My posts and/or opinions

[PacificBlue]

Some of you may like them. Some of you may hate them. So be it. I'm done arguing about it. I enjoy reading posts here and I enjoy meeting new people. I think over the past couple of months and possibly longer I've developed a reputation that I don't care for but has been nearly impossible to shake. It 'feels' like sometimes no matter what I post it isn't done in the right way or it isn't worded correctly or it is taken in the most negative way possible. For example...my post "What is wrong with being Jewish?" It wasn't a post asking for a history lesson, I know the history. It wasn't meant to be derogatory, I feel bad that a group of people have been singled out time and again throughout history. Nobody can help who they are born as, what they do with the life they are given is a different story.

I took the responses Saturday night very personally and began another thread "What is wrong with being PacificBlue?" I also explained later on in the thread why I was in a pissy mood ... that point was missed. Such is life.

With all this in mind. I'm going to continue to be myself. I vent here a lot. Sometimes I use the responses I get as a barometer as to whether or not I'm being petty over a certain issue and sometimes just to get it out of my system. I don't spend all my time here...I have a very full social life. There are things I don't like about myself but there are also a whole list of things I do like about myself. I'm not perfect, I doubt I will ever be in this lifetime. I just keep getting up and I keep trying. Could I try to take things a bit less personally? Yes, that is a work in progress.

That's all

 

[Guest]

Hon, let me ask you something?
Why do you put so much stock in the opinions of others? Are these people you truly care about?

I am guilty of seeking approval and validation. But, when it hurts so much that I begin to question myself, I know it is time for a change.

I only ask because I hurt for you.

 

[Tantanah]

I don't know you well, but you're ok. We're all a work in progress.

 

[seXieleXie]

blue, people respond harshly to almost everyone here. you're not the only one.

 

[unclej]

hey, it's like my old grandpappy used to say, "don't let the bastards get you down". i think it was grandpappy....hmnnn, could have been grandma now that i think about it. anyway, you've been here long enough to have earned the right to be yourself so don't let the bastards get you down.

 

[PacificBlue]

Hon, let me ask you something?
Why do you put so much stock in the opinions of others? Are these people you truly care about?

Good question. I don't have the answer.

 

[PacificBlue]

Thank you Unclej, seXieleXie, and Tantanah.

 

[Lancecastor]

I always have liked you....

...but that was mostly for your AV, I think.

Your reputation is fine with me....but that might just bring you down.

Hey....have you seen raindancer's av? Nice work. Over on the bdsm board it's all fantasy avs...I like the avs here.

Happy thoughts;
Lance

Some of you may like them. Some of you may hate them. So be it. I'm done arguing about it. I enjoy reading posts here and I enjoy meeting new people. I think over the past couple of months and possibly longer I've developed a reputation that I don't care for but has been nearly impossible to shake. It 'feels' like sometimes no matter what I post it isn't done in the right way or it isn't worded correctly or it is taken in the most negative way possible. For example...my post "What is wrong with being Jewish?" It wasn't a post asking for a history lesson, I know the history. It wasn't meant to be deragatory, I feel badly that a group of people have been singled out time and again throughout history. Nobody can help who they are born as, what they do with the life they are given is a different story.

I took the responses Saturday night very personally and began another thread "What is wrong with being PacificBlue?" I also explained later on in the thread why I was in a pissy mood ... that point was missed. Such is life.

With all this in mind. I'm going to continue to be myself. I vent here ALOT. Sometimes I use the responses I get as a baramoter as to whether or not I'm being pety over a certain issue and sometimes just to get it out of my system. I don't spend all my time here...I have a very full social life. There are things I don't like about myself but there are also a whole list of things I do like about myself. I'm not perfect, I doubt I will ever be in this lifetime. I just keep getting up and I keep trying. Could I try to take things a bit less personally? Yes. That is a work in progress.

That's all.

 

[PacificBlue]

Re: I always have liked you....

...but that was mostly for your AV, I think.

Your reputation is fine with me....but that might just bring you down.

Hey....have you seen raindancer's av? Nice work. Over on the bdsm board it's all fantasy avs...I like the avs here.

Happy thoughts;
Lance

It's all about the AV.

 

[Lancecastor]

Re: Re: I always have liked you....

It's all about the AV.

I can still see yours; I think it's etched on my retinas.

I'm pretty sure it was the first one I saw here as Lance.

