RawHumor
Creepers Gotta Creep
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- Jan 24, 2002
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So apparently, my name's been popping up in a lot of the behind-the-scenes conversations around here lately.
Rather than trying to address people privately and lead to even MORE he said/she said BS, I'm going to air it all here in public. That way, everyone can see where I stand. If someone thinks something I said is bullshit, they can call me on it here or in private. Either way, this shit's getting old. I will name a few names in here, so I apologize in advance if anyone feels that I'm saying something about them that shouldn't be made public.
First, let's rewind a bit, shall we?
I posted a blurt a few months back talking about a difficulty with a break-up that I had with someone from Lit. She and I were 'together' (in the online sense) for about a year. She left me for another guy. At the time of the blurt, those two were having their first real-life meeting. It was a tough time for me in many aspects.
Around that time, I got anonymous feedback from two different people about my stories. The feedback, in both cases, was from women. I became friends with both of those women. I also started talking to someone from the GB/PG at that time.
One of the women who sent me feedback had a Lit name and, I think, about 5 posts to her name. The other didn't have a Lit username at the time. Those two women are Nala and SubKitty72.
Nala seemed lost and unappreciated by most of those around her. We played a bit one day, and both enjoyed it. Then the shit-week mentioned above happened. She wanted more playtime, but she backed off when I explained what was going on.
Eventually, she and I got closer... I always felt my role with her was more of that of a mentor. However, things sort of slipped from there, and some degree of ownership was established (not sure how to say it better than that). Nala is a wonderful writer and a good friend. Someone will be lucky to claim her one day.
SubKitty and I had a whirlwind relationship involving fantasy exchange, phone calls, and talks of meetings. Things moved VERY quickly between us and, since I have a family at home, a volatile relationship was somewhat scary to me. I felt then and feel now very strongly for her. She's a beautiful girl and incredibly intelligent and funny. However, partly because of my feelings for a 3rd Lit lady mentioned above (who will remain nameless) and largely because she knew that she wasn't my only playmate on Lit, she and I parted but are still friends.
Regarding vffan and I... a lot's been said about that apparently as well. She and I are JUST friends. We've flirted, but not gone beyond that. I had one MAJOR fuck-up and owe Homburg an apology in that mess though.
At the time Homburg posted his thread about the broken collar, I didn't realize that he was vffan's husband and I flirted with her around that same time. Later on, I realized the totality of the situation and apologized to her for trying to get into her pants (so to speak) while she was going through the stuff that she was going through at home. Again, she and I are just friends and are not and have never been more than friends who flirt.
I met vffan at a time when Homburg had another sub and they were all trying to sort things out. I was an ear and shoulder for her... someone she could vent to. We never fucked... in the cyber sense or any other sense. Flirtation was the extent of it.
So in the past few weeks I've heard that I have a reputation for... hmmm... "love em and leave em"... Well, I suppose that's true in the sense that I haven't married anyone I met here. How many online relationships last eternally?
My memory isn't perfect, and like most people, I tend to remember things slightly skewed from reality. However, this is how I remember the events.
So if I hurt anyone, I do apologize. I haven't spread rumors about anyone here. I haven't tried to break up relationships. Relationships begin and end. I've tried to be honest with everyone I talk to though.
Have I fucked up? Probably. Probably more than a few times... but that's part of life, I suppose. I don't pretend to be perfect. And I don't have any meds on which to blame my fuck-ups.
Rather than trying to address people privately and lead to even MORE he said/she said BS, I'm going to air it all here in public. That way, everyone can see where I stand. If someone thinks something I said is bullshit, they can call me on it here or in private. Either way, this shit's getting old. I will name a few names in here, so I apologize in advance if anyone feels that I'm saying something about them that shouldn't be made public.
First, let's rewind a bit, shall we?
I posted a blurt a few months back talking about a difficulty with a break-up that I had with someone from Lit. She and I were 'together' (in the online sense) for about a year. She left me for another guy. At the time of the blurt, those two were having their first real-life meeting. It was a tough time for me in many aspects.
Around that time, I got anonymous feedback from two different people about my stories. The feedback, in both cases, was from women. I became friends with both of those women. I also started talking to someone from the GB/PG at that time.
One of the women who sent me feedback had a Lit name and, I think, about 5 posts to her name. The other didn't have a Lit username at the time. Those two women are Nala and SubKitty72.
Nala seemed lost and unappreciated by most of those around her. We played a bit one day, and both enjoyed it. Then the shit-week mentioned above happened. She wanted more playtime, but she backed off when I explained what was going on.
Eventually, she and I got closer... I always felt my role with her was more of that of a mentor. However, things sort of slipped from there, and some degree of ownership was established (not sure how to say it better than that). Nala is a wonderful writer and a good friend. Someone will be lucky to claim her one day.
SubKitty and I had a whirlwind relationship involving fantasy exchange, phone calls, and talks of meetings. Things moved VERY quickly between us and, since I have a family at home, a volatile relationship was somewhat scary to me. I felt then and feel now very strongly for her. She's a beautiful girl and incredibly intelligent and funny. However, partly because of my feelings for a 3rd Lit lady mentioned above (who will remain nameless) and largely because she knew that she wasn't my only playmate on Lit, she and I parted but are still friends.
Regarding vffan and I... a lot's been said about that apparently as well. She and I are JUST friends. We've flirted, but not gone beyond that. I had one MAJOR fuck-up and owe Homburg an apology in that mess though.
At the time Homburg posted his thread about the broken collar, I didn't realize that he was vffan's husband and I flirted with her around that same time. Later on, I realized the totality of the situation and apologized to her for trying to get into her pants (so to speak) while she was going through the stuff that she was going through at home. Again, she and I are just friends and are not and have never been more than friends who flirt.
I met vffan at a time when Homburg had another sub and they were all trying to sort things out. I was an ear and shoulder for her... someone she could vent to. We never fucked... in the cyber sense or any other sense. Flirtation was the extent of it.
So in the past few weeks I've heard that I have a reputation for... hmmm... "love em and leave em"... Well, I suppose that's true in the sense that I haven't married anyone I met here. How many online relationships last eternally?
My memory isn't perfect, and like most people, I tend to remember things slightly skewed from reality. However, this is how I remember the events.
So if I hurt anyone, I do apologize. I haven't spread rumors about anyone here. I haven't tried to break up relationships. Relationships begin and end. I've tried to be honest with everyone I talk to though.
Have I fucked up? Probably. Probably more than a few times... but that's part of life, I suppose. I don't pretend to be perfect. And I don't have any meds on which to blame my fuck-ups.
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I am sure all these issues you are having are probably all a storm in a teacup as often happens here...hopefully it will all be over soon and you can be back to your cheery self. 
