FlamingoBlue
a simple country lawyer
- Joined
- Jun 29, 2000
- Posts
- 2,994
This is my 500th post so I thought I would try and say something meaningful about my experience here, to date. I am new to the web, having been introduced to it by my stepson about a year ago, at age 56+. (My children and my wife are all very familiar wih computers and the web). What I have found is that there is an amazing amount of information at my fingertips that was never there before, in that way. I also found that there was an entirely new way for me to interact with people, that I would never otherwise meet in my everyday life, with whom I could share experiences and learn about myself. You see, one of my favorite things to do is to schmooze with folks. I do it everywhere I go.
When I first came to the web, I was concerned about dealing with my depression in a more educated fashion. I had been in therapy for years but understood little about the condition. So, when I came to the web I devoured information and also joined some forums for depressed people. Eventually, I found it too depressing, and left for greener pastures. That's when I discovered cyberporn and cybersex. Wow, I was like a kid in a candy store. I saw so many genitals that I didn't know if I was a gynocologist, urologist or a proctologist. Somedays, I didn't know if I was going or cumming.
Anyways, after driving myself, my wife and everyone else I knew, crazy, I eventually became immune to hard core porn and didn't find it really stimulating anymore. (Oh, and by the way, at the same time my libido had gone south due to the prozac that I was taking). So, the search began anew to find something that would be stimulating to me, sexually speaking.
I have always loved to read and I have found erotic literature to be arousing. I discovered erotic stories on the web. However, it was like my introduction to visual pornography.
Eventually, all the erotic experiences and the sex acts seemed to loose their meaning and the stories seemed to lose their appeal. Then, amazingly, I discovered Literotica. Com. That was a banner day for me.
Here at Literotica I had it all, including exposure to people of all ages, from all over the world. Every imaginable personality was represented. People here are young and old, married and single, gay. bi-sexual and straight. They are shy and bold, brilliant and profound, dense and closed-minded. There are leaders and followers, men, woman and children. There is a little of everything here to be experienced. The question for me, then, was how to begin to enjoy it.
It is said that you only have one opportunity to make a good first impression. So, what did I do with this golden opportunity? What I did was to audition for the part of the village idiot AND, I got it! ( I invite you to read my 1st post. Just click on my profile and you will find it). Boy, did I ever get it, and I have been getting it, ever since. But in a much more profound fashion. Believe me, I do not ignore nor am I offended by anything that is said to or about me. Everyone, including me, is entitled to their opinion.
I have learned a great deal about myself from my interactions on this site. It has been extemely benificial to me to help me understand and place my sexual and other personal conflicts into perspective. I have experienced a great deal of personal growth as a direct result of my ability to recieve, assimilate and accept comments without placing a value judgement on them, except to determine whether they are hepful or not. For this, I am very grateful.
I have tried to refrain from chatting on the BB, as I found that I can do that far better if I email people directly rather than taking up space in threads. (If others want to do that, its fine with me. The exchanges are sometimes very interesting).If I think that I need to make a point, publically or if I get caught up in the moment, I may chat openly, but I usually try to make a point. (No one is perfect). I have also tried not to be hurtful or offensive and, if I slip, I am comforted by the fact that there are those of you that will call me on it. Constructive comments are always appreciated and are used to help me shape myself into the person that I want to be.
One last thing. To me, the words "I'm sorry" are extremely empty unless the offensive behavior changes, as well. I see so much conflict in my professional life, that "I'm sorry" literally has lost all meaning. To a battered wife or child, I'm sorry means nothing unless the abuse stops and the sorce of the disturbance is explored. To the powerless, "I'm sorry" from the powerful means nothing unless there is a change in attitude.
So, If I piss you off and you tell me that I have hurt your feelings, rest assured that I will not repeat the behavior. I also have to learn how to use the smilie faces, too. Live and learn really is my motto.
Thank you all.
Fondly,
blue
When I first came to the web, I was concerned about dealing with my depression in a more educated fashion. I had been in therapy for years but understood little about the condition. So, when I came to the web I devoured information and also joined some forums for depressed people. Eventually, I found it too depressing, and left for greener pastures. That's when I discovered cyberporn and cybersex. Wow, I was like a kid in a candy store. I saw so many genitals that I didn't know if I was a gynocologist, urologist or a proctologist. Somedays, I didn't know if I was going or cumming.
Anyways, after driving myself, my wife and everyone else I knew, crazy, I eventually became immune to hard core porn and didn't find it really stimulating anymore. (Oh, and by the way, at the same time my libido had gone south due to the prozac that I was taking). So, the search began anew to find something that would be stimulating to me, sexually speaking.
I have always loved to read and I have found erotic literature to be arousing. I discovered erotic stories on the web. However, it was like my introduction to visual pornography.
Eventually, all the erotic experiences and the sex acts seemed to loose their meaning and the stories seemed to lose their appeal. Then, amazingly, I discovered Literotica. Com. That was a banner day for me.
Here at Literotica I had it all, including exposure to people of all ages, from all over the world. Every imaginable personality was represented. People here are young and old, married and single, gay. bi-sexual and straight. They are shy and bold, brilliant and profound, dense and closed-minded. There are leaders and followers, men, woman and children. There is a little of everything here to be experienced. The question for me, then, was how to begin to enjoy it.
It is said that you only have one opportunity to make a good first impression. So, what did I do with this golden opportunity? What I did was to audition for the part of the village idiot AND, I got it! ( I invite you to read my 1st post. Just click on my profile and you will find it). Boy, did I ever get it, and I have been getting it, ever since. But in a much more profound fashion. Believe me, I do not ignore nor am I offended by anything that is said to or about me. Everyone, including me, is entitled to their opinion.
I have learned a great deal about myself from my interactions on this site. It has been extemely benificial to me to help me understand and place my sexual and other personal conflicts into perspective. I have experienced a great deal of personal growth as a direct result of my ability to recieve, assimilate and accept comments without placing a value judgement on them, except to determine whether they are hepful or not. For this, I am very grateful.
I have tried to refrain from chatting on the BB, as I found that I can do that far better if I email people directly rather than taking up space in threads. (If others want to do that, its fine with me. The exchanges are sometimes very interesting).If I think that I need to make a point, publically or if I get caught up in the moment, I may chat openly, but I usually try to make a point. (No one is perfect). I have also tried not to be hurtful or offensive and, if I slip, I am comforted by the fact that there are those of you that will call me on it. Constructive comments are always appreciated and are used to help me shape myself into the person that I want to be.
One last thing. To me, the words "I'm sorry" are extremely empty unless the offensive behavior changes, as well. I see so much conflict in my professional life, that "I'm sorry" literally has lost all meaning. To a battered wife or child, I'm sorry means nothing unless the abuse stops and the sorce of the disturbance is explored. To the powerless, "I'm sorry" from the powerful means nothing unless there is a change in attitude.
So, If I piss you off and you tell me that I have hurt your feelings, rest assured that I will not repeat the behavior. I also have to learn how to use the smilie faces, too. Live and learn really is my motto.
Thank you all.
Fondly,
blue
