My Mistress died i am lost

[curioussub13]

i am writing this in a very sad mood. i have had an online relationship with a woman for over 8 years. we met when i was single and between wives. She taught me about giving up control to Her. We have met a couple of times in real life it was great. any way i am lost. i love my wife and family but i miss the real like i had with my Mistress in that relationship my fetishes and Hers took forefront. As in real life where they take a back seat to fortune and fame. anyway i am sorry to have bored You all but where else can i miss my Mistress publicly. We did not talk every day sometimes it was a week but i knew She was there. i mis Her. Thanks for letting me air me regrets. Thanks
charles

 

[Darkknight2010]

i am writing this in a very sad mood. i have had an online relationship with a woman for over 8 years. we met when i was single and between wives. She taught me about giving up control to Her. We have met a couple of times in real life it was great. any way i am lost. i love my wife and family but i miss the real like i had with my Mistress in that relationship my fetishes and Hers took forefront. As in real life where they take a back seat to fortune and fame. anyway i am sorry to have bored You all but where else can i miss my Mistress publicly. We did not talk every day sometimes it was a week but i knew She was there. i mis Her. Thanks for letting me air me regrets. Thanks
charles

 

[MercyMia]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. It must be especially difficult since you can't share your grief in real life.

 

[curioussub13]

Thanks

It took a long time before my Mistress and i got real first it was getting off but then i felt she loved and cared for me. This happened because we dwelled in my secrect life and i had nothing i could not tell her i will miss that as well. but i believe She loved owning me She got off on it. i am sad today and for a while i guess. thanks

 

[curioussub13]

Not just for sex

my Mistress was not all about sex in fact She said i masterbated too much and was helping me in funneling more of my sexual energy into my wife and business. She was working with me on rejuvinating my business. at 47 i was being forced to grow up and not be a little beatoff boy. again it was not all about sex but life change through submission and humiliation. Thanks

 

[curioussub13]

Thanks for the pms

Thanks for the kind words. i am starting to deal with life with no Mistress. it is lonely. This was a secrect affair so i can't publicly mourn. So i have to do it inside. i MISS HER.
Some people suggested getting a new Mistres. Like it is that easy.
Thanks again

 

[StrongMaster7]

I feel for you, man. I know what it is like to have and lose a special online relationship.

 

[curioussub13]

tough weekend

This weekend was tough. i miss Her!. i am used to doing task no more.
Thanks for all your words of incouragement

 

[timreh]

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[curioussub13]

Thanks

i am very thankful for this board. i am starting to really miss Her attention. i guess i will cope as time goes on i am just sad. i wonder if i'll ever find a long term Mistress again i don't think so. Thanks again Love chuck

 

[curioussub13]

must move on

i have to get back into reality. i thnk the hardest part is all the mental pictures and fantasies. i used to use her memories for masterbation fantasies. now i have to reprogram my mental state. How boring. oh well this is my life right now. have a great weekend all.

 

[coy_one]

i have to get back into reality. i thnk the hardest part is all the mental pictures and fantasies. i used to use her memories for masterbation fantasies. now i have to reprogram my mental state. How boring. oh well this is my life right now. have a great weekend all.

Don't force it. When you are ready to move forward, you will. You do not want to force yourself when you're not ready. The only thing that will happen is that your mind will actually cause it to be a harder transition through the stages of grief.
Use those memories and think of her. It's all how your brain processes. Even if you have to masturbate many times a day, thinking of her, it's how the brain processes. Just don't force it. If you can somehow take a day off here or there... I'd do that. Give yourself some private time and space to grieve for her. Even if you can only spare a few minutes every day of thinking of her and grieving for her (training your mind to only deal with it during a set amount of time) it's far better than trying to suppress the grief.

 

[curioussub13]

Thanks

Thanks coy one You are wise in what You say i will listen to You thanks again

 

[curioussub13]

Done

This is my last post here i am done feeling sorry for myself. my mistress would not want me to sit around and get lazy. i am going to keep going and start to rebuild my business. i am going to have to work hard and it is time to move forward. i will never forget my Mistress but i must truckin. Thanks for all your support and i will be starting a new thread named gettin er done Thanks

 

[coy_one]

I wish you the strength you need.

 

[bareman]

Only someone who has lost a spouse or s/o will understand the depth of the grief and sense of emptiness you are feeling now. Don't try to suppress it...just understand that it is a process and a stage you will have to go through. Hopefully, you will emerge stronger and wiser. Even now, 8 years after I lost my wife, she still is in me...sometimes haunting, sometimes reminding, but still there.