CuriosityShadow
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Hi - I'm new here, wanted to talk anonymously about something I can't really discuss with anyone in person. If I'm not in the right place, I apologize in advance, and please just move along.
I lost my virginity late in life, around 35yo, and I'm married to the only woman I've had sex with, shes about ten years younger than me. We started having sex about three years ago, and have been married for less than a year.
When we first started sleeping together, we were both incredibly horny and going at it all the time, but I had trouble actually cumming. Over time that improved.
Since we've got married (not that I think it's because we are married!), I've been very stressed, and just lost interest in having sex at all. Up to last christmas, she could still get me riled up, so much so that I actually got her pregnant. This was a massive shock, and still is, because I abjectly do not want kids at all, but it's happening, we have one on the way.
Even back then, I was having trouble with sex - I could get aroused easily enough, but I couldn't finish - just like when we were first together - but this time I just wasn't feeling it like when we first got together.
Since March this year we've been separated because we're from different countries - anyway it's all complicated - but I've missed most of the pregnancy. I'll be visiting her for the birth quite soon though.
While we've been apart, we've had no sexual exchanges, but I've tried to masturbate (you know, when you feel like you're full and need to discharge). However, I have a really poor 'batting average' in finishing myself. Most of the time, I'll start, I'll watch some porn, but right in the middle of it I'll just stop and turn off the video and pull my pants back up - I just don't care.
I'm still quite stressed, my wife and I have been fighting a lot during our time apart, and I'm hardly talking to her at the moment - and that's because I'm just tired and done with all the sources of stress that I get from her.
On a final note, she and I have both, individually, been through a lot shit in our lives, we were both abused by our parents, and we kind of came together like two broken people trying to look after each other.
Now though, I've pretty much got my life sorted out, and I've enjoyed my time alone since she's been away. Moreover, I've become stronger in myself, and less tolerant of my wife's bossy nature.
So now, the only sources of stress in my life are coming from her, but I can't leave her as we're having a baby. As for the baby, I'm sure that I'll love it, but I don't want it, I don't want a parental lifestyle, but I've shot myself in the foot and have to live with the consequences.
I honestly don't know what to do, or what these signs mean.
If there are any words of wisdom anyone has I would appreciate it.
I lost my virginity late in life, around 35yo, and I'm married to the only woman I've had sex with, shes about ten years younger than me. We started having sex about three years ago, and have been married for less than a year.
When we first started sleeping together, we were both incredibly horny and going at it all the time, but I had trouble actually cumming. Over time that improved.
Since we've got married (not that I think it's because we are married!), I've been very stressed, and just lost interest in having sex at all. Up to last christmas, she could still get me riled up, so much so that I actually got her pregnant. This was a massive shock, and still is, because I abjectly do not want kids at all, but it's happening, we have one on the way.
Even back then, I was having trouble with sex - I could get aroused easily enough, but I couldn't finish - just like when we were first together - but this time I just wasn't feeling it like when we first got together.
Since March this year we've been separated because we're from different countries - anyway it's all complicated - but I've missed most of the pregnancy. I'll be visiting her for the birth quite soon though.
While we've been apart, we've had no sexual exchanges, but I've tried to masturbate (you know, when you feel like you're full and need to discharge). However, I have a really poor 'batting average' in finishing myself. Most of the time, I'll start, I'll watch some porn, but right in the middle of it I'll just stop and turn off the video and pull my pants back up - I just don't care.
I'm still quite stressed, my wife and I have been fighting a lot during our time apart, and I'm hardly talking to her at the moment - and that's because I'm just tired and done with all the sources of stress that I get from her.
On a final note, she and I have both, individually, been through a lot shit in our lives, we were both abused by our parents, and we kind of came together like two broken people trying to look after each other.
Now though, I've pretty much got my life sorted out, and I've enjoyed my time alone since she's been away. Moreover, I've become stronger in myself, and less tolerant of my wife's bossy nature.
So now, the only sources of stress in my life are coming from her, but I can't leave her as we're having a baby. As for the baby, I'm sure that I'll love it, but I don't want it, I don't want a parental lifestyle, but I've shot myself in the foot and have to live with the consequences.
I honestly don't know what to do, or what these signs mean.
If there are any words of wisdom anyone has I would appreciate it.
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