Lonely Sunday

[Chicklet]

Yawn.

I'm lonely today.

I have all these conflicting emotions, and it's not even that time of the month. It could be because I'm only halfway through my cup of coffee, but it could also be that something else is actually wrong.

Sometimes I think that having been depressed clinically for so long has made me feel as though I don't have an actual right to be depressed naturally. Do you know what I mean? Like, I don't have clinical depression, so I shouldn't be depressed. Or if I *am* lonely or depressed, I must need medication. But I know it's not true. Sometimes shit happens and makes you feel crummy.

I hate to admit it, because I think it makes me sound weak and co-dependent, but I really want a boyfriend. Lol. I haven't had a significant other for a year now. I've dated, I even had a regular play partner for the last couple of months, but we have split, and I really don't want another play partner. I miss having someone to cuddle up next to in bed, and hold hands, and go out to dinner and then go home and have crazy sex. I haven't had someone that wanted to share themselves with me in three years now, and dammit, I'm lonely.

Random rant cut short.

I just need hugs. And if anyone wants to fly to Portland to deliver them, all the better. I'll take you to the shanghai tunnels. But I'm broke so you'll have to pay.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x95/Sir_Winston54/HUG.gif

Best I can do, Chicklet, for now.

 

[saw_man1]

Yawn.

I'm lonely today.

I have all these conflicting emotions, and it's not even that time of the month. It could be because I'm only halfway through my cup of coffee, but it could also be that something else is actually wrong.

Sometimes I think that having been depressed clinically for so long has made me feel as though I don't have an actual right to be depressed naturally. Do you know what I mean? Like, I don't have clinical depression, so I shouldn't be depressed. Or if I *am* lonely or depressed, I must need medication. But I know it's not true. Sometimes shit happens and makes you feel crummy.

I hate to admit it, because I think it makes me sound weak and co-dependent, but I really want a boyfriend. Lol. I haven't had a significant other for a year now. I've dated, I even had a regular play partner for the last couple of months, but we have split, and I really don't want another play partner. I miss having someone to cuddle up next to in bed, and hold hands, and go out to dinner and then go home and have crazy sex. I haven't had someone that wanted to share themselves with me in three years now, and dammit, I'm lonely.

Random rant cut short.

I just need hugs. And if anyone wants to fly to Portland to deliver them, all the better. I'll take you to the shanghai tunnels. But I'm broke so you'll have to pay.

Well, now you have depressed me!

It could be worse you know. You could be my age and going through this.

This is just a dry spell. You're young and this too shall pass.


I took the Shanghai Tunnels tour last year. It was worth every penny.

 

[A Desert Rose]

Turn off your computer and go for a walk or go to the movies.

I'm going to a matinee today and after, I'm going to Cold Stone Creamery for a banana/caramel/nut thing. It's to die for!!!

You can let these other negatives rule your life, or you can rule it. You're too young, smart and pretty to let this stuff build up.

 

[DVS]

Yawn.

I'm lonely today.

I have all these conflicting emotions, and it's not even that time of the month. It could be because I'm only halfway through my cup of coffee, but it could also be that something else is actually wrong.

Sometimes I think that having been depressed clinically for so long has made me feel as though I don't have an actual right to be depressed naturally. Do you know what I mean? Like, I don't have clinical depression, so I shouldn't be depressed. Or if I *am* lonely or depressed, I must need medication. But I know it's not true. Sometimes shit happens and makes you feel crummy.

I hate to admit it, because I think it makes me sound weak and co-dependent, but I really want a boyfriend. Lol. I haven't had a significant other for a year now. I've dated, I even had a regular play partner for the last couple of months, but we have split, and I really don't want another play partner. I miss having someone to cuddle up next to in bed, and hold hands, and go out to dinner and then go home and have crazy sex. I haven't had someone that wanted to share themselves with me in three years now, and dammit, I'm lonely.

Random rant cut short.

I just need hugs. And if anyone wants to fly to Portland to deliver them, all the better. I'll take you to the shanghai tunnels. But I'm broke so you'll have to pay.

Sweetheart, you don't need hugs...you need me to tie you up and have my way with you. You need to sweat and scream and whimper and squirm and I need someone to do all of those things to. I don't know how you feel about it, but if I lived in Portland and had my way, you'd be one happy, but very sore submissive.

But, I do understand what you mean. I've been without a companion for several years now. Absence does make you stronger, I think. But it doesn't make you happy. Always remember this...I know you don't have the money, and I understand that. Shit, I don't have the money, either. But, if you ever want to make a trip to the midwest, I will make it worth your while. Free room (with chains) and board (paddle) and you'd be busy every day, one sexual way or another.

