I hit bottom today

[freakygirl]

Now I'm rolling around in the shit at the bottom of the deepest hole I have ever known.

Hopefully a good old fashioned talking with A will help...

We have been bickering lately.. alot! Over little things.. We never fight.. I mean NEVER!

He gives me everything I could ask for.. but I started taking it for granted.

I'm going to open up to him tonight.. tell him everything hopefully he will still be here tomorrow. If he isn't, I understand that.. it would be hard for me to stay if I was in his shoes. If he is here tomorrow.. things will be hard.. but I'm going to do my best to be a better person.


No need to respond to this.. it's more my way of getting this off my chest than anything else.

I'm not looking for advice or sympathy.. just a release.. and I really don't have anyone to "talk" to about things.. it's hard to open up about mistakes you make.. ya know?


God I'm rambling again..

 

[koalabear]

HeY look at the bright side! You got to blow two G-Men!!

 

[Mischka]

Good luck, freaky.

 

[*bratcat*]

 

[freakygirl]

koala.. smart ass..lmao.. I'm crying.. don't make me laugh. I might choke on my tears or something

Thank you Mischka.

Brat-I think I've opened the can of worms. No matter how much or how little I tell him. The shit is going to hit the fan. How much of it splatters on me is left to the unknown. I fear not for myself.. but for someone else.

 

[cymbidia]

Darlin'?
We do what we think is right.
Sometimes it has unforeseeable consequences, sometimes we know where it's gonna go, but we still have to do the best we can for ourselves - and for those we love.

You're strong.
Whatever has gone wrong can be fixed.
And if it can't be fixed, then you can stay focused and civil in the middle of the turmoil that may follow.

Use us, this place, as a sounding board. Of anyone here, i ought to know just how supportive people here can and *will* be, no matter how little or how much you tell us of whatever is going on.

Remember though: when you hit the power button and shut the machine off, it's just you and those you live with who inhabit your universe. Choose for yourself, regardless of us, here.

We'll be here to support you, though, when you need us - just like you've been there for so many of us so many times.

b.

 

[YogiBare]

What cym said, Freaky.

I wish you the best tomorrow. Your a gutsy woman. Sounds like you've resolved to do what you believe needs to be done.

God bless.

 

[sch00lteacher]

http://www.mystork.co.uk/images/topics/hugs.jpg

 

[Sillyman]

It'll be okay. Don't worry.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

Just go with your heart Darlin while still using your head....

 

[Debbie]

Im not responding.
I just stumbled in here by accident.
*hug* Thinking of you.

 

[batter]

freakygurl...

nothing wrong with venting.
it is better to release this stuff than keep it bottled up inside where it can cause major problems.

what ever the outcome Freaky...
Hugs!
and we will always be here for you.

 

[SilverVeil]

I'm sorry things are going badly for you. I hope it gets better quickly.

 

[Guest]

I just wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts.
Follow your inner voice. She's full of strength, even when you feel weak.

You are going to be ok, FG.

 

[clit_licker30]

Don't be so freaky, girl. Keep stuff to your self. Get over it by your self. Don't fuck up everyones day, just to make yourself feel better. Be an adult and suck it up yourself.

 

[missy2]

Tough spot to be in.Happened to me once.We talked it out,but ultimately,it only lasted a few weeks.I knew it was my fault also.That definitely was the hardest part.Pick your words carefully.Change is difficult,but often times worth it.Sending good vibes your way...............Missy2

 

[Guest]

 

[Calamity Jane]

Hugs freaky darlin.

Stay strong and do what you know is right. We're here when you come back, and some of us are only a phone call away.

 

[Cheyenne]

And how did it go? Better than you expected, I hope.

 

[freakygirl]

Well I talked to him, and yes.. things did go better than I thought.

I had talked to the "other half" of this problem (if that is what I want to call it). And we decided together that it would be best to leave some of the details out. No I didn't lie, I just didn't reveal everything.

I have a good life.. "He" (the other man) has a good life and we couldn't see ruining everyones life over something stupid that we did together.

We decided to stop the games between us.. and go back to what we had before.. a good friendship.

I love A and "he" loves K.. we don't love each other.. we lust each other. We couldn't maintain a relationship when we were together and we know we couldn't do it now. Especially behind everyones backs (because there is no way, even if we were to tell our SO's that we could be together as a couple in open.. that's a long story that doesn't need to be explained right now)

Thank you to everyone that pm'd, emailed, Im'd and posted here..

I really appreciate it

 

[nasty]

Now I'm rolling around in the shit at the bottom of the deepest hole I have ever known. /B]

Hehe. I don't need to comment on that. It speaks for itself. In all honesty, vent all you want. I like listening to your vents.