Thanks for that.

*sigh*
Lance

 

[70/30]

What are you retarded? You spelled barometer...b-a-r-a-m-o-t-e-r

That's why everyone hates your stupid, whining thread posting ass.

 

[MechaBlade]

Hon, let me ask you something?
Why do you put so much stock in the opinions of others? Are these people you truly care about?

I understand the idea of ignoring a few, but when lots of people come down on you, it does hurt. And if you're going to ignore everyone at Lit, you might as well be talking to yourself. I know half of the time I already feel like I'm talking to myself here.

Dunno if it matters, but I am not aware of your reputation. I don't know jack about you.

 

[phrodeau]

And there are always posters who willfully miss the point and just spew reasonless shit.

 

[70/30]

And there are always posters who willfully miss the point and just spew reasonless shit.

Do I know you? Stop using me as a promotional tool. BTW, I have reasons behind the reasons of the reasons you thought I didn't even have.

 

[phrodeau]

Do I know you? Stop using me as a promotional tool. BTW, I have reasons behind the reasons of the reasons you thought I didn't even have.

That's why everyone hates your stupid, whining thread posting ass.

 

[Pyper]

What are you retarded? You spelled barometer...b-a-r-a-m-o-t-e-r

That's why everyone hates your stupid, whining thread posting ass.

Seventy, Seventy. You gotta be consistent. I thought you had a system here. Mean for a long time, then nice for a long time. Now, I'm not saying I was overly fond of your Jesus-loving personality, but don't you think you abandoned it pretty fast and went back to mean?

 

[70/30]

I can't believe I'm stooping to answer your anonymous ass but I make other people whine and I want everyone to hate me. You simplistic people have me so close to becoming evangelical again, I can be anything because I'm everything.

 

[Pyper]

Hehe, anonymous ass.

 

[70/30]

Seventy, Seventy. You gotta be consistent. I thought you had a system here. Mean for a long time, then nice for a long time. Now, I'm not saying I was overly fond of your Jesus-loving personality, but don't you think you abandoned it pretty fast and went back to mean?

I decided to let Scotty have all the fake online girls, they have too many opinions and they have stupid ideas like they are important or something because they have a lotta other fat friends around here.

 

[Bluesboy2]

Personally I have no problem with you but

I do see you sorta set yourself up for a lotta grief. Like asking on the General Board how to put a particular person on ignore. A PM to a friend could have acomplished that. Asking people if they have problems with you is just putting a big target on your back.
My way of dealing with people I am not overly fond of hear is to simply not read there posts and to not mention them in mine. I dont want the aggrevation of defending my opinion. The manner in which you deal with some of the things I have seen you deal with makes me wonder if on some level you seek out negative attention. This isnt an attack, merely an observation.

 

[Guest]

I understand the idea of ignoring a few, but when lots of people come down on you, it does hurt. And if you're going to ignore everyone at Lit, you might as well be talking to yourself. I know half of the time I already feel like I'm talking to myself here.

Whoa. Wait. I wasn't judging PB. I was asking her a question, in hopes she could find solace in her answer. I never suggested she ignore anyone. I hurt for her and only wanted to help.
I'm not quite sure as to how to take the following quote.

Dunno if it matters, but I am not aware of your reputation. I don't know jack about you.

Reputation? I'm sorry but I'm quite confused.

 

[sch00lteacher]

I want to say something in support of PacificBlue but I am at a loss for words, the right words anyhow.

I have always enjoyed your posts. You are one of the rare people here who actually put their brian into drive before pulling out and posting.

There are a lot of new users these days. I think some of them are the same 13 year old BOY sitting alone in his bed room playing with himself while he posts attacks, and stupid shit.

I quit trying to please everyone here. There are a few people I care about. That is why I keep coming back.

Hang on hard PacificBlue. You have friends here.

 

[Rambrat]

PB...you're an open and honest person and you are just expressing yourself the best way you know how. You are revealing your feelings and opening yourself up, allowing people to get a better understanding of you.

Unfortunately, there are some people who walk around a carnival with a pin, pricking every balloon in sight. The clowns aren't the only ones you have to watch out for...

 

[bknight2602]

PB I agree with Rambrat you are just expressing your feelings. No one should put you down for that, although on these boards, you leave yourself wide open for pot shots, as we all do. Keep true to yourself and post the feelings that you really have, for that is all a person can give.