I could use some support...

[rikaaim]

I'm writting a very personal story, and have just come to the part that I have been dreaded for so long. It quite frankly frightens me to write it, and I need some support. I have the first part done, but that was the simple part in my book. I guess what I need is to know that somehow this, what I write, can help. Can it help otheres? I don't know. If it can in anyway, I shall continue. It is very painful and full of turmoil and emotions. It's so hard to let go.

 

[rikaaim]

I shall continue after I regain some composure. It's just tough to write this story. If anyone even reads what I have so far you'd understand why.

 

[nikkijames]

Sounds like you are having a very rough time with things. If you need a shoulder to lean on or something.. I offer mine.

I don't know you well, but sometimes strangers can be good support.

Nikki

 

[rikaaim]

Sounds like you are having a very rough time with things. If you need a shoulder to lean on or something.. I offer mine.

I don't know you well, but sometimes strangers can be good support.

Nikki

I thank you. Some battles just have to be fought inside. This is tough, but I hope that in the end, someone, at least one person, can find hope and peace. Maybe. It's so much pain that it's hard to say.

 

[destinie21]

I'm writting a very personal story, and have just come to the part that I have been dreaded for so long. It quite frankly frightens me to write it, and I need some support. I have the first part done, but that was the simple part in my book. I guess what I need is to know that somehow this, what I write, can help. Can it help otheres? I don't know. If it can in anyway, I shall continue. It is very painful and full of turmoil and emotions. It's so hard to let go.

If it helps yyou then it counts, writing should be cathartic, if it's just painful with no other purpose then it's moot no?

 

[nikkijames]

I thank you. Some battles just have to be fought inside. This is tough, but I hope that in the end, someone, at least one person, can find hope and peace. Maybe. It's so much pain that it's hard to say.

No thanks are needed, however you are welcome.

Just trying to help out.

**HUGS**

 

[minsue]

Rika, as one who writes to ease pain, I can empathise. I agree with Des. If it is cathartic for you, write. If it is not, what's the point?

Either way, you've friends here.

 

[rikaaim]

Re: Re: I could use some support...

If it helps yyou then it counts, writing should be cathartic, if it's just painful with no other purpose then it's moot no?

Moot? No. It has a purose. No chatharsism though. It's past. But it's past that must be told. I have no other way to put it than it must be done whether I like it or not. Once it's up you shall see why, perhaps.

 

[Bridget69]

Sometimes writing helps to overcome difficult times. I think it's good therapy and a good way to acknowledge your feelings and work through them.

 

[rikaaim]

Well, I must say now, the feelings have been worked through enough where I can live daily and not worry about it. It's when I think about the past and what I went through that gets me. I have to do this though. It's hard to explain why. I just feel I do. I thank everyone for their support and hope to have it still when I am done as you may all view me differently.

 

[doormouse]

*hugs* to you and I hope you get through writing it.

Maybe it'd be better to keep it as a personal venture/gain for yourself to recover and move forward.

You know what the trolls are like, and if this story is that personal and hard to write, it might just hurt you more when you see criticism. They want stroke stories.

I wrote one that was very real and personal to me and made the top of the feedback forum for the abusive comments the story received because it contained violence. I've since turned comments off, but just be warned. It hurts to see people criticise something that means so much to you.

Best of luck.

DM.

 

[Boota]

I'm a musician and I ran into something like this a while back. I was writing a song that was deeply personal and it was inspired by an old wound. I had a lot of the song recorded, but I was missing the main guitar part. It was the part that got to me. The song is an instrumental, the music was just killing me. I forced myself to go into the studio one night and just put the track down. I felt horrible while I did it, but I worked through it and got the job done.

Now, with the passage of time, it is my favorite thing I have ever done. And I feel great about everything. It healed the wound.

Maybe the same thing can happen for you once you get this down. Good luck.

 

[rikaaim]

*hugs* to you and I hope you get through writing it.

Maybe it'd be better to keep it as a personal venture/gain for yourself to recover and move forward.

You know what the trolls are like, and if this story is that personal and hard to write, it might just hurt you more when you see criticism. They want stroke stories.

I wrote one that was very real and personal to me and made the top of the feedback forum for the abusive comments the story received because it contained violence. I've since turned comments off, but just be warned. It hurts to see people criticise something that means so much to you.

Best of luck.

DM.

I don't give a fuck about what those people say or do. I know what they want and could give it to them if I desired. This is for the people who need it. Trolls? Shit, if that's the worse thing that happened in my life I'd be lucky.

 

[rikaaim]

I'm a musician and I ran into something like this a while back. I was writing a song that was deeply personal and it was inspired by an old wound. I had a lot of the song recorded, but I was missing the main guitar part. It was the part that got to me. The song is an instrumental, the music was just killing me. I forced myself to go into the studio one night and just put the track down. I felt horrible while I did it, but I worked through it and got the job done.

Now, with the passage of time, it is my favorite thing I have ever done. And I feel great about everything. It healed the wound.

Maybe the same thing can happen for you once you get this down. Good luck.

I'm doing it now buddy. Slowly and surely. Surly? Nah, I think it's surely. Well, maybe just a touch of surly. It is tough, but I think it can be very bennificial down the road. Thanks for your support and honesty and candor. Thanks to everyone.

 

[doormouse]

I don't give a fuck about what those people say or do. I know what they want and could give it to them if I desired. This is for the people who need it. Trolls? Shit, if that's the worse thing that happened in my life I'd be lucky.

LOL

I like your attitude.

 

[BlackShanglan]

*nuzzles*

Hang in there, pasha. I would really like to read it.

Writing that is from the heart is the most difficult sort. The more personal, the harder to write.

It will be worth it.

Shanglan

 

[rikaaim]

LOL

I like your attitude.

It's gotta be that way. Can't let them get you down. Not when I fought so hard for my happiness. I don't let anyone, ANYONE, take my happiness away from me now.

 

[gauchecritic]

With any luck (I've had it happen a couple of times) your reaction at the end of writing will be "Is that it?" And you may wonder what all the fuss was about.

 

[rikaaim]

What seems to be floating in my head now is how my friends will react. How my friends here will react. I know it shouldn't matter, but it does.

 

[BlackShanglan]

What seems to be floating in my head now is how my friends will react. How my friends here will react. I know it shouldn't matter, but it does.

I'm in the same position, but am working on the assumption that those who actually work out the connection will be charitable, and those who don't won't really matter.

Shanglan

 

[Black Tulip]

Obviously I have no clue what you're talking about.
But most regulars of the AH are rather supportive.
True friends don't turn away because you did less desirable things.
We all have our dark parts.

After you're done writing, you can always decide if it's worth posting after all. And remember, there are no acts committed by you alone. There are always people who did the same, experienced similar emotions; in short you're never the only one.

http://www.addis-welt.de/smilie/smilie/snowman/smile.gif

 

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[rakastuja]

As someone who writes about very personal things almost daily I can say that anonymity is a great thing. Even if you have identified yourself as a nickname and possibly have a reputation you dont want to ruin you can still use that anonymity. You can have someone reading your writings without revealing who you are, and that way get feedback and confidence.

Im still struggling to write my first stories. I have huge problems because Im trying to write only true stories - that is my own experiences. Its hard to deal with the pain and embarrasment. Written text never seems to match the reality...

 

[Songcatcher]

Im still struggling to write my first stories. I have huge problems because Im trying to write only true stories - that is my own experiences.

Hi Liar.

 

[rakastuja]

Hi Liar.

??

You got something reasonable to say or just trying to pick a fight?

Edit: Actually it seems you're a one line troll... so nvm.