i thank for what u did
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM i really do
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:22 AM ..............................................
...........................................
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:23 AM u were only hurting urself
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:23 AM i wasing sad at all
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:23 AM say it again and i'll leave you alone forever.
i know it wasn't fake.
but i can't hear another lie.
i did talk to selena.
she diidn't agree with the story ur saying
now.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:24 AM she told me different from what you are saying
now. much different.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM she saw my eyes were red...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM she asked what happened...and i smiled...and
say...we broke up..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM i was glad
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:25 AM i called and emailed her asking her and she
didn't say anoy of that.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM she never know how i feell...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM u know she hates u
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:25 AM she said you got quiet and you didn't say much
to her for days.
i know, she told me that.
that's why i knew she was telling the truth.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM i have always asked myself....why did i go
out with u..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:26 AM hell no......
i was mad at her at that time
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:26 AM i had known she hated me. she hated me the
day i came over and started rubbing your
shoulders.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:27 AM hahhha.....i told our story to my bf
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:27 AM she told me she hated me being with you, but
she hated me for hurting you more.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:27 AM he said...."4 hours?!!?!?! dang..."
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:28 AM 4 hours?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:28 AM oh my god........she is totally
unsensitive.......let me tell u again...i was
not hurt
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:28 AM yeah...it was 4 hours
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:28 AM what was 4 hours?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM u know....i went out with u....cuz..i felt
very only
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM lonely
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM rubbing my sholder
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:30 AM i know. i was lonely too. but i had become
interested in you over step.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:30 AM enough to find out if you were dating anyone.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:30 AM because...selena wasn't caring about me.....i
really needed someone to care about me...
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:31 AM i did and still do.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:31 AM i know u were asking selena about that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:31 AM u were interested in aster at the beginning of
step
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM no
i was interested in being her friend.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM i didn't have any real friends in step
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:32 AM if aster didn't have a bf....will u go for
her?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM no
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:33 AM yes....aster told me......u asked her out
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:33 AM i didn't ask anything.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM i don't know....i remmeber aster was saying
that to me
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM i wrote a stupid note that i couldn't get back
because i left the building.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM what note?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM what did u wrote?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM i felt like a moron for writing it. beacuse
she wasn't my type and i just wanted to be
with someone.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM sorta what she told you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:35 AM but i regretted writing it and was happy when
she told me she couldn't read cursive
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:35 AM oh.....now u know how i was feeling
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:37 AM anyways...i was very glad that u didn't choose
me......
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:38 AM how did you feel huh? exactly how did you
feel when i asked you to go star watching with
me. exactly how did you feel when i asked you
out? exactly how did you feel when i brought
you a single rose? how did any of that feel?
DID YOU EVEN FEEL ANY OF IT???????????? how
did you feel when i said i love you for the
first time.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:38 AM i gotta sleep.....it's pretty late...i have
class tomorrow...but u don't
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:38 AM answer me
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM i was puzzled
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM when u asked me for starwatching
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:39 AM because this is probably the last time you'll
ever talk to me if you keep this negative bull
shit up.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM i know my heart wanted to say no when u ask me
under the start...but i said yes....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:40 AM why'd you say yes?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:40 AM i said yes...because i wanted someone to be
with me....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM ok, finish the rest.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:41 AM just like how u wanted to know someone when u
were in step
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM i at least deserve that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM fine. what about the other things on the
list?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM however i was very happy when u give me a
single rose
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:42 AM why were you happy?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM but i have 12 other roses of my own remember?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM cuz someone cares about me
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:42 AM yes. but a single rose can say more than 12
roses.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:43 AM and how did that make you feel?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM depends....i dried some roses .....if u
remember
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM satisified
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM i dried my roses...but not urs
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:43 AM i could of bought you 5 dozen, but it wouldn't
be the same.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:44 AM so where did the 13th rose come from?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:44 AM i counted them
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:44 AM it would have been the same....i would have
still dried mine but not urs
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:44 AM i dried only 5
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM ah, so now i hear the truth.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM good.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM why didn't you fry mine?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM dry
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:45 AM i won't dry roses if i want to keep them
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:46 AM i'm confused
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:46 AM you dy roses that you don't want to keep?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:49 AM Alisha! Mai Shu Fen!
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:53 AM ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why are you doing
this to me.....i guess i deserve
it...................
