I write when I'm sad

[A_Little_Show]

It was obvious, and I should have noticed long before now, but I've just had a palm hit forehead realization. I write erotica when I'm sad.

• In the past 72 hours, I have cumulatively written over 50,000 words across 9 submissions. The first one of the batch to show up is currently my highest rated story, and I'm proud of it. I'm proud of them all. Why am I sad right now? There are multiple reasons, but the latest is that my family's beloved Chocolate Lab died suddenly last Saturday after a car ride and short walk. She was "my" dog and the best dog I have ever known. She was 13 and playful from birth to the day she died. I'm grateful she had a nice last day. It goes to show that we never know what a day will bring.
• Back in 2014, I wrote more than 90,000 words over 8 stories. One of my all time favorites and my third highest rated stand-alone story was in that batch. Why was I sad? My mother died.
• Back in 2013, I wrote more than 120,000 words over 20 stories in three weeks. My second highest rated story was written while on family vacation in Gatlinburg TN. Several of that batch were submitted over the following few months. Some of them have already been taken down or resubmitted under a different pseudonym because they were "controversial". Why was I sad then? My chronic illness that was diagnosed in th 90s became less manageable and basically ended most physical aspects of my sex life. I was in the "grief" stage of the famous seven stages.

 

[NotWise]

I think a lot of us here seek self-understanding. It sounds like you've made a step.

How would your writing change if you weren't sad when you wrote it?

 

[ElectricBlue]

I'm the opposite - I write when I'm contemplative, I don't write when I'm sad. That's when I go do something else.

Hopefully your writing helps you heal, or at least accept .

 

[CoffeeWithMonkeys]

I write differently when I'm sad.

When I'm sad, or in a dark mood, I write on this one story I've been working on about the past ten years. An abuse story. I'll never post it anywhere, but for some reason when I'm in that dark place I write dark.

 

[Hypoxia]

I'm almost always sad or mad but I write when I'm fairly unbothered and feel like writing. My last word spree was between major eye surgeries; I enlarged fonts and peered closely at the screen whilst keyboarding. Maybe upcoming medical tortures will give me a push.

Do moods affect my writing and editing? Depends on whether I feel obsessed.

 

[theMasterBaiter]

It was obvious, and I should have noticed long before now, but I've just had a palm hit forehead realization. I write erotica when I'm sad.

Well, that's very interesting... Now I'll have to read your stories and see if I can detect that hint of sadness in them.

 

[A_Little_Show]

Well, that's very interesting... Now I'll have to read your stories and see if I can detect that hint of sadness in them.

Try, "Taking Care of Tilly" https://www.literotica.com/s/taking-care-of-tilly I cry every time I reread it, but I've probably invested emotions that don't come out on the page. I also kept things moving along because this is erotica and not depressica.

 

[HeyAll]

Writing does take your mind someplace else, so that does make sense.

I write when I have mental energy and ideas that motivate me.

 

[A_Little_Show]

Update: I have now written over 120,000 words in two weeks including a Summer Lovin Entry. Things are pouring out of my psyche. It can't be good for me, but I think some of this work is my best yet.