I am so pissed right now

Gilly Bean

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It is my own fault, and I am ticked all to hell.

Background info first, or I get side tracked, and off the topic at hand.

For two years, my husband worked for a thing called a MUD. Basically, it is online RP chat room. More complex then that, but that is in laymens terms. Much like an online AD&D game.

He worked for two people who owned it. After much poking, and proding, he got me to FINALLY try it one night, in Feb of 2000. So, I got hooked. Loved it. Started working for those two people as well. After a few months, the wife of the couple who owned it started having alot of issues, and she was getting into a bad habit of taking it out on us. Well, not to be stepped on, we left, and started our own MUD. This was a year ago, August.

We left on more or less sticky terms. We were pleasant enough to each other, but not happy with each other. After a LONG drawn out email/mud battle over so much stuff it isn't funny, the other couple disappeared, and left us alone. Through all of this, my husband was not blamed by them for any of it. I took the full brutal assult. The woman made it no secret that I was 'evil', and a bitch, etc. Well, after they 'disappeared', things were fine, and alot calmer, and my life finally got back to normal. That would have been early in the year, probably around Feb, or March. Maybe a bit later, but I don't think so.

Well, now, she all the sudden appears again. I frequent (or used to, before this place ate up all my time) a bb made just for muds. After a problem with a player, I posted there, asking for advice, and she pops up out of no where, stating that I was the problem, not the player, and stating the old stuff all over again. In the same post, she asked my husband how he was. He responded, stating that in fact the problem had been solved, and it was the player, etc, basically standing up for me. She responding asking him to email her. He said to me, personally, that he wasn't going.

Today, I was sorting through his old email, looking through all the joke emails he gets from his dad. This is normal, and he knows that I do it. Top of the trash bin, there is an email from that woman. Not a first email, but a reply. In fact, not just a first reply, but it had 9 RE: attached to it. So, I looked a bit farther, and find out they have been talking and emailing back and forth for a week or two.

What bothers me about it is that I am the one getting attacked by her, he tells me flat out there was no way in hell he would email her, and from the looks of it, he started the emails, not her.

I am SO pissed. I had to vent somewhere, and I know he doesn't look here much. I am just so pissed, because he has never mentioned it. In fact, just a few days ago, he made a comment about how they might be starting up thier mud again, and I asked where he heard that, and he said he heard it from a few of our players. Which, after reading the emails, I find out was a blatent lie.


Gilly Bean, who is PISSED
 
First of all: what a bastard. I'd be pissed, too!

Second: You MUD? No way! I MUSH. :)
 
OUCH!!

Not sure what else to say.

Would a big tight hug help any?((((((HUG)))))
 
Sorry that happened to you Gilly. It sucks on a big scale to have someone you love lie to you. I hope your husband comes clean to you and you can forgive him. You have my very best hopes and wishes.
 
Thank you everyone, I needed that. I am just SO mad at him!



naudiz said:
First of all: what a bastard. I'd be pissed, too!

Second: You MUD? No way! I MUSH. :)


Neat! Wasn't sure anyone would know what I was talking about. We own a Diku Rom 2.4b6, with a medieval kingdoms theme. How bout your mush?
 
Hey GB?

what are you planning to do about it?

I suggest printing out all the correspondence and putting it on the refrigerator for him to see. hehe. That should start some communication.
 
I administrate on a MUSH set in modern day Paris using White Wolf's "World of Darkness" system, and I'm currently building a MUSH based on an original idea (my own, even). And I play on way too many than I want to admit to. ;)

It's a neat hobby, though. I'm biased, of course, but it's a great creative outlet for me. Still, of all the online 'places' I've been, there is nothing like a MUD or MUSH that can even compete in the arena of political back-stabbing bullshit behind the scenes. I hate the politics! But you take the bad with the good, I guess.
 
Re: Hey GB?

TN_Vixen said:
what are you planning to do about it?

I suggest printing out all the correspondence and putting it on the refrigerator for him to see. hehe. That should start some communication.

For now, vent to everyone here, and hopefully cool off enough to sit and wait to see if he mentions it. If he doesn't, then I think I am just going to flat out ask how she has been.

