Love and lost (starring Becca57 and KyCowboy605)

[KyCowboy605]

Casey used to have it all. He had amazing job that gave him a comfortable life with his fiancee Mary. He had nice cars and a nice house with decent size property way out in thr country. Until one night nearly a year ago when a late night car accident took the life of his beautiful fiancee Mary life. It's been nearly a year now and through it all Casey has struggled greatly. Slowly he has lost everything, first he lost his job, savings and his cars which ultimately lead to him losing his home.

Just recently in the last month had things begun to look up with the bit if money he had left from selling his cars, Casey move to the city and found a roommate to live with. Becca was a beautiful young and kind woman that had also been struggling a bit when she placed the roommate ad. It didn't take long for Casey to move in, after all he had was his looks and a suitcase full of clothes.

It's has been a month since I moved in with Becca, I had just woken up and was laying bed. I was still getting use to having a roommate and I had even forgotten she was home. I pull out a picture of my late fiancee and begin to cry loudly, the sobbing echoing through the apartment. Once I hear the sound of someone moving around I quickly remember and just bury my face and cover my head.

 

[Becaa57]

I'm still surprised to have a male roommate. I'd tried to avoid those in the past, because of complications that can arise. But after having gone through two female ones, who bailed and left me holding the bag for the rent. When Casey answered I decided to take the a chance, he was ok looking but had the saddest eye's I've ever seen in a person. He is usually quiet, both of us trying to rebuild our lives, and it was nice to have someone who could open jars. As time went on it worked out that we would usually have our dinner together, and shares some of our history. He lost everything starting with the death of a fiancée. I lost everything thanks to a cheating boyfriend who left me in this apartment with an overdrawn bank account. With a lot of scraping and some borrowing I'd managed to keep the roof over my head, although met eating Top Ramen and spam more often then I care to think about. I am up and moving around when I hear sobs and crying from his room. Hesitating on what I should do. I end up knocking softly. "Casey, are you ok? Do you want to talk?"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I sniffle a bit and slowly crawl from the bed, once out I put on my sweat pants. I walk to the door and as it opens you see that I have been crying and her picture is laying on the bed. "OH sorry Becca I thought you might have been gone. It's another hard day, I woke up after dreaming about Mary again. It felt so real like she was hear."

 

[Becaa57]

"I thought so Casey, and I won't pretend I know what you are going through, but if you need a hug or just a shoulder to cry on, I'm here for you." Holding my arms out, but aware you may say no. "Just remember you're not alone anymore"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I nod and walk into you, letting you hug me. I wrap my arms around your waist and move in close. I give a soft sigh of relief as it has been awhile since I have hugged anyone, my eyes swell with tears. "Thanks you Becca." I softly whisper before breaking the hug.

As I step back I give a soft smile "I will try to remember I'm not alone. I feel so broken at times" I turn around and begin to pick up clothes from my floor and tidy my room. Then I see the calendar "it will be a year in just a couple days"

 

[Becaa57]

"I didn't know the anniversary was coming up!!! I will be sure to be here that night, for sure you shouldn't be alone!!!" I like the hug and the fact that it was just a hug, no sexuality at all. Made it better, when you need, and frankly so do I. I can relate to the feeling broken. Then realizing the anniversary of my betrayal is also coming up. I may need company for an entirely different reason. Going back to the kitchen I make some coffee and a breakfast that you can warm up later if you want. Knocking on your door, telling you I'm going to work and there is coffee and some food if you want.
Heading out of the apartment.

 

[KyCowboy605]

After you leave I come out of my room and make my way to the kitchen. I see the breakfast and coffee, smile briefly before i start eating. After a couple cups of coffee and I finish eating, I make sure to clean up the dishes.



I head back to my room and grab some clean clothes. I think to myself that a nice shower will make me feel better then I will get to finding a better job than the dumb part time one I have. I wash up and and change my clothes then sit with another cup of coffee while I look through classifieds and make phone calls.

 

[Becaa57]

My work day is uneventful allowing me time to dwell on my past. How I was blindsided by my boyfriend and then discarded. thinking he probably expected me to fail miserably. Well fuck him!!! I decide to do a nice dinner for us, some pasta and wine, hopefully soften the blow for you and me.

 

[KyCowboy605]

Back at the apartment I have gone back to my room and begun to play Mary favorite songs on my guitar and crying a little. Slowly it becomes harder to play and the tunes go from upbeat to hard and slow. Playing the guitar making the strings sound as if they are crying themselves, I stop singing and just get lost and lose the rest of the day.

Close to the time you come home, I'm laying on the couch back in my sweats and eyes swollen from crying. I'm holding a bottle of bourbon with the apartment blacked out. "Damn I need to get up. Move Casey stop being pathetic" I tell myself.

 

[Becaa57]

I walk in and see you laying on the couch, the bourbon in your hand, but you are passed out. I gently extract the bottle from your grasp, hear you murmur 'Mary?' I say softly "Just rest Casey" Your hand moves around and finds my breast. 'I love these you slur' I'm shocked and don't do anything for a minute, then move your hand away. "Maybe later Casey honey' I put a blanket over you and head to my room to change. The memory of your hand on my breast burning into my head. I come out in shorts and a tanktop, you are snoring away. I debate on waking you to send you to your room, and decide sleeping company is not as bad as no company.

