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CdKimMajick

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I have come to the realization that I am not a crossdresser. I dress in women's clothing to match my identity.

I'm a Trans Female. I am going to start HRT in the next few weeks. After a lot of thinking and looking back on my life. I've had fantasies of becoming a woman since my 20s. I just repressed those feelings until I started to live as Kim.

From the moment I made my public debut as Kim, everything just feels natural to me. I identify even though I have not yet started HRT as female, I live as a female. I own no male clothing. And I had before some reflection on my life said I was going to wait a year living as Kim for that year and see if dressing was enough or if I would want to actually start transitioning. And I was only kidding myself. I knew it would never be enough.

I've met over the last 2 weeks with a gender affirmation therapist and realized that a lot of my anger in the past, the heavy drinking among other things were if not fully caused by repressing myself it had a big part in those things.

I know it's only been a few weeks since I came out but there have been times in my past where I have dressed full-time at least in my home. I would make monthly trips to Minneapolis with my late wife to have a "girls weekend" shopping, dinner and a movie. All while we were in same outfit from head to toe. Same bra and panties as well. So my realization isn't "fast"

I've had dreams both in the past and currently where I become a woman. I play 2 online text based games where you transition into a woman. And if I would have had the courage in my 20s to come out I would have already undergone Sexual Reassignment Surgery.

I've told my family and friends about my self realization and they still support me. I have to wait til Sunday to talk to a family member about something and shortly after that I will begin HRT.

The only question my family has had was am I going to completely transition by having S.R.S. and the answer is yes at some point that is the plan.

I thought a weight was lifted after coming out as a CD. Now after coming to grips and accepting myself and having the courage to make a plan and start following it through....it's like a whole new world to me. I'm fully at ease. I haven't had to take a extra anti-anxiety medication to go out into the world like before.

I've had 1 person in my family be unsupportive. Which is a shock.

I am so excited, happy and I'm looking to my future with hope for the first time in many years. I hope everything goes to my plan or at least close to it.

I know this post is just a boring rambling post and I apologize for rambling on. I just had to speak or type my feelings out. My roommates while very supportive don't fully understand how exhilarating and liberating this is for me.

Thank you if you stuck to this to the end.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

Kim
 
Thank you both. It was support from strangers like you both who helped me gain the courage to put on a skirt set I bought at torrid and wear it out making my debut as Kim. They are a group of wonderful ladies in a Torrid Fashion group. I was so nervous posting pics in that group because I was sure they wouldn't accept me. Not only did they accept me....I am just one of the girls now.
 
That simple statement contains so much meaning.
Yes it does. And to be one of the girls is so exciting. This is something I have thought of since my 20s. A lot of my friends and family while still supportive think that I am going to fast with this process. I've thought about this for 34 years. I never had the strength or courage to embrace my true self til now.
 
I have come to the realization that I am not a crossdresser. I dress in women's clothing to match my identity.

I'm a Trans Female. I am going to start HRT in the next few weeks. After a lot of thinking and looking back on my life. I've had fantasies of becoming a woman since my 20s. I just repressed those feelings until I started to live as Kim.

From the moment I made my public debut as Kim, everything just feels natural to me. I identify even though I have not yet started HRT as female, I live as a female. I own no male clothing. And I had before some reflection on my life said I was going to wait a year living as Kim for that year and see if dressing was enough or if I would want to actually start transitioning. And I was only kidding myself. I knew it would never be enough.

I've met over the last 2 weeks with a gender affirmation therapist and realized that a lot of my anger in the past, the heavy drinking among other things were if not fully caused by repressing myself it had a big part in those things.

I know it's only been a few weeks since I came out but there have been times in my past where I have dressed full-time at least in my home. I would make monthly trips to Minneapolis with my late wife to have a "girls weekend" shopping, dinner and a movie. All while we were in same outfit from head to toe. Same bra and panties as well. So my realization isn't "fast"

I've had dreams both in the past and currently where I become a woman. I play 2 online text based games where you transition into a woman. And if I would have had the courage in my 20s to come out I would have already undergone Sexual Reassignment Surgery.

I've told my family and friends about my self realization and they still support me. I have to wait til Sunday to talk to a family member about something and shortly after that I will begin HRT.

The only question my family has had was am I going to completely transition by having S.R.S. and the answer is yes at some point that is the plan.

