llee69
First Furball of Lit
- Joined
- Jan 5, 2002
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I knew from the day we met - that first time I saw your smile & those big brown eyes that we were meant to be together.
Its been a year since I got that call. Telling me that you had died. Since I sat by your lifeless body hoping and praying that it was not true. Looking and waiting for you to breath or move again. Unable to stop the flow of tears, not believing what I was seeing.
I never would have gone out of town if I had any idea I would only be returning to bury you. I will never be able to express just how sorry I am that I was not here to hold you close to me as you took your last breath. Maybe if I was here I could have done something. We could still be together.
I visit your grave several times a week still. I start to cry each time I approach. I cant help but to wonder if you really know just how much I love. Could I have said or done more?
Every night as I lay down to sleep I say good night to you. I still tell you how much I love you as the tears roll from my eyes onto my cheek. I miss all those nights of feeling your body next to mine. Keeping me warm in the winter and hot during the summer. Fighting over the blankets or pushing each other away with out feet. Waking up in the middle of the night to find myself holding you. Feeling you breath, feeling your heart beat.
There were those mornings that you would just not want to wake up. Telling me it was a perfect day to spend in bed and let the world pass us by. Other mornings I could not wake up early enough to get going for you. To run out the door and explore our world. To go see what was new out there. Laying in the grass and feeling at one with our world.
All those nights that you would lay your head on my lap was we watched TV. Trying to keep your eyes open but losing the battle and falling asleep. I would look down at you and all I could do was smile while my hand rested peacefully on you. How many times did I fall asleep on you while watching TV?
You taught me more about friendship and love. I was not able to build any walls with you. Only you have ever been able to break through and see me for me. Only you have been able to make me smile through the pain, keep me company even if we were not together. You taught me what life on this planet is about.
What I would not give now to have you beside me right now. To be able to hear your breathing as we sleep together. To watch your chest heave up and down as your breath.
I want you to know that if I ever did anything that would make you wonder just how much I love you I am sorry. If I ever hurt you please know I did not mean to and suffer everyday that we are not together.
I know we will be together again, but not soon enough. Just wait for me on the bed. I will be there sometime - to be with you again. I am ready for us to be together again.
I love you and I miss you very much.
You are still my best friend - forever.
Its been a year since I got that call. Telling me that you had died. Since I sat by your lifeless body hoping and praying that it was not true. Looking and waiting for you to breath or move again. Unable to stop the flow of tears, not believing what I was seeing.
I never would have gone out of town if I had any idea I would only be returning to bury you. I will never be able to express just how sorry I am that I was not here to hold you close to me as you took your last breath. Maybe if I was here I could have done something. We could still be together.
I visit your grave several times a week still. I start to cry each time I approach. I cant help but to wonder if you really know just how much I love. Could I have said or done more?
Every night as I lay down to sleep I say good night to you. I still tell you how much I love you as the tears roll from my eyes onto my cheek. I miss all those nights of feeling your body next to mine. Keeping me warm in the winter and hot during the summer. Fighting over the blankets or pushing each other away with out feet. Waking up in the middle of the night to find myself holding you. Feeling you breath, feeling your heart beat.
There were those mornings that you would just not want to wake up. Telling me it was a perfect day to spend in bed and let the world pass us by. Other mornings I could not wake up early enough to get going for you. To run out the door and explore our world. To go see what was new out there. Laying in the grass and feeling at one with our world.
All those nights that you would lay your head on my lap was we watched TV. Trying to keep your eyes open but losing the battle and falling asleep. I would look down at you and all I could do was smile while my hand rested peacefully on you. How many times did I fall asleep on you while watching TV?
You taught me more about friendship and love. I was not able to build any walls with you. Only you have ever been able to break through and see me for me. Only you have been able to make me smile through the pain, keep me company even if we were not together. You taught me what life on this planet is about.
What I would not give now to have you beside me right now. To be able to hear your breathing as we sleep together. To watch your chest heave up and down as your breath.
I want you to know that if I ever did anything that would make you wonder just how much I love you I am sorry. If I ever hurt you please know I did not mean to and suffer everyday that we are not together.
I know we will be together again, but not soon enough. Just wait for me on the bed. I will be there sometime - to be with you again. I am ready for us to be together again.
I love you and I miss you very much.
You are still my best friend - forever.
*cry*
