Homerun2611
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"How the hell did this happen? Me here, alone, looking at her..." It was a question, or at least a variation on a question I'd asked myself a million times over the last year, yet here it was. Kelly's murder, had been front page and opening line news gossip for almost two weeks. "Wealthy socialite, wife of promising corporate attorney, four months pregnant with her first, shot in brutal car jacking, details at 11!" I had been at my office, she was coming to get me in the car I had purchased for her 30th birthday. She was four years younger than I, she had wanted to have our first child before she was 30, and we had just missed. Kelly, despite her beauty, had trouble conceiving, and while we had discussed, many, her OBGYN had made it clear. This would be our one and only, it was a little girl, going to be my little princess, but that dream, my life all came crashing down, only two blocks from my office in downtown Chicago.
The worst part, well one of the worst parts, she had just called me, I was looking down from my 34th floor corner office as it happened. She didn't see him, it was a 13 year old Latin King, the toughest, baddest gang in Chicago. it was his initiation challenge, steal a Porsche, he chose mine, my wife, my life, all killed as I watched, screamed, and slammed my fist against the ceiling to floor window!
I hadn't set foot back in that office since, mourning had turned into an extended leave, I tried to go back, I couldn't, not yet, maybe not ever? I was lucky, I had made good money, my last case had been a huge class action settlement, my bonus had been $12 million on that deal alone. We had a $5 million firm paid for life insurance policy on Kelly, the cop who investigated the murder had the fucking guts to ask if I had arranged the murder of my wife? I punched the asshole in the mouth, I guess I was lucky no charges were filed. It is nice to have connections, the governor had once entertained my wife and I at his mansion. I had been the guy with everything, perfect life, perfect wife, until, I had nothing, which brought me right back here.
I still played golf, my escape, the only place I still felt like me. It was only this morning that Bradley Palm, my best friend, had scolded me while we sat in the steamer after our round. "Ricky .." Oh, I'm sorry, how rude of me, I am Richard (Ricky) Harris, the widower and currently non practicing attorney at Baker McKenzie. "... you're only 35, Jesus we all loved Kelly, we did, Carolyn and her were like sisters, just like we're like brothers, but she's gone, and you can't die too, I won't let you!" This was a baby step, Adelpho's was a new, upscale Italian Restaurant with a nice smallish bar. I knew married guys who came here, looking for a little extra fun, and part of me just wanted something mindless. I didn't want to fall in love, or even like, but it had been a year since I'd been laid, or even touched! This was a place where Sugar Babies tended to populate, and men, usually older men than I, tended to search for answers to their sugar craving.
It was either this or an escort, and that somehow felt more tacky. I didn't want to wine and dine, not yet, that would feel like I was betraying her memory. But a single night, a hot piece of ass that all I had to do was reward for her efforts, maybe get her number if I wanted a repeat, that sounded great. Was this my second or third scotch? Three fingers, a double, a single cube of ice. 19 year old Jonny Walker blue, it went down nice and smooth. Liquid courage with just the right amount of anaesthetic, just enough to dull the memory of that ever present pain and loss.
I had watched long enough, downing the drink I stood, shoulders back, suit perfectly tailored to my broad muscular physique. I had never struggled with attracting woman, it was just I hadn't tried in ten years, but it is like riding a bike, right?
The problem was, I wasn't this man, I didn't pick up woman to fuck and dispose, I was a romantic, my first night with Kelly we danced in the rain, walked home hand in hand, and invited inside, I had refused, instead showing up at her brownstone the next day with flowers and a bagel. Then we fucked, and God how we fucked! Six months later we were engaged. But this girl, in a younger, whorish kind of way, reminded me of my wife, or enough of my wife, that, maybe I could do this? Saddling up beside her, I didn't want to be charming or romantic, that would hurt and so, I gave her a killer smile, motioned to the bartender, "Let me buy this young lady a drink, it's the least I can do before I take her home?" It was meant to be funny, it wasn't, I was playing a character and playing it badly. You could have heard the slap of her hand on my face from 20 feet away.
