Instead Of Getting Married...

[prettyserpentine]

I was supposed to be getting married this month.

Yet now, almost 11 months since the break up of my engagement, I still find myself kind of bitter. And cynical. And that I still want to smoosh my ex-fiancé's face.

So! To take my mind off my no-more-impending nuptials I think I shall set myself little tasks to remind myself that life goes on, and I can embrace the future. And maybe that I'm not always going to feel this cold and caustic.

Because I'd really like to get to a point where I walk past cynical, and divert around the heartache that seems to lurk behind it, and be okay.

Suggestions on a postcard! Or a comment, you know, whatever...

 

[gearhead73]

I have talked to you many times, and I am pretty sure of a few things. First of all, you are not caustic. I think you are a bit guarded, but who isn't really. I have seen many sides of you and have never, even when we have had a disagreement, found you caustic.
Life most assuredly does go on and I for one believe that happiness is yours for the taking. A year may seem like a long time, but each of heals at different rates and that is ok. Those who love you understand, and are willing to give you all of the time you need to heal.
You are going to be fine hon, I promise. I can't promise you that it is always going to be "sunshine and puppy dogs", but I know that all you need is to believe that you deserve to be happy, and happiness will eventually find its way to you.

Just my $.02, but then what do douchebags know?