 

[KyCowboy605]

Laying there under a blanket I slowly turn over on the couch, and after a few moments I begin to wake up. As I do stir awake I sit up and around and then remember the day and where I am. I look to my left and to my right and then I search for the stereo remote and just before I find it I hear that you are home. "Hey Becca sorry, I fell asleep on the couch and for falling apart this morning."

I get off the couch to come greet you with a proper hug. I stand next to you and put an arm around your shoulder "how was work and how are you? Let me help with dinner a bit"

 

[Becaa57]

I smile when you wake up, and get up, even though unsteady of your feet, you come and give me a hug, which is nice and something new for us.
"It's ok Casey I know this is a tough time for both of us, but different reasons. I thought we could have a nice dinner, just you and I? Spaghetti and meatballs? I picked up some red wine, but considering the bottle there maybe should pass?" I lean against you for a moment, liking the feeling. "If you could check on the meatballs in the oven, they should be about done and help dish up the spaghetti dinner will be served.. See I even set the table with real china and linens"

 

[KyCowboy605]

"Yeah, I got the meatballs" I move to the oven as you continue explaining about dinner. As I pull out the meat balls I can't help but smile from how good they smell and set them on the island in the kitchen. That is when I see the table after you describe how you set it up.

"Becca, that is insane. Looks like a fancy restaurant. You did really good." I smile and then go to the sink washing my hands before we eat.

The day has finally turned to night, we live the lights low in our place as we prepare to eat. Once the food is ready to be served I take a seat at the table, ready to share a meal with you.

 

[Becaa57]

I blush at the compliment, even though it's just about the table. "Well I know today is an eventful day for both of us, and I wanted to do something nice to maybe help get through it. Plus!!! I was lucky the SOB didn't know I had this stuff, otherwise we'd be eating on paper plates" Sitting down with the wine. "Are you feeling any better?"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I nod as I look at you "it comes in waves as you know. Sometimes something as small as a sound can bring back her memory" I look at you then the food. I smile and start to eat a bit, also grab the larger meatball and break it up over my spaghetti.

 

[Becaa57]

"I know and I will help what I can, just don't be shy to ask, I like you and I think we are like two lost souls adrift in the world. Don't worry not suggesting we get into a relationship, just saying we are here for each other, no questions asked"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I look at you as you speak and being silly I slurp a long noodle from my fork. I nod "Yeah no relationship, I don't think either of us is ready for that." I eat some more and then a couple pieces of meat ball and take a sip of wine.

"Roommates and friends. That's where it's at and maybe you are one hell of a cook" I smile big and take another sip as I finish my plate. My eyes wander around the room as the green house type ceiling over the dining room table reveals the stars in the sky.

 

[Becaa57]

"Roommates and friends!! Perfect" Seeing you look around and then up to the sky, being as we are on the back deck. "Stars are pretty tonight aren't they?" Then speaking without thinking. "Do you ever feel like Mary is looking down on you from heaven?"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I close my eyes for a moment, a smile curls on my face and a sigh escapes. "I think at time she does. Other times I feel like she is here" I open my eyes and look at you, just then for a brief second it is as if you were Mary.

I sit there looking at you, then I slowly get up and walk over to you. I slowly wrap my arms around before heading to my room, where I shut the door and begin to light candles and looking at old photos of me and mary.

 

[Becaa57]

I stay out in the living room, not moving. For some reason, maybe because you shared from your heart I feel very close to Mary. I close my eyes, feeling a calm come over me a warmth, but not warm. Like a presence filling my heart and mind, pushing me back to being an observer. My eyes open, but while I can see it's not me looking out around the apartment, as if seeing it for the first time. Standing up, walking towards the bedroom, passing a mirror on the wall and stopping to look at myself again the feeling of seeing the first time. Touching my hair and face. Moving towards your bedroom, opening the door softly. Going in, looking at you on the bed, a overwhelming sense of love and loneliness coming out. I feel hands removing my clothes, leaving them on the floor until nude I walk over to the bed, sliding in behind you. My arms around you whispering a nickname for you, a name I've never heard, but and now I realize that it is Mary holding you, wanting and loving you. You turn to look at me, confusion in your eyes now. I/Mary whispers "it's me Mary honey. I've come back tonight for your love"

 

[KyCowboy605]

I hear the sound of someone entering the room and I roll over in the bed covering myself. A grunt escapes from beneath the quilt as I feel you enter the bed. As I feel your touch and I hear you call me "puppy" a name I never told you about, I roll over and look at you. "What did you say?" I ask as my hand rest on your hip and I look into your eyes.

My heart races as I feel close to you right now but also scared as I have been called by that name for a year.

 

[Becaa57]

Looking in your eyes, I step further back in my mind, letting Mary take over completely. "I don't understand how this is happening, but it's me puppy, not her. I've missed you so much and I know you have too. I don't know for how long I can be here. I can feel her in with me, but she is letting this be between you and I" Kissing you softly the way I used to

 

[KyCowboy605]

Looking back into your eyes, I search for what I am thinking. Believing it is impossible but I can see a bit of Mary in your eyes. I lean in close, wrapping an arm around you moving it down to your ass. My face moves close to yours and our lips meet, slowly caressing one another as we kiss.

Feeling the warmth of your body, makes my heart race. Being close to you feeling your curves and sour skin, my cock begins to erect as it throbs and twitches.

 

[Becaa57]

I watch as Mary kisses you feeling your hands on her body and how it responds to your touch. she says. "I've missed your touch so much!!" her hands exploring your body, a smile when she feels how hard you are. "Ohhh Puppy you've missed me too"