Love or Luv?

I have a habit of this...exclusion of the rest of the universe, that is.

I tended through most of my history to bond with one person and then kinda revolve around them.

To the point of developing shorthand, that sort of "psychic" glance where you get what the other person's saying.

I remember one friend making that accusation in front of my current...bond.

He was a gay guy and we were absolutely inseparable and one of the girls that hung out with us said "I can't STAND you guys! You're like this...molecule that's stuck together and there's absolutely no way I can be any part of it. I get jealous and I get helpless and I can't do anything about it!"

He and I just looked at each other and smiled in that "Cooooooool." way.

She said "OH!" and left the room.

Miss R, I think we have safely established that you are not "normal". I mean that in the most complimentary way possible, BTW.

As much as that -was- just a joke (and I took no offense to it at all!) it can sometimes really feel that way. I'm just not exciting or controversial enough for everyone's attention ;)

Anyway...In person, I'm very friendly and warm, and very polite, and in Cali I had no trouble at all making friends. The thing is, I seem to have trouble making friends with girls my own age in this town since I have -very- little in common with them. I get on more with nerds and gamer geeks, and there are NONE here in this town. I'm not a cowgirl, I love horses but don't own any, and I don't wear western clothes, rodeo, or listen to country music. Nor am I a drinker...and in a town as small as this, going to a bar is pretty much the only nightlife there is.

So, to answer your question in a long-winded way...I don't -have- any friends. I'm a city girl, not a country girl. And although I've tried, 95% of the women my age simply aren't nerds like me. I'm actually okay with that, though. As long as I have my parents, my husband, and my cats, I'm cool. ^_^ Mister is just a fucking AWESOME guy, and we get on like a house on fire. He's really a great friend and a great husband, so he satisfies almost all of my social needs.

But when we lived in Cali, and we hung out with a large circle of friends, no, I didn't ignore everyone and only pay attention to him, that would just be rude!! I went out shopping and hanging out with several girls in particular who were my pals, it's just a really different vibe here in smalltown Oklahoma.

From Cali to Oklahoma? Girl...WTF???
 
From Cali to Oklahoma? Girl...WTF???

Long story short: Parents were older when they got married. I was an oops baby. Grew up here in OK. Moved to Cali when I was 18. Lived there for four years, basically found out that I fit right in. Parents getting older now, mobility and health problems. Had to move back 'cause I refuse to put them in a nursing home. Bought a house and moved my parents in so I can take care of them. So, now I'm living back in OK.
 
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