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:58 AM if you hate me so much why didn't you tell
Cindy what an awful person i was in the note
you left her with the bracelet i made/gave
you?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:59 AM i can't understand......................why?
why? WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SAYING THIS
STUFF!?!?!?!?!??!?!
why......................................
tmuyo 7/4/01 4:07 AM WHY GOD DAMNIT WHY????????????????????????
and why did you act the why you did at the
busp trip to the sea labs?
conversation follows:tmuyo 7/3/01 3:13 PM how often do you use icq? also, when are you
usually online? i know you used to be online
all the time fall quarter, but then you said
you stopped completely. well, i miss ya and i
hope ya talk to me...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:43 AM if u ask ppl in BUSP, u'll know how busy we
are
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM lol
sorry chica
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM what is ur phone number?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM the one i have is ur old one
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:44 AM this phone # is temperary
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:44 AM oro?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:46 AM stupid icq
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:46 AM i liked this better than aim because it didn't
log me off
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:47 AM what's ur number then, how long is it good
for?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:47 AM i can't stay online all the time with is net
connection.....cuz it's dial up
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:48 AM ohhhhhh
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:48 AM i have dsl
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:48 AM oh...where are u ?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:48 AM u still in twon?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:49 AM twon?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:50 AM taiwan?
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:50 AM i'm in shitty davis.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:50 AM town
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM oh, yeah. hell known as davis.
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM u in sf? or davis?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:51 AM hahah
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:51 AM lol, guess that means sf
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:53 AM shu fen
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:55 AM yes, i remember ur name u cute little 9 tail
fox
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:56 AM can u please stop calling me that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:56 AM i hate that name
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:56 AM ok, mcsilverfox
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:57 AM y do you hate it? i thought it was really
cute.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:57 AM it WAS
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 1:58 AM just call me Alisha....
i m not a little girl any more
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:59 AM you never were.....
you were always a cute young woman with a
bright future.
tmuyo 7/4/01 1:59 AM alisha
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:00 AM ok ok....stop shining my shoes
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:01 AM not shining them, telling you what i always
saw.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:01 AM i m not that bright
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:02 AM *frowns* you still need more self confidence
though, and yes you are.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:02 AM alright....alright..i'll know it if i really
do
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:03 AM well? do you?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:03 AM so, u finally have ur own computer?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:03 AM not now
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:04 AM no, i need to get new id still and have been
having problems because my mom stole all my id
when i moved to my friends house last year
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:05 AM i need the id to get a new bank account and
cash the check from fry's when i returned the
crappy comp i bought there to get a nice
gateway
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:06 AM didn't u need one when u move to davis?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:06 AM and yes, you do have a bright future ahead of
you, i know it, i could feel it every night i
was with you looking in your eyes. i could
see your future...........it was nice
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:06 AM a computer or new id?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:07 AM id
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:09 AM no, because they didn't ask for me to have
california id or driver's license
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:10 AM i just recently was finally able to get my
social security card again.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:12 AM you there?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:13 AM i m not here
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:13 AM hey! sly fox is looking for 9 tail milky fox,
do you know where she went?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:14 AM she's about 5'4", cute face, and a sweet
personality and sense of humor
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:14 AM sparkiling brown eyes
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:15 AM can u stop that.......please
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:15 AM a wonderful smile and likes to make cute
little faces
have you seen her?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:15 AM why? i can't tell the truth?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:16 AM besides, you disappeared
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:20 AM there you go again....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:21 AM yea....the sweet little fox has gone into
hiding without leaving her phone number
behind......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:23 AM sniff, please leave ur number........ : (
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:27 AM sorry...got disconnceted
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:27 AM ohhhhhh.............thought you ran off into
the woods.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:27 AM i need to sleep.....bai...night
remeber...i m not hiding......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:27 AM then leave ur number sweet fox
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM please don't talk to me like i m a little
kid...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM shit
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM i don't want to let u know
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:28 AM i want u to be out of my life
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM ok?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM i'm not. i'm speaking to someone that i'll
always hold dear and fondly in my heart. i
never thought of you as a little kid.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM ????????????????
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM why..........?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM just don't bother me anymore
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:29 AM what?
what the hell?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:29 AM i m having a great time here......
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:30 AM and don't care what the hell u r doing
..........
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:30 AM i'm glad......i just wanted to hold onto you
sd s friend.......a dear friend.....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:30 AM where is this all coming from?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:30 AM sorry to say this....
but...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM my heart
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:31 AM alisha, what's going on?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM just want to tell u the truth............
