Married bi-curious male (cliche I know) in Toronto looking for support

[Call_me_Penn]

Hi there! My bi-curiosity (sucking a cock for first time) has been increasing in mid-life (almost 50) and it’s driving me nuts (no pun intended): want to, don’t want to, desire, guilt, fear, shame, repeat. If you’re someone like me, and have some advice/thoughts, I’d really appreciate that. Want to be upfront: no promises of a meet-/hook-up, would like to feel not so alone at this point, hearing from others. As my one and only Literotica (true) story explains, I love my wife and love women…but a feeling has been growing.

Thanks!
_Penn.

 

[APinkFish]

Hey Penn, I'm in a similar situation to you, although I do have a bit of experience. Send me a dm, I'd love to chat!

 

[Call_me_Penn]

Thank you! I sent you a DM.

 

[Jerrybi]

PM sent

 

[Drivingto]

Hi there! My bi-curiosity (sucking a cock for first time) has been increasing in mid-life (almost 50) and it’s driving me nuts (no pun intended): want to, don’t want to, desire, guilt, fear, shame, repeat. If you’re someone like me, and have some advice/thoughts, I’d really appreciate that. Want to be upfront: no promises of a meet-/hook-up, would like to feel not so alone at this point, hearing from others. As my one and only Literotica (true) story explains, I love my wife and love women…but a feeling has been growing.

Thanks!
_Penn.

Hey you know what, I want to start by saying I respect what you are going through. I am 19 and I live in Edmonton. So maybe that might disqualify my advice, but I askbthat you please read this. I have gone through my own struggle with sexuality. I know that I have intimate romantic interest in woman, but I have never really viewed them as attractive in a wanna sleep with them way. And I have always fantasized about a rally strong man punning me down and being passionate. I think that you should maybe give it time, and I would say maybe be open to your wife of yu feel safe. And maybe journal the feelings that way you can track the trend, I would say maybe you are more sexually interested rather than romantic. Only you can say for sure, so if this doesn't feel like it fits, then disregard what I said. This is respectful this decision to reach out though and I support you

 

[Call_me_Penn]

Thanks so much for your thoughtful reply, I really appreciate your kindness and generosity! I hope you are finding your way through your feelings, too. My cravings are purely sexual and confined to the cock; no interest in kissing or anything romantic. I have shared my curiosity with my wife and she doesn’t understand it: “I know you’re not gay so why are you….?” Other guys get it and it’s good to have this forum to share similar feelings with others. It really helps! Thank you, again! I wish you all my best!

 

[Smileyouronnow]

Hi there! My bi-curiosity (sucking a cock for first time) has been increasing in mid-life (almost 50) and it’s driving me nuts (no pun intended): want to, don’t want to, desire, guilt, fear, shame, repeat. If you’re someone like me, and have some advice/thoughts, I’d really appreciate that. Want to be upfront: no promises of a meet-/hook-up, would like to feel not so alone at this point, hearing from others. As my one and only Literotica (true) story explains, I love my wife and love women…but a feeling has been growing.

Thanks!
_Penn.

Hello there call me penn, Mike here.
I am a married guy of 23 years to the same woman.
I have also had the same questions and desires as you.
 In my younger days, I experimented lightly with another married male friend.
And even though that was 30 years ago or more, I still find myself having the same feelings you're having.
My friend, even if you follow through and find an equal buddy for occasional play, you will still have similar feelings.

I love my wife and I love the female figure as well. But the idea of a hard tool In front of me gets my curiosity up every time I think about it.

The idea of having it on my lips or in my mouth get me really excited. Which why I periodically watch bi male porn.

I hope this helps!! You're definitely not the only one going through that by no means.

 

[Call_me_Penn]

Thanks you!

 

[Jeph77]

Hi there! My bi-curiosity (sucking a cock for first time) has been increasing in mid-life (almost 50) and it’s driving me nuts (no pun intended): want to, don’t want to, desire, guilt, fear, shame, repeat. If you’re someone like me, and have some advice/thoughts, I’d really appreciate that. Want to be upfront: no promises of a meet-/hook-up, would like to feel not so alone at this point, hearing from others. As my one and only Literotica (true) story explains, I love my wife and love women…but a feeling has been growing.

Thanks!
_Penn.

Comes a time, when an older middle-age guy thinks upon nursing on a nice, fat prick. You'll know what to do.

 

[Smileyouronnow]

Thanks so much for your thoughtful reply, I really appreciate your kindness and generosity! I hope you are finding your way through your feelings, too. My cravings are purely sexual and confined to the cock; no interest in kissing or anything romantic. I have shared my curiosity with my wife and she doesn’t understand it: “I know you’re not gay so why are you….?” Other guys get it and it’s good to have this forum to share similar feelings with others. It really helps! Thank you, again! I wish you all my best!

Hi Penn, Mike here again. So, are you still having thoughts about going down on a hard tool? I can't blame you. Society completely erotisizes the male phallus in every form we can think of. Even in history on pyramid walls were etched with symbols of the male phallus. Everywhere we turn there are some kind of emphases of the phallic symbols.

The Roman men used to teach the young men how to perform oral on the older males!

Might i suggest going to a sex video shop and buying a life like dildo/dong so you can see if this quenches your thirst? I could help you decide if you want to go farther and trying the real thing. In fact, maybe you could buy strap-on for you and your wife to experiment with. Now that you already mentioned to her about your oral curiosity, she can not only help but also take part in the experimental play.

She could put it on and pretend that she wants you to suck on her tool. Maybe she could be a little help by putting her hand on the back of your head as you try to swallow her. Who knows, she may like the control over you and you might like it too!

I wish i had thought about this when i told my ex-wife of the same desires i had. She would have liked taking control over me this way!

Good luck and let me know how things work out.

Mike