My cyberluv broke up with me

[luv2tvl69]

I hope you dont mind me sharing this with all of you. But, since I always talk about WC and how much I love him and was looking forward to meeting him I figure I should let you know its not gonna happen--He needed his space and broke off contact with me. And I think my insecurties just got to be too much work and a burden--I understand completely. Also I think if I get it out it will help my healing.

I have had a very difficult week, but with the kindness of some very special people here and the companionship/affection of 1 new special friend--Dryfus3368-- I am feeling a bit more back to normal. It took a couple days of throwing up and about 4days of constant crying. But now I am to the point of just wishing we couldve lasted longer, having fond memories of our time, but resolved to our fate.

I dont have any bad feelings about WC--I still love him and always will. He will always have a huge piece of my heart. I wish him all the best of everything: all his desires fullfilled, his life filled with happiness, success, and love. I am just regretful it couldnt be me to give and share all that with him. It just wasnt meant to be. I will never forget him and always be beholden to him for giving me some of the happiest times of my life.

I always knew in my head we couldnt be more than cyber/phone and hopefully a visit now and then....but in my heart I wished and longed for more. People ask if love exists online...YES. I love, desire, and respect him always. Its just 1 of those things that just didnt turn out how I wouldve liked. I dont think I will be able to love anyone for a long time as the pain just hurts too much when it doesnt work out. (and for me love never works out). The last time, it took 8yrs to be able to completely open my heart and let someone in--and it took me by surprise. He is a wonderful, kind, caring and sensual man. The extent of his patience with my insecurities was much more than I had a right to ask for. He just has alot on his plate right now, and unfortunately our time was causing him stress as it was taking away from his time to do other things that needed to be done with his work and home and daughter. I miss him and always will, and wish we couldve met like we planned. But it just couldnt be that way.

I feel better getting this out, and it helps me be able to go back to my flirty self, able to post without crying...and having fun. I hope no one minds my posting this, but I have always felt accepted as I am here at LIT and it helps to be able to talk it out. For a few days I was feeling less than adequate. But now I feel more secure (as much as I can) and and ready to dive back into the boards. Thank you for allowing me to vent. I appreciate it.

 

[beauchampd]

Any time what are friends for but to help by listening. i hope all comes up rosy in your life. And I for one will always have an ear for your problems.

 

[Mr. Bootie]

I'm sorry to hear this

Let me know if I can be of help. I know in time, you will love again. You have those rare qualities that we men are looking for. Take your time Hon'. Welcome back to the boards.


Hugs and Kisses,


kgboot

 

[Summery]

luv2tvl69...It does get better, I promise

I went through a very similar experience a year ago. Online love is very real.

I am just a stranger, but if you ever need to talk to someone, I'm a good listener and truly understand the feelings you go through.

 

[Aphrodisiac]

luv2

Sorry to hear about your breakup.
I hope all goes well and you feel better.... take your time.


Lots of luck

 

[GuyJD]

SORRY TO HEAR THAT LUV2.

I hope all goes well for you in the future.

I've been there recently. I met a young lady online a little over a year ago. We did quite a few cyber and phone sex and I enjoyed hearing her get off. But she's recently met the uncle of a friend and they've been "hitting it off" pretty good. But the hardest blow was when she told me that I'm like a "very good friend to her."
I don't recall "very good friends" doing phone sex on the phone, do you?

 

[juicylips]

Lots of Huggs

I know some people don't think it can hurt as much as what they consider a "real life" relationship, but your heart never knows the difference and yes, it does sneak up on you and takes you by surprise.

You will need time to heal and recover. You have friends on here to help you through.

Cassidy

 

[MissTaken]

So sorry to hear that, Luv2!

I wish the best for you and admire your resolve. Take care of yourself and hugs.

 

[sarahuk4]

Sorry to hear what you are going through , if you want to pm me please do , I know how you feel ......

 

[estevie]

I'm sorry you are hurting, luv2. If there is anything I can do, please don't hesitate to ask!

