I'm a fool

[jinnysub]

I'm new to this. So new. I started a role playing story line yesterday and visited chat a couple times. You all may think this is ridiculous, but this is the first time I've ever done online chat.

I thought it was chat, not real. Not "realationships."

My fantasies of being controlled, especially by a woman, have been with me as long as I can remember. But that's what they have been, fantasies -- something to pull out in the midst of depression or malaise or boring attempts at sex.

This morning I tried what is probably called hot chat with a domme and I began to realize how far I could go, would go, without restraints, restraints like 25 years of marriage, four children, a position in society and a career.

And then I found out that the woman I was chatting with lived within ten miles of me.

I freaked. I logged off. Because I realized that there is a dark side to me that could, would, throw away everything.

I met that woman again, a little while later, and tried to apologize.

I had to run again.

It's just chat.

It's just life.

It's just a mirror.

 

[Purple Haze]

Thank you for sharing.

 

[MissTaken]

I used to behave in a similar fashion when I stumbled across someone local who might know me or of me.

Of course, after a bit, I became more comfortable and can deal with it. However, my real name and address are very privileged information and I am not above lying in the situation you described above.

I hope you didn't give her too much info...

I hope you don't write off the potential for some fun chat once in awhile. It can be a rather interesting and safe way to explore your sexuality.

Take care,
MissT

 

[Gilly Bean]

I definatly agree with Miss T. Don't give out to much personal info when talking to someone on-line. Never know when you have a weirdo on your hands.