I thought a weight was lifted after coming out as a CD. Now after coming to grips and accepting myself and having the courage to make a plan and start following it through....it's like a whole new world to me. I'm fully at ease. I haven't had to take a extra anti-anxiety medication to go out into the world like before.

I've had 1 person in my family be unsupportive. Which is a shock.

I am so excited, happy and I'm looking to my future with hope for the first time in many years. I hope everything goes to my plan or at least close to it.

I know this post is just a boring rambling post and I apologize for rambling on. I just had to speak or type my feelings out. My roommates while very supportive don't fully understand how exhilarating and liberating this is for me.

Thank you if you stuck to this to the end.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

Kim
Best of luck Kim. I’m glad you are finding your true self and hope it leads to your ultimate happiness 💋
 
I have come to the realization that I am not a crossdresser. I dress in women's clothing to match my identity.

I'm a Trans Female. I am going to start HRT in the next few weeks. After a lot of thinking and looking back on my life. I've had fantasies of becoming a woman since my 20s. I just repressed those feelings until I started to live as Kim.

From the moment I made my public debut as Kim, everything just feels natural to me. I identify even though I have not yet started HRT as female, I live as a female. I own no male clothing. And I had before some reflection on my life said I was going to wait a year living as Kim for that year and see if dressing was enough or if I would want to actually start transitioning. And I was only kidding myself. I knew it would never be enough.

I've met over the last 2 weeks with a gender affirmation therapist and realized that a lot of my anger in the past, the heavy drinking among other things were if not fully caused by repressing myself it had a big part in those things.

I know it's only been a few weeks since I came out but there have been times in my past where I have dressed full-time at least in my home. I would make monthly trips to Minneapolis with my late wife to have a "girls weekend" shopping, dinner and a movie. All while we were in same outfit from head to toe. Same bra and panties as well. So my realization isn't "fast"

I've had dreams both in the past and currently where I become a woman. I play 2 online text based games where you transition into a woman. And if I would have had the courage in my 20s to come out I would have already undergone Sexual Reassignment Surgery.

I've told my family and friends about my self realization and they still support me. I have to wait til Sunday to talk to a family member about something and shortly after that I will begin HRT.

The only question my family has had was am I going to completely transition by having S.R.S. and the answer is yes at some point that is the plan.

I thought a weight was lifted after coming out as a CD. Now after coming to grips and accepting myself and having the courage to make a plan and start following it through....it's like a whole new world to me. I'm fully at ease. I haven't had to take a extra anti-anxiety medication to go out into the world like before.

I've had 1 person in my family be unsupportive. Which is a shock.

I am so excited, happy and I'm looking to my future with hope for the first time in many years. I hope everything goes to my plan or at least close to it.

I know this post is just a boring rambling post and I apologize for rambling on. I just had to speak or type my feelings out. My roommates while very supportive don't fully understand how exhilarating and liberating this is for me.

Thank you if you stuck to this to the end.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

Kim
Congratulations!

Here's to your new life!

My HRT consult is at the end of July. I don't plan on doing SRS, a decision I made after a lot of serious meditation and conversations, but I do plan on facial feminization and implants if I'm not blessed in the mammory department.

I wish you the best of luck and may you be blessed with skilled surgeons with an artists eye.
 
Congratulations!

Here's to your new life!

My HRT consult is at the end of July. I don't plan on doing SRS, a decision I made after a lot of serious meditation and conversations, but I do plan on facial feminization and implants if I'm not blessed in the mammory department.

I wish you the best of luck and may you be blessed with skilled surgeons with an artists eye.
SRS is down the road for me. I started the HRT on thursday
 
SRS is down the road for me. I started the HRT on thursday
Yay! May your boobs grow large and your mood swings shallow!

I'm intersex XXY. Male presenting with a hormone imbalance. I'm tall with long legs, a shorter torso, and a pair of a cups, I've kept hidden by clothing and posture and have started showing off a bit since I've started getting in shape for health and feminisation reasons. And because I'm in my mid 40s I'll probably gain the weight back eventually and hopefully the fat finds it way to the right places with a little nudge from the hormones.

Though I've been dressing on and off since my teens and questiong my gender since my 20s, I've only started dressing seriously 2 years ago when I started a relationship with a beautiful, kind, supportive woman who encourages me to find my happiness. She said that I'm obviously much happier as a woman.

I agree. I think I'll make a pretty good looking MILF
 
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