i can't take it anymore

[scylis]

i'm so lonely right now, i can't stand it! i don't think anybody on any of my contact lists is on right now... and, just out of the blue, i'm having one of my accute depressive episodes right now..

i feel so worthless right now, like nothing i do is any good or means anything..

pretty soon my emotions will all go numb.. they always do when i get really depressed.. i hate it.. i'd rather be extreemly depressed than numb..

somebody, please...
talk to me?

 

[Mistress]

Aww sweetie! Icq isnt working for me at the moment or else I'd be on!!! Snuggles you tight and kisses your nose!
We can be two depressed people together yes??

 

[MinkSoul]

Hi Scylis....

did you see Mysts tree house?

 

[Cheyenne]

somebody, please...
talk to me?

You've got a whole bb full of people! We're all here! Are you watching the Oscars?

 

[Nicole]

Scylis, babe I was there last week, I know how you feel.

Please know that we are all here for you, why don't we start a new thread and have some fun? Your choice babe

Oh and I know damn well these things don't work but ... {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Scylis}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

 

[Mistress]

Scylis sweetie, you know your not alone, and you know that I understand what you mean. Don't forget our talk the other day! Smiles brightly!

 

[scylis]

Mistress: yeah.. i havn't forgotten.. but it's easy to forget that there are others out there when you have to keep the tv on to remind yourself that there actually is a world outside of your immediate area..

Cheyenne: a whole BB full of people i really can't identify with most of the time.. i always feel like i'm on the outside looking in..

Nicole: i don't know if i can have fun being in the state i'm in right now..

 

[Nicole]

Nicole: i don't know if i can have fun being in the state i'm in right now..

Oh sweetie I know, Like I said I was there last week. I would offer you an ear but I'm out of here soon and I can't afford to be late (My son needs picking up).

If you need to vent or scream or get it all out, just email me and I'll see what I can do to help out.

I DO know how you feel, keep posting and keep occupied sweetheart, we're all here for you.

 

[Cheyenne]

Cheyenne: a whole BB full of people i really can't identify with most of the time.. i always feel like i'm on the outside looking in..

I know that feeling, too. But jump in anyway! Fight the depression, don't let it win! Been there, done that. It isn't fun, but you can do it, too. Let us help.

 

[Mistress]

Bah! Hops into Scylis' lap and bounces a bit!
You know damn well your not outside of my own problems Darlin! Member, we are so alike its scary! Makes a funny face at you!

 

[DarlingBri]

Scylis...

I don't know you well enough to offer the kind of support you need, but if you feel unable to cope or that your life is at risk, please read this:

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

And please consider calling The Samaritans with the information listed there. They are available to help you, 24 hours a day, and they can. Sometimes, it's just good to have someone on the other end of the line, even if you don't know what to say. They'll listen when no one else will.

Best of luck,
Bri

 

[CelestialBody]

scylis

 

[scylis]

Bri.. it's not that serious.. sure, sometimes i could care less as to what happens to me, but what that would do those few friends i have is something i fear a thousand times more than i fear my own death.. for one, especially, i'd rather spend an eternity of in the most painful of ways that the cruelest of madmen can think up than hurt her..

tonight is just a bad night.. i'm sure more than a few of you know what i mean when i say that..

 

[DarlingBri]

Better safe than sorry

I'm glad you don't feel you're at risk.

Sometimes skipping anight of sleep can kick a depressive cycle... it does actually work!

 

[teresafannin]

Hi scylis, I know a lot about depression, been going through it for 18 months now. I know we don't know each other, but I would be glad to listen if you need an ear. I am home alone most nights & my ICQ is in my profile. Take care & know that there are people out here who care. Sending good thoughts your way, Teresa

 

[scylis]

the theory being that then one's too tired to be depressed?

 

[Mistress]

Smiles!

Cyclothymia isnt all that grand either,more so when its a disorder your born with. Scylis will hang in there, he's strong and cute!

 

[DarlingBri]

LOL

No, the theory being that exhaustion stimulates seratonin production in the brain. It will also help you get a better night's sleep the next night, but you can only sleep for 8 hours.

I had a very good psychiatrist who suggested this to me at one point, and I've used it consistently ever since.

 

[scylis]

Smiles!

Cyclothymia isnt all that grand either,more so when its a disorder your born with. Scylis will hang in there, he's strong and cute!

i'm neither, but i won't hold it against you, hun.. heh..

 

[Ravenloft]

Scylis, take a look at my Ranting does a body good thread. I think I felt a little like you did erlier, then I wrote that with tongue planted firmly in cheek and felt better for it.

 

[Mistress]

Bah told you I was crazy..just ask my shrink!