CdKimMajick
Loving Life
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I have come to the realization that I am not a crossdresser. I dress in women's clothing to match my identity.
I'm a Trans Female. I am going to start HRT in the next few weeks. After a lot of thinking and looking back on my life. I've had fantasies of becoming a woman since my 20s. I just repressed those feelings until I started to live as Kim.
From the moment I made my public debut as Kim, everything just feels natural to me. I identify even though I have not yet started HRT as female, I live as a female. I own no male clothing. And I had before some reflection on my life said I was going to wait a year living as Kim for that year and see if dressing was enough or if I would want to actually start transitioning. And I was only kidding myself. I knew it would never be enough.
I've met over the last 2 weeks with a gender affirmation therapist and realized that a lot of my anger in the past, the heavy drinking among other things were if not fully caused by repressing myself it had a big part in those things.
I know it's only been a few weeks since I came out but there have been times in my past where I have dressed full-time at least in my home. I would make monthly trips to Minneapolis with my late wife to have a "girls weekend" shopping, dinner and a movie. All while we were in same outfit from head to toe. Same bra and panties as well. So my realization isn't "fast"
I've had dreams both in the past and currently where I become a woman. I play 2 online text based games where you transition into a woman. And if I would have had the courage in my 20s to come out I would have already undergone Sexual Reassignment Surgery.
I've told my family and friends about my self realization and they still support me. I have to wait til Sunday to talk to a family member about something and shortly after that I will begin HRT.
The only question my family has had was am I going to completely transition by having S.R.S. and the answer is yes at some point that is the plan.
I thought a weight was lifted after coming out as a CD. Now after coming to grips and accepting myself and having the courage to make a plan and start following it through....it's like a whole new world to me. I'm fully at ease. I haven't had to take a extra anti-anxiety medication to go out into the world like before.
I've had 1 person in my family be unsupportive. Which is a shock.
I am so excited, happy and I'm looking to my future with hope for the first time in many years. I hope everything goes to my plan or at least close to it.
I know this post is just a boring rambling post and I apologize for rambling on. I just had to speak or type my feelings out. My roommates while very supportive don't fully understand how exhilarating and liberating this is for me.
Thank you if you stuck to this to the end.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
Kim
I'm a Trans Female. I am going to start HRT in the next few weeks. After a lot of thinking and looking back on my life. I've had fantasies of becoming a woman since my 20s. I just repressed those feelings until I started to live as Kim.
From the moment I made my public debut as Kim, everything just feels natural to me. I identify even though I have not yet started HRT as female, I live as a female. I own no male clothing. And I had before some reflection on my life said I was going to wait a year living as Kim for that year and see if dressing was enough or if I would want to actually start transitioning. And I was only kidding myself. I knew it would never be enough.
I've met over the last 2 weeks with a gender affirmation therapist and realized that a lot of my anger in the past, the heavy drinking among other things were if not fully caused by repressing myself it had a big part in those things.
I know it's only been a few weeks since I came out but there have been times in my past where I have dressed full-time at least in my home. I would make monthly trips to Minneapolis with my late wife to have a "girls weekend" shopping, dinner and a movie. All while we were in same outfit from head to toe. Same bra and panties as well. So my realization isn't "fast"
I've had dreams both in the past and currently where I become a woman. I play 2 online text based games where you transition into a woman. And if I would have had the courage in my 20s to come out I would have already undergone Sexual Reassignment Surgery.
I've told my family and friends about my self realization and they still support me. I have to wait til Sunday to talk to a family member about something and shortly after that I will begin HRT.
The only question my family has had was am I going to completely transition by having S.R.S. and the answer is yes at some point that is the plan.
I thought a weight was lifted after coming out as a CD. Now after coming to grips and accepting myself and having the courage to make a plan and start following it through....it's like a whole new world to me. I'm fully at ease. I haven't had to take a extra anti-anxiety medication to go out into the world like before.
I've had 1 person in my family be unsupportive. Which is a shock.
I am so excited, happy and I'm looking to my future with hope for the first time in many years. I hope everything goes to my plan or at least close to it.
I know this post is just a boring rambling post and I apologize for rambling on. I just had to speak or type my feelings out. My roommates while very supportive don't fully understand how exhilarating and liberating this is for me.
Thank you if you stuck to this to the end.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
Kim