I've always been fond of you. You not only have a sweet body, but you have a desire for sex that I find quite arousing. And I'm sure we would be compatible. OK, don't look at my age. It's only a number. And, I'll keep you so busy; you won't have time to look at my bald spot, either. We'd be so hot together, we wouldn't need to turn the furnace on in the winter.

But, until that day comes, just remember these low days will happen. Not every day can be perfect. If they were, we would get bored with life, very soon. We need a down day ever now and then, to make things interesting. It's a part of life.

And I know it seems like the low days are compounding, but it's just your self-preservation kicking in. It's telling you to make a change. What kind of change? I don't know. It's kind of like cabin fever. Things get dull, because nothing changes. But, it doesn't take much to change a bad mood. The trouble is, only you can find a way, because you know yourself. It's kind of a mindset you need to develop.

No, these are not fun times, I know. But, the next good day you have, think back on this day and remember how small if seems in comparison.

And see if you can save your money. I'll do the same and one of these days, baby...one of these days...

 

[DVS]

Turn off your computer and go for a walk or go to the movies.

I'm going to a matinee today and after, I'm going to Cold Stone Creamery for a banana/caramel/nut thing. It's to die for!!!

You can let these other negatives rule your life, or you can rule it. You're too young, smart and pretty to let this stuff build up.

Ah, now this sounds like a plan. But, don't spend all of your money on this stuff. Save some, for that trip to the midwest.

 

[A Desert Rose]

Ah, now this sounds like a plan. But, don't spend all of your money on this stuff. Save some, for that trip to the midwest.

LOL Oh, the fun to be had in the MIDWEST!!! I wish I could roundup a bunch of these pretty, young little subs and bring them with me.

Just for you!!! ;-D

 

[the captians wench]

LOL Oh, the fun to be had in the MIDWEST!!! I wish I could roundup a bunch of these pretty, young little subs and bring them with me.

Just for you!!! ;-D

*bats eyes*

I could use some distraction.

 

[subtleone]

It's hard Chicklet but you have to get into the right mindset. I'm currently having the worst year of my life, but each time another negative strikes I'm just dealing with it as a singular entity and attempting to forget that it's yet another bloody setback. Thank goodness I decided, subconsciously, to do this otherwise I'd have gone under by now.
Sometimes life throws us a grey day and we know not why. You have two choices (well possibly more but lets just be black or white for a moment): Either go with the grey, snuggle up in bed/ on the sofa, watch mind numbing tv/dvd's and hope it will disappear tomorrow.
Or get out the house and do something, anything so when you return home later you know you've beaten the grey feeling. Personally I'd probably find myself down the beach and get some fresh air in my lungs and revel in the wonder of nature, but that's just me.

Neither choice is right or wrong, but if you choose the former remember not to feel guilty about it, sometimes our bodies and sanity just need a duvet day.

Hope you're feeling a bit less bleurgh now anyway

 

[somberReality]

Sweetheart, you don't need hugs...you need me to tie you up and have my way with you. You need to sweat and scream and whimper and squirm and I need someone to do all of those things to. I don't know how you feel about it, but if I lived in Portland and had my way, you'd be one happy, but very sore submissive.

But, I do understand what you mean. I've been without a companion for several years now. Absence does make you stronger, I think. But it doesn't make you happy. Always remember this...I know you don't have the money, and I understand that. Shit, I don't have the money, either. But, if you ever want to make a trip to the midwest, I will make it worth your while. Free room (with chains) and board (paddle) and you'd be busy every day, one sexual way or another.

I've always been fond of you. You not only have a sweet body, but you have a desire for sex that I find quite arousing. And I'm sure we would be compatible. OK, don't look at my age. It's only a number. And, I'll keep you so busy; you won't have time to look at my bald spot, either. We'd be so hot together, we wouldn't need to turn the furnace on in the winter.

But, until that day comes, just remember these low days will happen. Not every day can be perfect. If they were, we would get bored with life, very soon. We need a down day ever now and then, to make things interesting. It's a part of life.

And I know it seems like the low days are compounding, but it's just your self-preservation kicking in. It's telling you to make a change. What kind of change? I don't know. It's kind of like cabin fever. Things get dull, because nothing changes. But, it doesn't take much to change a bad mood. The trouble is, only you can find a way, because you know yourself. It's kind of a mindset you need to develop.

No, these are not fun times, I know. But, the next good day you have, think back on this day and remember how small if seems in comparison.

And see if you can save your money. I'll do the same and one of these days, baby...one of these days...

Awwww this is so sweet. Let me know how this works out damnit!!! woot!!

 

[Blushing Bottom]

*HUGS...HUGS...HUGS*

I'm sorry you feeling lonely.