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM what's in my heart
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:31 AM sorry
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:32 AM why is something like that in your
heart....... : (
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:32 AM i lied......i had never loved u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM : (
well, it doesn't matter.
i still care about you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM i still do love you in a different fashion.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:33 AM welll...i don't.....
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:33 AM i know u do....but i don't...and i didn't love
u in any fashion
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:33 AM i honestly did think you were the one, until
one time while looking in ur eyes, i just
didn't see myself in your future...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM i didn't want to see that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM but i did,.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:34 AM cool
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:34 AM and it doesn't matter what ur saying right
now......i do really miss you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:35 AM ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM i know we can't be together in the way i
wanted, but why can't we still be friends?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM i just don't know why ur acting this way shu
fen
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM ur not a good liar.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:35 AM it doesn't suit you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM cuz............
..............it's a shame that i dated with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM i know at one point you did care about me.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM i was a good lier
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM i never thought it was a shame to date you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:36 AM yes i did.......very very short time
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:36 AM ur the only ex i've ever had that i still
cared about having in my life.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:37 AM i've never...
but i do!!!
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:37 AM i know...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:37 AM alisha, why are you saying these things i know
you don't mean?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:38 AM you can't possibly mean these things.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:38 AM this is excatlly what i mean...and what is in
my heart for a long time.......that i wanted
to tell u....but i m afraid that it will hurt
u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:38 AM it does.....
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:39 AM i was very happy the minute i broke up with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:39 AM it stings like the feel of a blade sliding
into my heart. but i still careabout you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:39 AM it hurts to hear you lie. please don't.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM i m not lying now...
i was lying
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM when i was with u
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:40 AM i know that isn't true.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM and i thought u shouldn't have done this to
myslef
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM it's is ture.........belive it
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:40 AM i m real
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:40 AM i regret having hurt you. i always have.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:41 AM Cindy even knows that i regret it.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:41 AM i don't think i ever will stop regretting it.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:41 AM good for u both...........
i can feel that ur relationship is very strong
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:41 AM i regreat too, richard!
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:42 AM i regreat dating with u
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:42 AM dated
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:42 AM i had never broke up with someone before. i
had always been the one cast off. it was too
hurtful to say "no" when you asked for a
second chance. i was so tempted to say yes.
i was.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:43 AM well...thanks for saying no.......
because i was going to say it.....
but u said it before i do
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:43 AM alisha, at least know that i always have and
always will love you and i will always regret
having to hurt you. it felt like i was
destroying myself. i didn't even go see Cindy
afterward.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:44 AM i went home for days.
and cried at what i had done to you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:44 AM i know what you just said is a lie, because
you only cried more after i said it.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:45 AM i may be a good actor, but i did not act my
feelings for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:45 AM i really shouldn't have cried.....
cuz ..u didn't hurt me at alll...........u
help me....to unfold the not
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:45 AM : (
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:46 AM why are you acting like this? why are you
rubbing salt in open wounds?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:47 AM i m a good actor.....belive me
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:47 AM no ur not. in a comedy yes, but not in a
drama.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:47 AM i m not acting....!!
this is the real me....
i was acting....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:47 AM this is no comedy.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:48 AM this is reality
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:48 AM wo ai ni.......................i hold you in
my heart.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:48 AM wo bu ai ni
shit...
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:48 AM no matter what you are trying to do right now.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:50 AM i will always feel what i feel this for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:50 AM huh?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:50 AM wo.........ai......ni.........................
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:51 AM i will always feel love in my heart for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:51 AM whatever man.....
i don't........
tell u something.....wo ai ni...is used for
lovers only....in chinese....please don't use
it on anyone else besides cindy
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:52 AM if u don't "love" me....
we can be friends....
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:52 AM ok, my mistake.
then how do iu say love for someone close that
is not a lover.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:52 AM but a friend's love
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:52 AM friends like....say "hi" when we see each
other....
not hiding behind the rocks
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM how od i say that?
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM rocks?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:53 AM that's different love...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:53 AM trees
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:53 AM i know, that's what i'm trying to say.
how would i say that?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM i care about u...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM is
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:54 AM i've been trying to explain that this whole
time
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:54 AM wo guan xin ni
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM then dont' say i "love" u...
i dont' feel good with it
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM hmmm....what are the tones?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM by the way....i have a new bf
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM ok, i apologize. i care very deeply for you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM ask cindy........ask for "i care about u"
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:55 AM there.....much..better
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:55 AM i am very happy for you. i knew someone much
better than me would come along.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:56 AM ^^......