In all their emails, there hasn't been any tension, any negative remarks, or anything. But, then, I am never mentioned, or brought up, by either of them. I can understand how he put alot of time and effort into thier mud when he worked there, and how he knew them for so long before I showed up. They were friends before, and I don't begrudge him the right to have his own friends, since we all have our own friends. But it really bothers me that he chooses to have a friend who flat out, and vocally, doesn't like me to that extent. We have other people who are friends that the other doesn't nessacerilly like, but we know about them. He knows I talk to this one guy Andy, whom he doesn't like. I know he talkes to Paul, whom I don't like. I just hate that he lied about it, and is hiding it from me. And not very well, either. He knows I check his email, because his dad doesn't always remember to send jokes my way.

-growl-

Basically, I guess I am gonna sit on the info for a day, or two, and see if he says anything. If not, then I will ask. My worst habit is that when I am mad at someone, I rarely tell that person. I sit on it, fester, etc. My step mom taught me that when I was growing up, because she was an alcoholic, who was verbally abusive. I learned to keep my mouth shut about it. It is easier to say things here then it is to someone's face.
 
Uh-oh

Just offering my {{{{{ HUGS }}}}} and support for you Gilly Beanie Baby. XX MUAH XX

kgboot
 
Gilly? You're verbal. You write well. Your ideas and feelings and thoughts seem to flow easily from brain to fingers.

Perhaps:
Write out what upsets you so much.
Rewrite it.
Get it in list form.
In a couple days, if he hasn't come clean, approach him calmly, list in hand, and offer him your feelings.
Allow him to explain.
Go from there.

You know, just as everyone who's married or in a long-term committed relationship knows, that marriages have ups and downs, times of heat and times of coolness, times of easy laughter and times of discouraging snappishness. Perhaps you're in a down time. Perhaps his friendship with this woman is more important to him than he knew at the beginning of the trouble (and i'm not suggesting any infidelity, either, simply a bonded friendship). Perhaps he's wanted to talk to you about his mixed-up feelings and just didn't know where to begin.

Give him the benefit of the doubt, anyway, until you know you cannot. That seems only fair, hmmm?


(BTW, i was on BayMOO for a couple years early in the 90's. Really fun. ;) )
 
A bit more unasked advice.

1) Do not emulate the muffster.

2) Don't go into it as a confrontation, don't stockpile ammo to use against him. Don't print up the email. Explain your position, what you were doing and that you came across this thing. Explain how you feel. Ask him for an explanation, don't demand. The thing is to keep him off the defensive. When someone is defensive they have nothing constructive to say and will, in fact, attack back. Of course this doesn't mean to roll over and play doormat. It just means to make sure to use language and tones that will not instigate a fight since the subject matter can do that on its own. Hopefully he'll talk back with you and clear it up.
 
I can understand how you feel Gilly Bean , it is horrible finding out your loved one can do things without telling you .....even if it is innocent , which I am sure it is .....

I feel that Cymbidia's advise is really good , write it all down , let your feelings out on paper, you are articulate , so use it girl.......

At worse , be fair , he is only a lieing bastard , which i am afraid a lot of men are ......but he got caught !!....

Best of luck my friend, and most of all SMILE.....:) .( i can only do smilies like this as i cant seem to do them from the smiles on the side box !!..Laughs)....so you got Yahoo smiles instead ...:)
 
:)

OH WOW !!! OH WOW !!!......I DID REAL SMILES ....LOL.LOL...:)....:)


Sorry got carried away ........lol...:)
 
Typically people who do not "hide" things want to get "caught" for one reason or another. It may be time to look at the relationship from a different level.
 
sorry

hope you get over that.she is stupid anyway for doing that to a sweet lady like yourself.
 
Yeah do what Killer Muffin says.

so your into M.U.D.s.

Tell me about your games. How much to play and stuff like that.




gilly bean and MUD. what a picture......
shut up brain or i'll stab you with a qtip.
 
take killer muffins advice ,
play it cool , dont lose your head and most of all
good luck and take care
 
Hey Gilly-

I can totally appreciate your frustration! I think Cym has some good advice. I do think it is important for the two of you to talk about all of this- no matter what his intentions, he is hiding something from you and has hurt your feelings :( I hope the two of you are able to work through this. My thoughts are with you...

*hugs!*
 
Sometimes in business it is necessary to deal with distasteful people in order to get what you need. Perhaps your husband is picking her brain for nugets of info that would help him now. He knows there is bad blood between you and her so he is keeping mum on what is happening. I don't know this is the case, just offering one possibility to make my point.

Give him the benefit of the doubt. After you cool down (hours, days, whatever) bring the subject up in a non-judgemental manner. After all, this isn't just "some guy" but the man you married, he deserves a chance to set the record straight. Conversely, you deserve an explaination that is the truth. Calm, open communication will get both.
 
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