 

[Cheyenne]

Been there, done that. Almost exactly a year ago, now that I think about it. It wasn't exactly the same circumstances, but close enough.

Luckily, I am still good friends with the guy- still email each other and keep up to date on each other's life. I won't say it wasn't difficult moving from one role to another though. But it was worth it since we really were friends and didn't want to lose that part of the relationship, too.

Now, where's DCL with his speech about online relationships not being real?

 

[sexy-girl]

i am sorry long distance relationships are always hard ... its probably harder i would imagine when you've never met the person either

wish you luck your a good person and im sure you'll meet someone soon hopefully will be a short distance relationship next time

 

[MrBates]

luv2.....I'm really sorry to hear about your breakup. I know how you felt about WC, and how much you cared for him. I hope you are able to have your wounds all healed eventually. It will take time, but don't rush it.

All the best, and you know my shoulder is there if you want it.
*hugs*
MrB

 

[celiaKitten]

Love hurts sometimes doesn't it? Online/RL who cares? It all affects your heart.

And I'll add my shoulders to the pile - one of us should always be here eh?

*big hugs*

 

[Guest]

Sorry, sweets.
*HUGS*

 

[Xander]

Yeah love can seriously suck ass....but when the tough gets going, good friends make the whole difference.

Good Luck

 

[PacificBlue]

This is a bummer. I'm sorry.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

 

[Fly_On_Wall]

Sorry to hear that luv2, I hope things get better for you.

I"m sure there are many people here that can lend a shoulder if needed.

 

[StondTmplPilot]

its probably harder i would imagine when you've never met the person either

no, i think it is much more difficult having met the person, and knowing that you will not get to be with her again for a very long time, if ever again...it's a very difficult relationship to have and the both of you have to be willing to work very hard to make it work...i know this because i am going through this right now. I met a lady that i had been talking to online this summer on my vacation to las vegas. we met out there and talked and had a nice time, i never even touched her, just talked with her. we have been together every day since on-line and we both yearn to be together again in real time. sometimes it just kills me that i can not be with her now, and i find myself thinking of the time that we did spend together all the time, wishing i had held her in my arms, kissed her, hoping that i get another chance to see her again...

 

[luv2tvl69]

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

Everyone here is sooo kind and nice and I appreciate all the shoulders I may need them(KGBOOT--you know how I feel about you--after WC, you were my first online friend...and first LIT friend--my FOREVER friend). .

I actually am doing ok. The first few days were def the darkest and hardest, physically and emotionally. I couldnt even talk about it too much. But as my head cleared and the pain subsided a bit, I was able to accept what could be and what couldnt. I wrote him a letter telling him how positively he effected my life, how much he meant and always will mean to me. It was helpful to get my feelings out after holding everything in for those few days. I am thankful and appreciative for the time we had, and the love I had/will always have for him. He was an important part of my life--a new road to lead me to the person I am now. A little different than I was 3 months ago...I think better-- IMHO

I love this site because of all the nice, kind and compassionate people that allow people to explore and express their desires and just be themselves. It is a wonderful forum to break away from the trials and tribulations of everyday life, to ask honest advice and opinions, to feel at ease with oneself. I thank you all for letting me come to you when I needed comfort and support, for letting me explore and experiment with all my new sexual desires, for being so entertaining and fun, for giving me a place to be comfortable when the world can sometimes be so harsh. A place to turn when I sometimes feel alone. I appreciate everyone here-- it is a very homey and warm place to go--sometimes the sex talk gets downright HOT (no complaints). Everyone here is really helping me feel better about myself and comfortable with who I am. It will mean a great deal to me for all of my life. THANK YOU ALL.

 

[Dryfus3368]

Luv2trvl69,


Thank you dear, <BLUSH>, But I was there for a reason. We met when we did so I could help. Thanks to you also, for introducing me to everyone on LIT. I love this site, and will never leave if I don't have too. I understand your pain, and will be there so you can have a shoulder anytime you want one. *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* *BIG HUGS* Well, I'll take up less here than in my emails/IMs. Hope things are all better now.



Dryfus