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:56 AM
....^_^tmuyo 7/4/01 2:57 AM so you're going to stop saying the mean
hurtful comments now?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:57 AM this time...i can really feel...what real love
is..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:57 AM maybe.....~.^
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:58 AM grrr
it pains me that i couldn't be the right one
for you, but i am very happy that now you can
get what i wasn't able to provide.
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:58 AM grrr is for the maybe
tmuyo 7/4/01 2:59 AM did you honestly mean the things you were
saying earlier?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 2:59 AM yes.......yes x 1000 times
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:00 AM U_U
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:00 AM but u r still my friend..
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:01 AM sniff.......i'm sorry to hear that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:01 AM but i know ur not a good liar or actor, so i
know what you said isn't true.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:02 AM hey...i am
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:02 AM i can be your friend if you'll start being
honest with me.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:03 AM NO ur NOT........i KNOW you weren't happy
when those tears were falling from your face.
i KNOW you weren't happy when i found that
note. i KNOw u weren't happy when i held you
that night and didn't want to let go.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:04 AM i didn't want to let go.....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:04 AM did you know that?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:05 AM may be u.....
i wasn't unhappy about we braking up....
i was unhappy about my past.......for what he
did...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:06 AM i was preparing for tears...when u hold my
hands....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:06 AM i didn't care about anything except you then,
i didn't care that i was soaked with two
peoples tears. i didn't care that snot was
all over my face and neck, i just cared about
being able to hold oyou for the last time. on
those steps by the dc
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:06 AM i know what u were going to do
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:06 AM i know. i could see the moisture in your
eyes, ut i tried to hide mine.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM did you know i cried on the way over to ur
place?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:07 AM nope
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM i ran cold water over my face until i looked
ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:07 AM and then came ot meet you at the door.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:08 AM oh....i didn't know that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:09 AM remember u saw me crying on the window when u
were leaving....
man...that was so fake..........
i u don't belive me...u can ask selena....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:09 AM i know. you didn't know how fucked up i was
when i had to choose between you and Cindy did
you. did you know i almost decided for you.
and that i couldn't make up my mind until i
got away from regan and sat on a curb and
couldn't stop crying. i didn't want to hurt
you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:10 AM i won't believe you. i said ur not a good
liar.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM when you asked for a second chance i wanted to
say yes. i wanted to fix the damage i had
done. i wanted to make you happy. to see
your smiling face.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM you want to know why i left busp and blew off
chem?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:12 AM the real reason?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:13 AM the reason even Cindy doesn't know?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:13 AM "I didn't want to hurt you."
when u say this......u had already
decided...but just were just afraid
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:14 AM ok
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:14 AM it was because i couldn't see you everyday and
not want to be with you. i couldn't stop
thinking about how much i cared for you, and
i threw it away. i couldn't believe how
stupid i was.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:16 AM there. now criticize me again. tell me
another hurtful thing to make me feel worse
than i always do.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:16 AM no....u started to blow off chem before we
broke up
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:16 AM but u were
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:17 AM no. i had trouble, but i wasn't blowing it
off. i went to see rolf and i wasn't
progressing very fast, but i was gonna stick
it out to be with you.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:18 AM but what happened afterwards?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:18 AM even if i was going to fail the class. i was
going to stay. after i broke up with you, i
couldn't handle seeing you and the pain it
brought to me as well as feeling the pain i
brought to you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:19 AM so don't tll me a lie. don't ever lie to
me....please. it only makes the pain i carry
with me much worse.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:20 AM sorry ....but what i m saying right now IS the
Truth..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:20 AM u didn't hurt me.....richard
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM no even a sting
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM i thank for what u did
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:21 AM i really do
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:22 AM ..............................................
...........................................
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:23 AM u were only hurting urself
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:23 AM i wasing sad at all
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:23 AM say it again and i'll leave you alone forever.
i know it wasn't fake.
but i can't hear another lie.
i did talk to selena.
she diidn't agree with the story ur saying
now.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:24 AM she told me different from what you are saying
now. much different.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM she saw my eyes were red...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM she asked what happened...and i smiled...and
say...we broke up..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:24 AM i was glad
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:25 AM i called and emailed her asking her and she
didn't say anoy of that.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM she never know how i feell...
