I'm a mid-50s mwm. I've never been attracted to men but I've had (some, several, many, quite a few {you pick}) over 50 M2M experiences.
I was 9y/o the first time. I didn't really know what I was doing at the time. It was with an older kid; about 12 I think. We sucked each other some and that's all I remember.
Ever since then, and to this day, from time to time I'd get the urge and try, sometimes sucessfully/sometimes not, to hook-up with another man.
I first took it in the ass from a college boy when I was a teenager. There were a few others during that time. Betwen about age 20 and about age 25 I was mostly interested in women and it was hit and miss with the men. Mostly miss until I discovered glory holes. I got lots of blow jobs but never gave one. I still haven't given a bj to comlpetion.
I'm mostly passive and like being on the receiving end. In my 30s. I let this guy fuck me repeatedly. We'd do a little sucking. Then he would fuck me almost always while I was on my back. Heavy drinking was usually involved. After he came he would suck me until I came. I think I fucked him only once.
Then AIDs hit the headlines. For 10-13 years I had no M2M contacts until about age 52. During the past few years I've hooked-up with several men over the net for blow-and-gos. I was a feeder. With one guy I did some sucking but I wasn't really into it. He was looking for a relationship. With another guy he tried to fuck me but he was very thick and inexperienced and when he was having a hard time getting it in he lost interest. I think he thought he was hurting me. He was, but I was willing to keep trying.
As I said earlier, I'm not attracted to men. I just like what they can do with their mouths and cocks. I don't kiss or cuddle or enjoy tender moments. And, I'm not looking for a relationship beyond raw sex.
The reason I writing is I have the urge again and I'm trying to get my mind wrapped around the question Why?. I have a normal sex life with my wife. We do swing. While I'v sucked cock with her as part of that life she doens't know about my other life as I've described here.
I'd appreciate your prespectives or insights on this. thanks in advance.
I was 9y/o the first time. I didn't really know what I was doing at the time. It was with an older kid; about 12 I think. We sucked each other some and that's all I remember.
Ever since then, and to this day, from time to time I'd get the urge and try, sometimes sucessfully/sometimes not, to hook-up with another man.
I first took it in the ass from a college boy when I was a teenager. There were a few others during that time. Betwen about age 20 and about age 25 I was mostly interested in women and it was hit and miss with the men. Mostly miss until I discovered glory holes. I got lots of blow jobs but never gave one. I still haven't given a bj to comlpetion.
I'm mostly passive and like being on the receiving end. In my 30s. I let this guy fuck me repeatedly. We'd do a little sucking. Then he would fuck me almost always while I was on my back. Heavy drinking was usually involved. After he came he would suck me until I came. I think I fucked him only once.
Then AIDs hit the headlines. For 10-13 years I had no M2M contacts until about age 52. During the past few years I've hooked-up with several men over the net for blow-and-gos. I was a feeder. With one guy I did some sucking but I wasn't really into it. He was looking for a relationship. With another guy he tried to fuck me but he was very thick and inexperienced and when he was having a hard time getting it in he lost interest. I think he thought he was hurting me. He was, but I was willing to keep trying.
As I said earlier, I'm not attracted to men. I just like what they can do with their mouths and cocks. I don't kiss or cuddle or enjoy tender moments. And, I'm not looking for a relationship beyond raw sex.
The reason I writing is I have the urge again and I'm trying to get my mind wrapped around the question Why?. I have a normal sex life with my wife. We do swing. While I'v sucked cock with her as part of that life she doens't know about my other life as I've described here.
I'd appreciate your prespectives or insights on this. thanks in advance.
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