Thanks to everyone who commented on "My Theories of Incest Stories". It really made me think about your situations and opinions...Now this may seem selfish or something but i have to say this somewhere..
I know I could never hurt someone the way i was hurt. I know deep down that i could never do that to anyone. Heres a story..
my grandfather sexaully abused me at 11 years old...i didnt tell anyone...was afraid, confused, and i was scared my family would break up..i think i still loved him. i wasnt sure. when he was dying, it was a slow 5 year process, and everytime i went to see him i thought, maybe he will tell me that he is sorry. maybe he will beg for forgiveness. but he didnt. whatever. so he died.
so my sister has been this hell-case since she was a kid. she was in special Ed in school (she never needed that) and she always got into trouble...her teen years came, and she went out looking for negetive attention everywhere. she was 13 when she came home and told me she lost her virginity.
so about 6 months after my grandfather died, me and my sister were talking. come to find out that He raped her over and over again through ages 6-10.
He Raped her. at 6 years old. No wonder she is so messed up. All the bullshit my sister has been through is because of one fucked up man. whos getting what he deserves in hell right now.
so my sister tells me that she needs to get it out of her system..she wanted to tell my mom. and she couldnt tell my mom if i didnt tell my mom about what happened to me. because my mom would not have believed her. i know it. my sister knows it. so we told her. i couldnt imagine the way my mom felt so i wont try and describe it. a week later the whole family knew.
this may be getting complicated but hang in there...
now my Aunt. who is like a sister-mom-best friend to me. She and her daughter mean SO MUCH to me. i spent so much time with them after her daughter was born , who is now 3 yrs old. this little girl is like a sister-daughter to me, and she has been since she was born..i lived with them in the summers and stayed with them almost every weekend when summer was over.it was to the point where my aunt did not trust her stepson (who was 1 yr younger than me) babysitting her and only trusted ME with her. and i was only 13 when the she was born.
so when all of this about my grandpa came out to the family it got crazy. my aunt was crying on the phone to me. and she says that she cant trust anyone around her daughter, that if someone in the family could do something like that , then anyone could. i dont blame her for that. i would be feel the same way about my daughter and i felt the same about the her daughter. but then my aunt is sobbing on the phone and she asked me, "Have you ever done anything to Arianna(her daughter)? Be honest.)
I was broken after that. Shattered. It HURT so much i cant explain it. It hurt me more than my grandfather hurt me. emotionally. it killed me. I mean why would she think that? i know why she would have to take everyone into consideration when it came to her kid. but did she think that because, since it happened to me i have to do it to people too? What did i do wrong? never has one fucked up thought crossed my mind when it came to arianna. NEVER. never has one fucked up thought ever came to my mind when it came to ANYONE.
it has never been the same with my aunt after that. we try to make it work but there are still times when its just akward between us. i babysit once in a while but its not the same. ill never get back what i had with her and arianna. and its all because of him. i wish he was alive so i could kill him. i have such hatred for him for what he did to my family. my sister. she will never be the way she was supposed to be.
me and my sister are completely opposite. i sit in the house and read and do nothing ...well its not so much like that anymore. i go to work, go to school, go to a party once in a while. but she has nothing. living with her boyfriends mom in a shitty apartment, no job, no diploma.and its all because of one fucked up man.
what i want to hear is your story.i know im not the only one. i want to hear your story so that i can confirm that in my heart. i know im not the only one in my head. but i need to see it. so please if this thread was not a waste of time for you, please tell me your story. it doesnt have to involve sexual abuse. anything that happened in your life that is or was supremely fucked up. talk to me.
I know I could never hurt someone the way i was hurt. I know deep down that i could never do that to anyone. Heres a story..
my grandfather sexaully abused me at 11 years old...i didnt tell anyone...was afraid, confused, and i was scared my family would break up..i think i still loved him. i wasnt sure. when he was dying, it was a slow 5 year process, and everytime i went to see him i thought, maybe he will tell me that he is sorry. maybe he will beg for forgiveness. but he didnt. whatever. so he died.
so my sister has been this hell-case since she was a kid. she was in special Ed in school (she never needed that) and she always got into trouble...her teen years came, and she went out looking for negetive attention everywhere. she was 13 when she came home and told me she lost her virginity.
so about 6 months after my grandfather died, me and my sister were talking. come to find out that He raped her over and over again through ages 6-10.
He Raped her. at 6 years old. No wonder she is so messed up. All the bullshit my sister has been through is because of one fucked up man. whos getting what he deserves in hell right now.
so my sister tells me that she needs to get it out of her system..she wanted to tell my mom. and she couldnt tell my mom if i didnt tell my mom about what happened to me. because my mom would not have believed her. i know it. my sister knows it. so we told her. i couldnt imagine the way my mom felt so i wont try and describe it. a week later the whole family knew.
this may be getting complicated but hang in there...
now my Aunt. who is like a sister-mom-best friend to me. She and her daughter mean SO MUCH to me. i spent so much time with them after her daughter was born , who is now 3 yrs old. this little girl is like a sister-daughter to me, and she has been since she was born..i lived with them in the summers and stayed with them almost every weekend when summer was over.it was to the point where my aunt did not trust her stepson (who was 1 yr younger than me) babysitting her and only trusted ME with her. and i was only 13 when the she was born.
so when all of this about my grandpa came out to the family it got crazy. my aunt was crying on the phone to me. and she says that she cant trust anyone around her daughter, that if someone in the family could do something like that , then anyone could. i dont blame her for that. i would be feel the same way about my daughter and i felt the same about the her daughter. but then my aunt is sobbing on the phone and she asked me, "Have you ever done anything to Arianna(her daughter)? Be honest.)
I was broken after that. Shattered. It HURT so much i cant explain it. It hurt me more than my grandfather hurt me. emotionally. it killed me. I mean why would she think that? i know why she would have to take everyone into consideration when it came to her kid. but did she think that because, since it happened to me i have to do it to people too? What did i do wrong? never has one fucked up thought crossed my mind when it came to arianna. NEVER. never has one fucked up thought ever came to my mind when it came to ANYONE.
it has never been the same with my aunt after that. we try to make it work but there are still times when its just akward between us. i babysit once in a while but its not the same. ill never get back what i had with her and arianna. and its all because of him. i wish he was alive so i could kill him. i have such hatred for him for what he did to my family. my sister. she will never be the way she was supposed to be.
me and my sister are completely opposite. i sit in the house and read and do nothing ...well its not so much like that anymore. i go to work, go to school, go to a party once in a while. but she has nothing. living with her boyfriends mom in a shitty apartment, no job, no diploma.and its all because of one fucked up man.
what i want to hear is your story.i know im not the only one. i want to hear your story so that i can confirm that in my heart. i know im not the only one in my head. but i need to see it. so please if this thread was not a waste of time for you, please tell me your story. it doesnt have to involve sexual abuse. anything that happened in your life that is or was supremely fucked up. talk to me.