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM u know she hates u
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:25 AM she said you got quiet and you didn't say much
to her for days.
i know, she told me that.
that's why i knew she was telling the truth.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:25 AM i have always asked myself....why did i go
out with u..
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:26 AM hell no......
i was mad at her at that time
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:26 AM i had known she hated me. she hated me the
day i came over and started rubbing your
shoulders.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:27 AM hahhha.....i told our story to my bf
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:27 AM she told me she hated me being with you, but
she hated me for hurting you more.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:27 AM he said...."4 hours?!!?!?! dang..."
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:28 AM 4 hours?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:28 AM oh my god........she is totally
unsensitive.......let me tell u again...i was
not hurt
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:28 AM yeah...it was 4 hours
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:28 AM what was 4 hours?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM u know....i went out with u....cuz..i felt
very only
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM lonely
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:29 AM rubbing my sholder
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:30 AM i know. i was lonely too. but i had become
interested in you over step.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:30 AM enough to find out if you were dating anyone.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:30 AM because...selena wasn't caring about me.....i
really needed someone to care about me...
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:31 AM i did and still do.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:31 AM i know u were asking selena about that
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:31 AM u were interested in aster at the beginning of
step
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM no
i was interested in being her friend.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM i didn't have any real friends in step
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:32 AM if aster didn't have a bf....will u go for
her?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:32 AM no
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:33 AM yes....aster told me......u asked her out
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:33 AM i didn't ask anything.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM i don't know....i remmeber aster was saying
that to me
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM i wrote a stupid note that i couldn't get back
because i left the building.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM what note?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:34 AM what did u wrote?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM i felt like a moron for writing it. beacuse
she wasn't my type and i just wanted to be
with someone.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:34 AM sorta what she told you.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:35 AM but i regretted writing it and was happy when
she told me she couldn't read cursive
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:35 AM oh.....now u know how i was feeling
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:37 AM anyways...i was very glad that u didn't choose
me......
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:38 AM how did you feel huh? exactly how did you
feel when i asked you to go star watching with
me. exactly how did you feel when i asked you
out? exactly how did you feel when i brought
you a single rose? how did any of that feel?
DID YOU EVEN FEEL ANY OF IT???????????? how
did you feel when i said i love you for the
first time.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:38 AM i gotta sleep.....it's pretty late...i have
class tomorrow...but u don't
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:38 AM answer me
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM i was puzzled
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM when u asked me for starwatching
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:39 AM because this is probably the last time you'll
ever talk to me if you keep this negative bull
shit up.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:39 AM i know my heart wanted to say no when u ask me
under the start...but i said yes....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:40 AM why'd you say yes?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:40 AM i said yes...because i wanted someone to be
with me....
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM ok, finish the rest.
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:41 AM just like how u wanted to know someone when u
were in step
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM i at least deserve that.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:41 AM fine. what about the other things on the
list?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM however i was very happy when u give me a
single rose
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:42 AM why were you happy?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM but i have 12 other roses of my own remember?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:42 AM cuz someone cares about me
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:42 AM yes. but a single rose can say more than 12
roses.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:43 AM and how did that make you feel?
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM depends....i dried some roses .....if u
remember
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM satisified
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:43 AM i dried my roses...but not urs
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:43 AM i could of bought you 5 dozen, but it wouldn't
be the same.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:44 AM so where did the 13th rose come from?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:44 AM i counted them
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:44 AM it would have been the same....i would have
still dried mine but not urs
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:44 AM i dried only 5
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM ah, so now i hear the truth.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM good.
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM why didn't you fry mine?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:45 AM dry
¾Å β Òø 7/4/01 3:45 AM i won't dry roses if i want to keep them
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:46 AM i'm confused
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:46 AM you dy roses that you don't want to keep?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:49 AM Alisha! Mai Shu Fen!
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:53 AM ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why are you doing
this to me.....i guess i deserve
it...................
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:58 AM if you hate me so much why didn't you tell
Cindy what an awful person i was in the note
you left her with the bracelet i made/gave
you?
tmuyo 7/4/01 3:59 AM i can't understand......................why?
why? WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SAYING THIS
STUFF!?!?!?!?!??!?!
why......................................
tmuyo 7/4/01 4:07 AM WHY GOD DAMNIT WHY????????????????????????
and why did you act the why you did at the
busp trip to the sea labs?
