I'm fucking done with this bdsm stuff.

Betticus

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No matter how kinky I am or how close to my more animal feelings that I am I am absolutely done with being alone.

Seriously, I think that five years of being alone is more than enough. I give up.

I am resigned to being alone and if I have to be all by myself I'm going to have to pull back my real world experience to the level where I can at least not scare people.

*sigh*

The sad thing is that I know there is out there the lil, petite, tomboy girl subbie that my soul craves, that girl who is a bitch to everyone else but a tender lil lover with me, a partner in crime and someone who loves to laugh and dance and put one over on friends for laughs....

somewhere. Just not where I am. So off to neither vanilla nor chocolate I go and alone I'll find a way to break through this world. :(

I wish all of you a wonderful and pleasant journey through life.
 
No matter how kinky I am or how close to my more animal feelings that I am I am absolutely done with being alone.

Seriously, I think that five years of being alone is more than enough. I give up.

I am resigned to being alone and if I have to be all by myself I'm going to have to pull back my real world experience to the level where I can at least not scare people.

*sigh*

The sad thing is that I know there is out there the lil, petite, tomboy girl subbie that my soul craves, that girl who is a bitch to everyone else but a tender lil lover with me, a partner in crime and someone who loves to laugh and dance and put one over on friends for laughs....

somewhere. Just not where I am. So off to neither vanilla nor chocolate I go and alone I'll find a way to break through this world. :(

I wish all of you a wonderful and pleasant journey through life.


Sorry that you are having such a rough time Bett. *hugs*
 
I know there's probably nothing I can say to make you feel any better, so I'll just give you a hug instead.

(((Betticus)))
 
Oi Bett. Stop Looking!

Seriously, the girl is probably trying to bite you on the arse, but you keep running around looking for her.
Chicks are attracted to happy, content men (why do you think we say, "the good ones are always taken")?
If you do what you say you're going to do and "give up" you'll probably get exactly what you've been looking for all along.

............And no you can't have my girlrfiend :p
 
No matter how kinky I am or how close to my more animal feelings that I am I am absolutely done with being alone.

Seriously, I think that five years of being alone is more than enough. I give up.
My god, I could have written this. I was alone for 5 years and I almost went insane. Well, I am insane in some ways, but no longer alone. I've been with my man/master/dom for almost a year and a half now. I finally tried the cavewoman approach. Me want man. Me club man. Me drag man home. :devil:

So don't give up. I nearly did. Then I went somewhere I never thought I'd go: an online find-a-man site. Even worse, it was a bdsm find-a-man site. Scary place. Fortunately, I found a real man, who isn't too weird. :)
 
Don't give up! I can't say I know you well, but from what I've seen you seem like a real good kind of guy, and I am sure that there is someone out there for you. :rose:
 
Speaking from experience here... I got shat on by a guy in a big way, decided that I just needed to stop and think about myself instead of guys and within a week, the one I was going to marry practically landed in my lap.

Oddly enough, not long after we married I had one amazing bitch also land in my lap.. and this was at a point where I had solidly decided that I wasn't into chicks anymore.

You never can tell what is around the corner. I wish you all the best Betticus :)

Same experience here. I gave up on everything but what I had and where I was at, and it lasted about a month. I didn't even get to FULLY enjoy my alone-ness and miss living alone at times.
 
I just want a lil subbie of my own. someone to protect and cuddle and share life with. :confused:

Sadly, she doesn't seem to exist.
 
She does Bett, you've just got to find her.

But if you go looking, you won't. Wait for her to find you.
 
*hugs*

I'm not a wise person, so I don't have any insightful advice or sage old saying. I can't tell you what to do or how to fix it. I'm the most romantically maladroit person I know. But I can tell you if I were near, I'd bake you cookies and listen to you vent. As it is, I can only listen to you vent. You have my number if you need an empathetic ear. :rose:
 
Oh, ok.
Can I have all of your toys and stuff?
No matter how kinky I am or how close to my more animal feelings that I am I am absolutely done with being alone.

Seriously, I think that five years of being alone is more than enough. I give up.

I am resigned to being alone and if I have to be all by myself I'm going to have to pull back my real world experience to the level where I can at least not scare people.

*sigh*

The sad thing is that I know there is out there the lil, petite, tomboy girl subbie that my soul craves, that girl who is a bitch to everyone else but a tender lil lover with me, a partner in crime and someone who loves to laugh and dance and put one over on friends for laughs....

somewhere. Just not where I am. So off to neither vanilla nor chocolate I go and alone I'll find a way to break through this world. :(

I wish all of you a wonderful and pleasant journey through life.
 
I just want a lil subbie of my own. someone to protect and cuddle and share life with. :confused:

Sadly, she doesn't seem to exist.
:rolleyes: Oh Betticus. *sigh*
*hugs*

I'm not a wise person, so I don't have any insightful advice or sage old saying. I can't tell you what to do or how to fix it. I'm the most romantically maladroit person I know. But I can tell you if I were near, I'd bake you cookies and listen to you vent. As it is, I can only listen to you vent. You have my number if you need an empathetic ear. :rose:

*nods*

Me too.

Now I'm literally off to bake a pie.

And I call dibs on his toys!!!!
 
What is with you girls and my toys?

I don't have any toys anymore. I was waiting to get a subbie and the plan was to do any toy shopping together that way everything we had would be special and just ours with no memories of anyone else attached to them.

The only real toys I have are my body and mind and you all know I am a fan of psych domination so my mind is my best toy. :eek:
 
I scare people too. But, I'm not done. I'm evolving. The best is yet to come.

:)
 
I have also given up I feel I missed out by not knowing what it was I needed untill I was 48, Ive been conned twice since then and now at age 50 I feel I am to old to keep looking :eek:
 
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