Thunder69
Really Really Experienced
- Joined
- Sep 27, 2001
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I never know how to write to where it makes sense.... there might be a few run on sentences or where I will jump from topic to topic.
I had a halfway decent life growing up, mostly of watching my own back and making sure I got ahead. I had a great career on Wall st., started getting burnt out and quit. I headed for California and then 6 months into my living there, around the beginning of the year, all hell broke loose.
I own a business that is seasonal and a luxury. I have the entertainment industry that is my backbone of clients.... It was a slow beginning of yr and my biz started to suffer. I have a partner who lives back east. The financial situation started to get bad and I was in risk of closing... several attempts were made to my partner <who owes me large sum of money from personal loan> for some relief financially.... my funds dried up.. I was accused of running business into the ground.
It took me 3 months to finally get caught up with payments... revamped the business took away all discounts for everyone and made it a business that doesnt care whos brother you are <Beverly Hills has the cheapest mother fuckers I ever met in my life>
Now with the business slowly catching up .... my personal financial situation is critical .... I called in the note for the money my partner/brother in law owes me <he is married to my sister> only to be given excuses <I told him several times in past month I need it>. Family doesnt do this <thats bullshit , I know... dont lecture me>
Well during all this shit, had a lying bitch take advantage of me and use me.
And then it was like someone said lets pull out the can from the bottom and watch it fall
The past 4 weeks have been the nastiest thing I have ever experienced in my life.
Landlord threatened eviction if I dont come up with property taxes <partner failed to mention $8000 payment> My once pristine credit has been torn to shreds.... I never have heard of anyone taking away a credit card with 12,000 credit and a $500 balance. My Dodge Durango was reposessed. My father passes away.
During this time, I started to chat with this girl, we would flirt and laugh.... no cyber or anything <she has an idea that I am a perv> She heard it all and was still looking me up, very cool and down to earth person. She didnt have the answers, but offered advice or just listened.
I had the opportunity to meet this girl this weekend... finding all that I thought she was and more... to make things easier, I stayed in a motel. This is the 1st time I was away from my business for more than a day in 6 months... it was more than needed..... I was feeling alot of anger and resentment
This morning, sunday , she showed up with donuts and coffee. sitting there and chatting .... my cell phone rings ... I ignored it ..... rang 3 more different times. I finally picked it up and it was my employee... she said where are you? I said I am still away ... leaving in a bit... I felt something wrong ... I said whats wrong... she told me "Bosco" my 7 month puppy was hit by a car.... I asked if he was ok, she said no. I picked up a chair and slammed it to the ground and turned and slammed my fist through a wall and leaned over the table wanting to hurt someone... all of a sudden I felt an arm around my waist and turned around.... I looked at her and sat, and placed my head in her chest and finally cried and broke down, I forgot what a hug was. after I got my composure back , I asked myself when will it stop? and why is this black cloud riding over me?
she told me"everything happens for a reason" you take a certain path everytime you move.... Then I started to understand in a weird way. I had met her when all the heavy dutty things started hitting me, and she had found a way to calm me. Today was the first time I showed any rage ..... I realized that I wanted to cry, her compasion let me know that it was ok.
I don't really know if I am making any sense, but if it meant that a few of these things had to happen for me to meet her, then so be it. All the things had there toll on me, I have no idea what else is in store for me... but what it looks like is that I have a great person to walk next to me.
Who ever reads this, I needed to vent
I had a halfway decent life growing up, mostly of watching my own back and making sure I got ahead. I had a great career on Wall st., started getting burnt out and quit. I headed for California and then 6 months into my living there, around the beginning of the year, all hell broke loose.
I own a business that is seasonal and a luxury. I have the entertainment industry that is my backbone of clients.... It was a slow beginning of yr and my biz started to suffer. I have a partner who lives back east. The financial situation started to get bad and I was in risk of closing... several attempts were made to my partner <who owes me large sum of money from personal loan> for some relief financially.... my funds dried up.. I was accused of running business into the ground.
It took me 3 months to finally get caught up with payments... revamped the business took away all discounts for everyone and made it a business that doesnt care whos brother you are <Beverly Hills has the cheapest mother fuckers I ever met in my life>
Now with the business slowly catching up .... my personal financial situation is critical .... I called in the note for the money my partner/brother in law owes me <he is married to my sister> only to be given excuses <I told him several times in past month I need it>. Family doesnt do this <thats bullshit , I know... dont lecture me>
Well during all this shit, had a lying bitch take advantage of me and use me.
And then it was like someone said lets pull out the can from the bottom and watch it fall
The past 4 weeks have been the nastiest thing I have ever experienced in my life.
Landlord threatened eviction if I dont come up with property taxes <partner failed to mention $8000 payment> My once pristine credit has been torn to shreds.... I never have heard of anyone taking away a credit card with 12,000 credit and a $500 balance. My Dodge Durango was reposessed. My father passes away.
During this time, I started to chat with this girl, we would flirt and laugh.... no cyber or anything <she has an idea that I am a perv> She heard it all and was still looking me up, very cool and down to earth person. She didnt have the answers, but offered advice or just listened.
I had the opportunity to meet this girl this weekend... finding all that I thought she was and more... to make things easier, I stayed in a motel. This is the 1st time I was away from my business for more than a day in 6 months... it was more than needed..... I was feeling alot of anger and resentment
This morning, sunday , she showed up with donuts and coffee. sitting there and chatting .... my cell phone rings ... I ignored it ..... rang 3 more different times. I finally picked it up and it was my employee... she said where are you? I said I am still away ... leaving in a bit... I felt something wrong ... I said whats wrong... she told me "Bosco" my 7 month puppy was hit by a car.... I asked if he was ok, she said no. I picked up a chair and slammed it to the ground and turned and slammed my fist through a wall and leaned over the table wanting to hurt someone... all of a sudden I felt an arm around my waist and turned around.... I looked at her and sat, and placed my head in her chest and finally cried and broke down, I forgot what a hug was. after I got my composure back , I asked myself when will it stop? and why is this black cloud riding over me?
she told me"everything happens for a reason" you take a certain path everytime you move.... Then I started to understand in a weird way. I had met her when all the heavy dutty things started hitting me, and she had found a way to calm me. Today was the first time I showed any rage ..... I realized that I wanted to cry, her compasion let me know that it was ok.
I don't really know if I am making any sense, but if it meant that a few of these things had to happen for me to meet her, then so be it. All the things had there toll on me, I have no idea what else is in store for me... but what it looks like is that I have a great person to walk next to me.
Who ever reads this, I needed to vent