I felt the frim hand on my shoulder, "Why don't you go home son, I think you've had enough, the lady is with me!" I turned and looked into a silver beard that would have made the Dos Equis guy envious, and eyes that were at least 55 ... and felt humiliated. Yes, she was a sugar baby, but not for me, I would stay hungry. Paying the bill I got out of the bar as soon as possible, cursing Bradley, but hating myself. The only good thing was I had humiliated myself in private, no one had seen, or... had they?
The worst part, well one of the worst parts, she had just called me, I was looking down from my 34th floor corner office as it happened. She didn't see him, it was a 13 year old Latin King, the toughest, baddest gang in Chicago. it was his initiation challenge, steal a Porsche, he chose mine, my wife, my life, all killed as I watched, screamed, and slammed my fist against the ceiling to floor window!
I hadn't set foot back in that office since, mourning had turned into an extended leave, I tried to go back, I couldn't, not yet, maybe not ever? I was lucky, I had made good money, my last case had been a huge class action settlement, my bonus had been $12 million on that deal alone. We had a $5 million firm paid for life insurance policy on Kelly, the cop who investigated the murder had the fucking guts to ask if I had arranged the murder of my wife? I punched the asshole in the mouth, I guess I was lucky no charges were filed. It is nice to have connections, the governor had once entertained my wife and I at his mansion. I had been the guy with everything, perfect life, perfect wife, until, I had nothing, which brought me right back here.
I still played golf, my escape, the only place I still felt like me. It was only this morning that Bradley Palm, my best friend, had scolded me while we sat in the steamer after our round. "Ricky .." Oh, I'm sorry, how rude of me, I am Richard (Ricky) Harris, the widower and currently non practicing attorney at Baker McKenzie. "... you're only 35, Jesus we all loved Kelly, we did, Carolyn and her were like sisters, just like we're like brothers, but she's gone, and you can't die too, I won't let you!" This was a baby step, Adelpho's was a new, upscale Italian Restaurant with a nice smallish bar. I knew married guys who came here, looking for a little extra fun, and part of me just wanted something mindless. I didn't want to fall in love, or even like, but it had been a year since I'd been laid, or even touched! This was a place where Sugar Babies tended to populate, and men, usually older men than I, tended to search for answers to their sugar craving.
It was either this or an escort, and that somehow felt more tacky. I didn't want to wine and dine, not yet, that would feel like I was betraying her memory. But a single night, a hot piece of ass that all I had to do was reward for her efforts, maybe get her number if I wanted a repeat, that sounded great. Was this my second or third scotch? Three fingers, a double, a single cube of ice. 19 year old Jonny Walker blue, it went down nice and smooth. Liquid courage with just the right amount of anaesthetic, just enough to dull the memory of that ever present pain and loss.
I had watched long enough, downing the drink I stood, shoulders back, suit perfectly tailored to my broad muscular physique. I had never struggled with attracting woman, it was just I hadn't tried in ten years, but it is like riding a bike, right?
The problem was, I wasn't this man, I didn't pick up woman to fuck and dispose, I was a romantic, my first night with Kelly we danced in the rain, walked home hand in hand, and invited inside, I had refused, instead showing up at her brownstone the next day with flowers and a bagel. Then we fucked, and God how we fucked! Six months later we were engaged. But this girl, in a younger, whorish kind of way, reminded me of my wife, or enough of my wife, that, maybe I could do this? Saddling up beside her, I didn't want to be charming or romantic, that would hurt and so, I gave her a killer smile, motioned to the bartender, "Let me buy this young lady a drink, it's the least I can do before I take her home?" It was meant to be funny, it wasn't, I was playing a character and playing it badly. You could have heard the slap of her hand on my face from 20 feet away.
I felt the frim hand on my shoulder, "Why don't you go home son, I think you've had enough, the lady is with me!" I turned and looked into a silver beard that would have made the Dos Equis guy envious, and eyes that were at least 55 ... and felt humiliated. Yes, she was a sugar baby, but not for me, I would stay hungry. Paying the bill I got out of the bar as soon as possible, cursing Bradley, but hating myself. The only good thing was I had humiliated myself in private, no one had seen, or... had they?