Hi. I would like to introduce myself again, and throw myself in here with the rest of you brave people. 
Hi, I'm Connie...
I've put alot of thought into why I am here, and what I need from this site, and now I know exactly what that is. I want it all.
I am on a journey into me and my sexuality that is long overdue. Since I stumbled across this site a few weeks ago, I have been profoundly affected, and yet, frustrated. Sure, I want and need the experience of sharing erotica, being moved simply reading all the beautiful work posted here by very gifted people...and the experience of knowing a little better, those of you I have met here so far. I feel I have been given a gift here, and it has shaped my life in a remarkable way, and it always will.
But, I've found that I want more. So, maybe in a sense, I am misinterpreting what this "personals" forum is all about (it wouldn't be the first time I misinterpreted life.... ), but I really don't care. Regardless of whether or not even one person responds to me, I am still getting so much out of my time here. But what the heck...I'm a greedy girl, so here goes.
I want a man.
And not just in my email, Instant Messenger, or even in my ear on the phone. And one little offline "meet in person" isn't going to do it either. (unless it goes really, really badly!) In case you're wondering, yes, I can walk out the door and heave myself into the jungle of "dating", but I may as well heave myself off a cliff....it will have the same result. I liken it to standing on an auction block/meat market blindfolded, with a sign that says "pick me!". UGH! Aside from this....I want this experience....how can a first date, or even a month of dates, compare to what is gained over time in this type venue? This very real glimpse one gets through the written word of another? I imagine the usual 1st date....."Where do you work" "Does your ex try to hunt you down and whack you with a machete?" "Whats your sign/favorite color/are you looking for sex only"? (like he is going to say yes!) And then, theres the usual bar scene crap....puhleeze! And can I imagine asking him what his ultimate sexual fantasy is??? If I had to go through all that again, I know I couldn't do it.
I really don't think someone "like me", someone who's head is where mine is, (OKOK, even "close" will do!) is just going to appear on my doorstep, especially where I live. So, here I am. Open to so much here, yet.....wanting it all, wanting him in my arms, in my life.
Make of my rambling what you will.
intrigued
Hi, I'm Connie...I've put alot of thought into why I am here, and what I need from this site, and now I know exactly what that is. I want it all.
I am on a journey into me and my sexuality that is long overdue. Since I stumbled across this site a few weeks ago, I have been profoundly affected, and yet, frustrated. Sure, I want and need the experience of sharing erotica, being moved simply reading all the beautiful work posted here by very gifted people...and the experience of knowing a little better, those of you I have met here so far. I feel I have been given a gift here, and it has shaped my life in a remarkable way, and it always will.
But, I've found that I want more. So, maybe in a sense, I am misinterpreting what this "personals" forum is all about (it wouldn't be the first time I misinterpreted life....
), but I really don't care. Regardless of whether or not even one person responds to me, I am still getting so much out of my time here. But what the heck...I'm a greedy girl, so here goes. I want a man.
And not just in my email, Instant Messenger, or even in my ear on the phone. And one little offline "meet in person" isn't going to do it either. (unless it goes really, really badly!) In case you're wondering, yes, I can walk out the door and heave myself into the jungle of "dating", but I may as well heave myself off a cliff....it will have the same result. I liken it to standing on an auction block/meat market blindfolded, with a sign that says "pick me!". UGH! Aside from this....I want this experience....how can a first date, or even a month of dates, compare to what is gained over time in this type venue? This very real glimpse one gets through the written word of another? I imagine the usual 1st date....."Where do you work" "Does your ex try to hunt you down and whack you with a machete?" "Whats your sign/favorite color/are you looking for sex only"? (like he is going to say yes!) And then, theres the usual bar scene crap....puhleeze! And can I imagine asking him what his ultimate sexual fantasy is??? If I had to go through all that again, I know I couldn't do it. I really don't think someone "like me", someone who's head is where mine is, (OKOK, even "close" will do!) is just going to appear on my doorstep, especially where I live. So, here I am. Open to so much here, yet.....wanting it all, wanting him in my arms, in my life.
Make of my rambling what you will.
intrigued
LB
