bilash
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I sometimes enjoy reading very perverse literotica. I can understand that what the characters are doing in the story is i) immoral ii) not consensual iii) manipulative
Yet, I end up fantacizing myself as the victim in the story, I enjoy being the helpless victim in my mind, all sorts of inhumane stuffs being done to me.
Then , after the orgasm ends, and a few seconds later I tell myself , " I didn't know I was such a masochist/sadist. I knew what the story was about, I knew it would be mental trauma thinking myself in these painful characters. Yet I did it anyway. Is this how you are in real? Will you really end up doing these fucked up shit in real life ? "
The experiences I'm facing , is it normal? I intentionally seek out stories which goes against my moral standards , I intentionally imagine myself as the victim of manipulation/abuse/etc etc in those stories, I get horny and after the deed is done, I become a Socrates / Aristotle
, asking myself philosophical questions .
And it always ends with my ultimate decision : I WILL NEVER EVER LET ANYONE TREAT ME LIKE THAT.
Yet, I end up fantacizing myself as the victim in the story, I enjoy being the helpless victim in my mind, all sorts of inhumane stuffs being done to me.
Then , after the orgasm ends, and a few seconds later I tell myself , " I didn't know I was such a masochist/sadist. I knew what the story was about, I knew it would be mental trauma thinking myself in these painful characters. Yet I did it anyway. Is this how you are in real? Will you really end up doing these fucked up shit in real life ? "
The experiences I'm facing , is it normal? I intentionally seek out stories which goes against my moral standards , I intentionally imagine myself as the victim of manipulation/abuse/etc etc in those stories, I get horny and after the deed is done, I become a Socrates / Aristotle
And it always ends with my ultimate decision : I WILL NEVER EVER LET ANYONE TREAT ME LIKE THAT.