Me too though chicklet but my dilemma is more physical. I pulled a ligament in my knee last Monday at the gym and now I'm on crutches...well crutch when no one is watching. Loaded up on pain meds which do nothing for my foul mood and I really wish that S were here. His call of concern was nice but I could use some TLC.

So ditto another small rant.

*BIG POUT*

Yawn.

I'm lonely today.

 

[Chicklet]

I went for a five mile walk and had a coffee with sugar free vanilla, and it turns out that sugar free tastes exactly the same. then i ate a banana and took a nap.

i'm still lonely but most of the day is gone, so, it's almost over and things can only be better tomorrow.

thanks everybody for listening to me ramble.

dvs, <3 you. i wish a spanking or paddling or fucking would solve my problems i was at a party stag last night and received a number of offers for one of those things, and god help me, i just don't have a desire for it. i want something a lot different right now.

 

[Netzach]

If nothing else on my bad days one might say I replaced the blues of loneliness with the stress of running my own business. Throwing yourself into something that takes time and energy can be a great way to not dwell.

 

[DarkTalon]

I hid Form My loneliness by drinking and partying and Meaningless dates And nameless kinky sex than i go home bury m,y self in writing Script and novel that Ill never finish i go to sleep And toss my self in to work as A lock smith and free lance journalist . i move my dad in to my hose to try to stave off that alone feeling . But I still go to sleep every night lonely unsatisfied wishing that the women with substance That could get me Lived some where in Texas And not every where els in the USA

 

[NALA CAYENNE]

But I still go to sleep every night lonely unsatisfied wishing that the women with substance That could get me Lived some where in Texas And not every where els in the USA

Don't worry Babe, we women think that way about you guys sometimes also

 

[DarkTalon]

Don't worry Babe, we women think that way about you guys sometimes also

Yea well it still Sucks

 

[Exogenous]

Yawn.

I'm lonely today.

I have all these conflicting emotions, and it's not even that time of the month. It could be because I'm only halfway through my cup of coffee, but it could also be that something else is actually wrong.

Sometimes I think that having been depressed clinically for so long has made me feel as though I don't have an actual right to be depressed naturally. Do you know what I mean? Like, I don't have clinical depression, so I shouldn't be depressed. Or if I *am* lonely or depressed, I must need medication. But I know it's not true. Sometimes shit happens and makes you feel crummy.

I hate to admit it, because I think it makes me sound weak and co-dependent, but I really want a boyfriend. Lol. I haven't had a significant other for a year now. I've dated, I even had a regular play partner for the last couple of months, but we have split, and I really don't want another play partner. I miss having someone to cuddle up next to in bed, and hold hands, and go out to dinner and then go home and have crazy sex. I haven't had someone that wanted to share themselves with me in three years now, and dammit, I'm lonely.

Random rant cut short.

I just need hugs. And if anyone wants to fly to Portland to deliver them, all the better. I'll take you to the shanghai tunnels. But I'm broke so you'll have to pay.

I understand how you feel. I simply miss companionship, the day to day interaction, conversations (mundane, silly, or serious topics), enjoying discovering things about each other or new things neither of us have ever experienced (like unique cuisines or places we've never been to, etc.).

Occasionally meeting up with a playmate is ok, I suppose. But that cannot fulfill the need for an intimate, committed relationship, mentally, emotionally, or physically.

I do enjoy personal hobbies and also going out with friends. My best friend and I went out for dinner and saw the play "West Side Story" last Thursday and had a great time. Yet, I have to confess that I really miss not having a "significant other" to share those times with.

I miss having that someone special to wake up with, then after a busy day, come home to reconnect, share our day and talk or play, and later fall asleep warmly, securely, cuddling next to each other. I just miss that special connection.

 

[NALA CAYENNE]

Yea well it still Sucks

Yeah. It does.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

I just need hugs. And if anyone wants to fly to Portland to deliver them, all the better. I'll take you to the shanghai tunnels. But I'm broke so you'll have to pay.

{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}​

If I could afford the airfare, I'd deliver it in person. Or fly you here.

 

[Chicklet]

thanks everybody.

i'm trying to get over it ><

 

[A Desert Rose]

.....

 

[human_male]

I want a girlfriend and I'm not afraid to admit it. I'll be forever lonely until I find her.

I want all that stupid old shit, like letters and sodas.

Letters and sodas.

 

[Chicklet]

root beer floats.

 

[Yang4yin]

Wasn't there a movie by that name?
Oh, wait - that was "Hope Floats."
Never mind.

 

[SubKekiLee]

Chicklet Hopefully today your a lil better but if not here is a BIG {{{{{HUG}}}}}} for you. If you need an ear I am only a PM away..