I just don't give a fuck anymore

[zach79]

Really I don't

I'm tired of school, having no love interest, worrying about unpaid bills, etc...

I realized that all of my friends have moved away, had kids, joined the military, or just generally grown apart from me.

I need something new and different.

I need to reinvent myself once again!!!!!

Reply or don't reply, whatever I don't give a shit!!!

 

[Dixon Carter Lee]

Grow a beard, wait six months, and stir.

 

[Problem Child]

Have you eve tried a Nathan's hot dog?

Great googly-moogly, them sumbitches are GREAT!

 

[peachykeen]

Wow zach, you're a fun guy to hang around, can't see why your friends have gone away...

 

[InnocentAngel81]

you need a friend, i'm not doing anything

 

[Liontamr]

Zach what you need is a really good long session of phone sex to recharge those batteries!

 

[Tantanah]

Really I don't

I'm tired of school, having no love interest, worrying about unpaid bills, etc...

I realized that all of my friends have moved away, had kids, joined the military, or just generally grown apart from me.

I need something new and different.

I need to reinvent myself once again!!!!!

Reply or don't reply, whatever I don't give a shit!!!

We all feel lost sometimes. I'm sorry you're going through it now. Everything passes with time. It does get better.

 

[brokenbrainwave]

welcome to the wonderful world of adulthood

 

[Calamity Jane]

They make medication for that. Think... Vodka.

 

[zach79]

Okay let me state first that the biggest problem I have is this city. I have lived in the decaying squalor that is Muncie, Indiana. Anyone who has lived here (not visited) for a long time knows what I am talking about. I know that life is what you make of it, but I have lived here for about 21 of my 23 years (I lived in Atlanta for a couple years when I was a kid, which BTW is a happening city if I ever seen one).

Mainly what I am saying is that this town is holding me back, holding me back from being something greater, something more than what I am right now.

As soon as I finish off school here I am off to live in Indianapolis, and good god almighty I am more than ready to leave.

I crave change, and at this point any change.

To finish off my ramblings I'll say this, yes I need new friends, yes I need a lover, yes I need a hot dog , and hell some phone sex from a unknown female wouldn't be bad either.

 

[Suzi]

Hey!

Check your PMs!

 

[Marxist]

I missed your point entirely.

 

[Lasher]

Dude, I haven't seen you this bummed since Kelly went out with Slater.

 

[Pagliacci]

You're born, live and die alone. Why are you surprised ?

Do something that you enjoy, talk to a perfect stranger or start up with some sport or whatnot.

I did and it worked for what it's worth.

 

[70/30]

Dude, I haven't seen you this bummed since Kelly went out with Slater.

Have to give you props for that one. Zach, no shit find a hobby...vodka, videogames, oxy, bowling, smoking dope, collecting comic books, provoking fights in grocery store parking lots, or if you're real ambitious give 'em all a go.

 

[Cheyenne]

Is there any particular reason you have to finish school in your home town? Can't you transfer to a different college?

 

[weed]

It's all up to you to make change. Now is a good time if your life is uncomplicated.

 

[MechaBlade]

Sorry to hear it, buddy. I know how things can get hard at the bottom. I feel pretty lonely a lot of the time. What I like to do is take some "me" time. Blow off school for a day. Go to the strip club, spend a hundred bucks (unless that isn't your style). Alchohol does nothing but make me more depressed, but maybe that will work for you like it apparently does for pagancowgirl. Eat some peanut butter sandwiches with cookies and milk. Jack off.

Also, do force yourself to talk to strangers. If they think you're weird, fuck 'em. But I find that this has resulted in interesting experiences. I have no idea what Indianans are like though.

PM me if you want. Can't guarantee how long I'll be on Lit for today tho.

Also, I don't recommend this, but as I continue my downward spiral of life, I like to blatanly lie to people (especially strangers) to make for more interesting conversations. It can suck if you get caught, but it's a good way of temporarily reinvent yourself.

 

[teddybear4play]

As soon as I finish off school here I am off to live in Indianapolis, and good god almighty I am more than ready to leave.

Huh.

I always thought Ball State was a pretty happening place.

TB4p

 

[glamorilla]

not giving a fuck sucks but that can be fun too.

 

[Guest]

Really I don't

I'm tired of school, having no love interest, worrying about unpaid bills, etc...

I realized that all of my friends have moved away, had kids, joined the military, or just generally grown apart from me.

I need something new and different.

I need to reinvent myself once again!!!!!

Reply or don't reply, whatever I don't give a shit!!!

And here I was feeling down in the dumps because my daughter died of SIDS last December. She was only three months old. My wife took off with her "boyfriend" exactly 10 days after that and when she bailed she took my son who was 2. And then just last week, based on a Motion for Paternity, it was deemed by the court that I'm no longer my son's father, and effectively had my heart and soul ripped out of me because I loved that boy more then life itself.

But

It's about time I stopped feeling sorry for myself and looked around at those who have needs greater then mine.

With that in mind:

Zach, I've contacted the admissions offices at several prestigious universities around the country and I just want you to know that I've got several irons in the fire for ya! I've also made arrangements with United Airlines in conjunction with Carnival Cruise Lines for you to have a one week complimentary cruise to St Croix, all expenses paid. I am sure by the time you get back, I'll have the details worked out about your school transfer.

Keep your chin up Zach, many of us are working diligently throughout the night to rescue you from this most unfortunate series of events in your life.

Updates as they happen.

 

[lookin_in_maine]

Fuck I hate it when I lose my cookies. And that was my longest post yet.

 

[Debbie]

Damn lookin_in_maine that sucks. What you have been through is bloody cruel. Nothing I can say will make things better but I hope things will turn out ok for you.

zach, I think people are trying to tell you that things are what you make of them. Change what you can so that things are better for you. Good luck.

 

[Gil]

Have you tried masturbation?

 

[zach79]

Lookin in Maine: Sorry about your luck...it just goes to show that no matter how bad things are, more than likely someone has it worse than you do. Hope things get better for you. However I don't know if you're being sincere or sarcastic with your comments though.

Gil: yes I've tried masturbation, yet I grow bored with it.

I need love or companionship (I don't want pets...so I'm going to kill that comeback for some of you )

tb4p: Ball State is a happening place; in fact it's the only thing keeping this city alive.....but it's grown tiresome.

70/30: I did have a few hobbies like smoking dope, video games, but my military obligations put an end to the weed usage.

Which I mean is stupid,which is truly worse: smoking weed and vegging out (video games, a movie, reading, etc..), or drinking alcohol (hmm...let's see I've wrecked a car, woke up in strange places, spent a day and a half puking my guts out,etc...).

To all the others who wished me well, thanks.

I try not to make my life out to be a sob story, but none of you are me so you really can't say if I'm overreacting or I do have legitimate concerns.

I know that everyone's life has problems, but they also have happiness.....after all this is what makes the human experience.

I know that life is what you make of it, but it just seems that lately I've been stuck in a rut that is impossible to get out of.

As I've told everyone who will listen (outside of here) my life will totally change when I leave this broken down shell of a city, it might be more difficult, but I'll enjoy it a lot more.