I feel empty what about you.

[InnocentAngel81]

I've been having these nightmares and countless anxiety attacks over the last two weeks, as soon as I feel a little better my mother basically kills my mood, calls me lazy and ever name in the book in front of my little brothers. I think she gets off on doing that. she waits until the person who defends me is out of the house then bam she makes me cry.

 

[riff]

It's called abuse. I never realised that as a child I was the victim of abuse because I loved my parents and thought they would never abuse me or neglect me. But they did. Not all the time, now, but then it doesn't take but a spoonful of sewage to make a clean jug of water sewage either.

As an adult I have perpetuated abuse in my life- whether by abusing others, myself, or inviting others to abuse me. Something very personal happened to me a few months back and it all came crashing in on me. So I began going to therapy. I have been going for 3 months now.

It's crazy. Unsettling. Painful. I think it is helping in some ways, but it is not easy at all.

I am trying to fill myself up with good things. I deserve it. Everybody does. You too.

Fuck your mom. What she is doing is wrong. Don't listen to her if you can help it- go be nice to you!

 

[Wiggles]

*Hugs*

You need to get out of that house.

Have you asked your mother why she does that? Does she have a pyschological or drinking problem?

 

[nasty]

Nice Mom. I'm sorry that you have to put up with that crap. Insentive to start looking for your own house.

 

[bored1]

I've been having these nightmares and countless anxiety attacks over the last two weeks, as soon as I feel a little better my mother basically kills my mood, calls me lazy and ever name in the book in front of my little brothers. I think she gets off on doing that. she waits until the person who defends me is out of the house then bam she makes me cry.

I feel empty sometimes. But, I dont let others make me feel empty. As long as you know in your heart that your not lazy and not any of the other names that your called you'll be ok. Try hard not to let others make you feel bad about yourself. Its can be hard to do,but it can be done.

 

[nasty]

Re: Re: I feel empty what about you.

I feel empty sometimes. But, I dont let others make me feel empty. As long as you know in your heart that your not lazy and not any of the other names that your called you'll be ok. Try hard not to let others make you feel bad about yourself. Its can be hard to do,but it can be done.

ALWAYS remember, there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[InnocentAngel81]

*Hugs*

You need to get out of that house.

Have you asked your mother why she does that? Does she have a pyschological or drinking problem?

she never gives me a reason, she doesnt drink, she refuse to admit she is the reason i am depressed

 

[bluemuse]

My mother is an alcoholic and she was verbally abusive when she drank. I spent my childhood trying to make myself invisible so I would be spared her sharp tongue. It has taken a long time for me to rebuild the self esteem that was chipped away at over the years. It's been along road.....

You need to remove yourself from that toxic environment. The sooner the better. A smart man once said, "You don't drown by getting in the water, you drown by staying there." Save yourself.



bluemuse

 

[thumbs2_ca]

sigh

I am sorry you are going through that innocent angel.
Mental abuse is as hard on you as physical abuse and add my voice to the others on this thread suggesting you get out of that environment first chance you get.
Try to always remember that you are special and believe in your heart that what she says is not true.
I know it is hard but keep smiling. Things will be better!
Hugsss

 

[AzureAngel]

Shitty situation, but you do have choices you can make. It's not your fault she does it, but... if you're not happy, do somethin' about it.

I'd elaborate, but I'm hungry. So I'm going to do something about that and eat.

 

[AzureAngel]

Yeah, so that response seemed really cold from me. Oi.

I really do think it's horrible that your mother does that. Verbal abuse can be incredibly damaging, as many will attest to. When it's from someone like that, it's difficult not to take it to heart, regardless of how much you try not to.

There -are- choices, though.

 

[harleyhog]

you can help yourself by getting a job(even part time)and save up a small bundle.. #1 it gets you out of the house away from her. #2 you will eventually have money saved so you can find a place of your own............nobody can do any of this for you,,,,,,,,,,,you have to decide for yourself just how much is enough,,,and then do something about it.

 

[missy2]

GET OUT!

I had a friend abused like that.She confronted her mother and it just got worse.Thank God the attempt to take her own life failed.Hugs to you.Take care of #1.Also make sure it doesn't extend to siblings.Mom needs help.

 

[InnocentAngel81]

GET OUT!

I had a friend abused like that.She confronted her mother and it just got worse.Thank God the attempt to take her own life failed.Hugs to you.Take care of #1.Also make sure it doesn't extend to siblings.Mom needs help.

i will try to get out i'm trying to find work but it's kinda hard since my legs are bugging me off and on. i did try to take my life but my mom said i was lying to get attention.

 

[SexySlut2]

I grew up with my father being like that. In his eyes I was never good enough. I moved out when I was 15 and soon after my mom divorced him. We still, 16 years later have a very strained relationship. He just had no clue as to how to be a parent. It's much more than providing food, clothing and shelter. it's providing emotional stability and instilling self confidence among many other things.
I agree with everyone else, you need to get your own place.

 

[AzureAngel]

i will try to get out i'm trying to find work but it's kinda hard since my legs are bugging me off and on. i did try to take my life but my mom said i was lying to get attention.

Angel, if you want something to happen, make it happen. Suicide's not a solution... and just living with her crap isn't much of an answer either.

Any friends you could stay with? Any job you can get where there isn't a lot of standing (if your legs give you trouble)? Brainstorm some choices.

Make it happen.

 

[InnocentAngel81]

Angel, if you want something to happen, make it happen. Suicide's not a solution... and just living with her crap isn't much of an answer either.

Any friends you could stay with? Any job you can get where there isn't a lot of standing (if your legs give you trouble)? Brainstorm some choices.

Make it happen.

I just registered for a three hour summer class, so that should keep me out to house and maybe i can find a job while i am out there. sorry it took me so long to respond i took a long nap