angelicecstasy
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Three years ago I broke up with the only person I have ever loved. She was my world, but she was drunk every weekend, and we fought a lot because of it. I dated a good bit the first year we were apart, trying to find a connection like the one we had. The past two years, I have remained single. I realized that I made a huge mistake in letting her go, and she's matured a lot. I tried very hard to win her back, but she was always seeing someone.
About a month ago, she texted me out of the blue. Telling me she moved halfway across the country to be with another woman. I was heartbroken, and I was furious. How dare she contact me just to tell me she moved on again? I got drunk and spilled my guts to her about how much I loved her. What I didn't know is that her girlfriend had the phone. The reply was very nasty and I since tried to move on.
The girlfriend ended up being crazy, and now my love and I are together once more.
But all is not well.
When we dated the first time, we were both virgins. Now she is not. What hurts more than anything is that it was only a few months ago that she.. Slept with a man. And I know exactly where I was at that moment- sitting by the phone, waiting for her to return my texts.
She doesn't feel that I have a right to be upset, and was infuriated when I said that what she had done was my business. My thinking was that as a couple, those details were absolutely my business. I love her regardless, but it bothers me that she doesn't understand why I'm upset. Because I feel like.. I waited for her. And I most certainly wouldn't have if I knew she was sleeping with someone else. In spite of my sensitivity towards the subject, she has brought it up a few times, and brought me to tears because she really went into details I didn't want to know. (If it isn't my business, why is she telling me?)
I don't doubt her love for me, but I worry.. I may not be able to please her like a man could. And I hate that there had been a man in the first place.
I probably come off as crazy, but I just needed to vent.
About a month ago, she texted me out of the blue. Telling me she moved halfway across the country to be with another woman. I was heartbroken, and I was furious. How dare she contact me just to tell me she moved on again? I got drunk and spilled my guts to her about how much I loved her. What I didn't know is that her girlfriend had the phone. The reply was very nasty and I since tried to move on.
The girlfriend ended up being crazy, and now my love and I are together once more.
But all is not well.
When we dated the first time, we were both virgins. Now she is not. What hurts more than anything is that it was only a few months ago that she.. Slept with a man. And I know exactly where I was at that moment- sitting by the phone, waiting for her to return my texts.
She doesn't feel that I have a right to be upset, and was infuriated when I said that what she had done was my business. My thinking was that as a couple, those details were absolutely my business. I love her regardless, but it bothers me that she doesn't understand why I'm upset. Because I feel like.. I waited for her. And I most certainly wouldn't have if I knew she was sleeping with someone else. In spite of my sensitivity towards the subject, she has brought it up a few times, and brought me to tears because she really went into details I didn't want to know. (If it isn't my business, why is she telling me?)
I don't doubt her love for me, but I worry.. I may not be able to please her like a man could. And I hate that there had been a man in the first place.
I probably come off as crazy, but I just needed to vent.
